Sloth

anymore.

“We got a surprise for you.” Fish ran a hand through his greasy blond hair-he’d decided the tousled, windblown look would get him more girls. Stuck at the back of the stage, behind the drums, only his head was visible, he always pointed out. He couldn’t do anything about his face, but the hair was a constant work in progress.

“Uh-huh.”

“Aren’t you curious?”

“No.”

“You don’t want a surprise?” Fish asked, sounding put out.

“Do I get a choice?”

Fish shrugged. “Good point.” They’d reached the van, and Reed headed toward the driver’s seat, as always. But Fish pushed him toward the back. “Not today. I’m driving, Hale has shotgun. You’re in back.”

Reed shook his head and slung himself into the van- nearly landing in the lap of a tall, skinny brunette who was sprawled along the length of the backseat. Her legs were nearly bare, along with the rest of her.

“Uh… Fish?”

“Surprise!” Hale chuckled and twisted around to face the backseat. “Reed, meet Sandra. We thought she could cheer you up. She’s a big fan.” Hale’s hands flickered briefly at his chest, universal code for bigness of a certain shape and form. Reed didn’t need the tip. Sandra was bulging out of a tight leather halter top, her breasts seeming ready to escape at any moment.

“The boys told me I could ride along with you,” Sandra said, in a soft, flighty voice. “Hope you don’t mind.”

He didn’t want to touch her; but she was lying across his seat and showed no sign of moving. He nudged her gently and squeezed himself in. She grabbed his hand. “I love guitarists,” she said, massaging his fingers. “Such a strong grip, all that flexibility-”

“Let’s get going,” Reed said. He leaned against the dirty window and stared out at the dull scenery. He tried to ignore the pressure of Sandra’s body leaning against his, and the way her fingers were playing up and down his thigh. The bar was close. They’d be there soon.

“Whatcha thinking about?” she asked, after a few minutes of silence.

“Nothing.”

He wished it were true. But every time he tried to wipe his mind, the words came back. Her voice. It was his own fault-he’d listened to the voice mail, the last voice mail, so often that he’d memorized it. And even now, wishing he could forget it, he couldn’t stop hearing her voice.

Reed, I don’t know if you want to hear this, but I need to tell you that I’m sorry. I was wrong, about everything.

Then there was a pause, and a loud, deep breath.

I’m sure you don’t want to talk to me, but-

Her voice shook on the word.

I need to talk to you, to explain. Just call me back. Please. Because I-

Another pause. And this one was the worst, because he would never know what Kaia was about to say. And because he knew the last two words would be the last, and she would never know if he accepted them.

I’m sorry.

The joint was burned out, and he lit another one.

“The strong, silent type,” Sandra said, winding her finger through one of his curls. “I like.” She edged closer.

He inhaled deeply, blew out a puff of smoke, and waited for the calm to settle over him again. There was no other escape.

The timing was suspicious. An hour after the Adam encounter and Miranda called, suggesting- quel coincidence!-a night out at the Lost and Found to see the Blind Monkeys. Harper may have taken a hiatus from scheming, but she recognized the signs; so Miranda and Adam were teaming up to drag her out of the house and back to “normal” life? So be it. She had her own reasons for wanting to suffer through a Blind Monkeys performance; and if she ran into Adam, at least she’d be ready.

She just wasn’t ready to face the rest of the senior class, Miranda having neglected to mention that the band was playing the official opening event for Senior Spirit Week. That meant crowds, noise, gossip, a night of public posturing… and no alcohol to dull the pain. At the request of Haven High, the Lost and Found had gone dry for the night, and Harper was left with few options. She and Miranda pulled two chairs up to a tiny, filthy table and set down their Cokes.

“This sucks,” she complained, trying to make herself heard over the noise passing as music that was blasting out of a nearby speaker.

“What?” Miranda mouthed.

“This sucks!” Harper shouted. Miranda just shook her head, miming frustration. It was too loud for anything else. “I shouldn’t have come,” Harper said at normal volume, relishing the strange sensation of knowing no one would hear. “I hate-” She stopped, as the lyrics became clear.

Get out of my dreams.

Get out of my head.

Will I have to stick around this hell,

When I’m the one who’s dead?

It was a shit song, but she knew who’d written it, and why. She’d wanted to see him-not speak to him, of course, but just watch him. Reed Sawyer, Kaia’s… whatever. He was hunched over the mic, dark, shaggy hair falling across his glassy eyes, his voice coarse and throaty, scraping across the so-called melody.

She’d seen this band play once before, she suddenly realized. Months before, she’d come here with Adam, desperately hoping he would finally make his move, ending their friendship and starting something new. She’d come with Adam-but she’d left alone. And Adam had left with Kaia. Harper had cried and raged, while Kaia had whisked Adam away to an abandoned motel, laid him back on a sunken mattress, and fulfilled his fantasies.

Harper could still picture them together, in a dark recess of the bar, Kaia’s hands in his hair, Kaia’s tongue in his mouth. And the Blind Monkeys blasting in the background, shaking the floor as Harper stood perfectly still, trying not to scream.

That bitch, Harper thought, before she could stop herself. Then she felt sick. I never should have come back here.

“I have to get out of here,” she told Miranda. But Miranda only looked at her quizzically and took another sip of her soda. “I HAVE TO GO!”

Miranda nodded and, totally misunderstanding, pointed off to the left, toward the bathrooms.

Harper already knew where they were. It’s where Adam had gone that night. He’d stood up from their table, headed for the bathrooms-and had never come back.

Maybe he’d had the right idea.

She made it outside before realizing she had nowhere to go. Miranda had the car keys, and it was too far to walk-especially when everything already felt so sore. Maybe it would be enough to stand outside, breathe some of that fresh air everyone always claimed was so helpful. She could wait it out. Maybe, eventually, she’d be able to go back inside.

Maybe not.

Harper leaned against the dank brick wall of the bar, not caring about the gunk that would surely rub off on her gauzy white shirt. Her leg hurt, her head hurt, and she needed some support. The wall would have to do.

“Who let you back out on the streets?” Kane smirked and leaned an arm against the wall, giving Harper a sardonic grin.

“What’s it to you?”

“Just need to know who I should complain to,” he teased. She rolled her eyes and turned away-he was sure it was to hide a smile. “Good to see you up and out, Grace.”

“Miss me?” she asked, arching an eyebrow.

“I wouldn’t say that-but you know I’ve got a low tolerance for boredom. And you definitely make things interesting.”

“Gosh, I’m overwhelmed by your kindness and affection. Is this the part where you hug me and ask me how I’m