show Terri to Sid's room. He took Ann to a small guest suite. 'You may stay here until Terri leaves, if you'd rather,' he said, taking her hand.
'That would probably be best,' she said, nodding. 'It won't be long. Besides, we've got all the time in the world.'
He smiled and kissed her, then went to the spacious and memory-haunted bedroom he had shared with Robin, and lay awake for a long time. Robin's sweet and suffocating presence was part of it, but it was also excitement that would not let him sleep.
He was getting ready, his little army was behind him, no one had deserted. John, Curt, Marvella, Ann, Terri, even Evan, thank God, even his son. And most of them knew, if not the specifics of the creature they would help him fight, at least that there was a creature worth fighting, worth destroying for what he had done to so many they all loved.
When Dennis slept, he did so without dreaming. But when he awoke, and his eyes opened to the bedroom wall with its airy bamboo bookcase next to the small O'Keefe watercolor, his sleep-drugged mind assumed that it was years before, before everything bad had happened, and he turned toward where Robin would naturally have been, to hold her and kiss her good morning.
He cried softly when she was not there, when he had to remember all the things that had come after their last embrace in that bed. Even the thought of Ann did not stop his tears, and when the last of them had been wiped away, he whispered to the Emperor, 'There, you bastard. I can still cry. I can still feel, can't I?'
It was Sunday, and after a breakfast made by Evan and Terri, he sent them and Ann outside and into the park to observe the signs of approaching spring, while he took down the battered set of sides of A Private Empire, and began to review his lines.
They were as familiar to him as his own name, his address, his social security number, and were nearly as dull. God, he thought, how can I make this alive again? I thought I was done with this, done with it because, let's face it, it didn't mean much to me anymore, because I felt my performances slipping…
And they were, weren't they? Slipping away to that bastard, to the Emperor. Slipping away from me because I had made him.
No. Get it back. Read it. Aloud.
He stood, struck the immaturely imperious pose that had caused millions to chuckle, and began.
' God! This is your servant, Prince Karl Frederick Augustus, soon to be Emperor Karl Frederick Augustus. And still, of course, your servant. I suspect that, of Europe's other monarchs, very few – if any – are praying at this moment. Therefore, since kings rule by divine right, as the more superstitious of us are apt to believe, I ask you to shut your ears to the peasantry and give me your undivided attention. It will not take long. Please.''
Call on God indeed, thought Dennis. It will take at least God for me to bring life to that line. How many times have I said it? Hundreds certainly. Thousands undoubtedly.
He had never figured out how many performances of A Private Empire he had done, but the weight of them over the years sat heavily on him now, an infinite accumulation of words, songs, gestures. He tossed down the sides and sat down at the piano, picking out the introduction to 'The Awful Thing About a King,' his first musical number, a humorous patter song in which the soon-to-be emperor sings about his concerns, not over ruling a country, but taking a bride.
It was the first time he had sung in many months, and his voice sounded, he thought, weak. The low notes were tentative in tone, the higher ones unsure of pitch. His facility as well had suffered greatly from the lack of practice. Perhaps Dex Colangelo could help him as he had helped him before. Yes. Of course he could. The voice was rusty, that was all. With work, with practice, it would come back as strong as it ever was. And so would the acting. Everything would come back. Everything.
Everything except Robin. And Donna. And Whitney, and Tommy, and Harry Ruhl.
'Oh, you bastard,' he whispered, bringing his hands down on the keyboard to produce a brash and angry cluster of notes. 'I will beat you, you bastard.'
At nine-thirty the next morning Dennis went to the building on Broadway and 54th where John Steinberg still retained an office for use when he was in the city. Steinberg's expression was weary, there were dark pouches beneath his eyes, and his suit was unaccustomedly rumpled. The first thing he said when he saw Dennis was, 'Did you bring Ann along?'
'Not right now. But she's here in the city. Why?'
'Because I need her. I am up to my bulbous ass in work, Dennis, and, although I've accomplished a great deal by making phone calls all weekend and thereby annoying a great many agents, I have still more to do.'
'Call her,' Dennis said. 'She's at my place.'
'Excellent. Now, I suppose you'd like to know where we stand.' He leaned back in his leather chair, steepled his fingers, and smiled. 'We begin rehearsals at the Minskoff in two days.'
'Wednesday?' Dennis said, amazed.
'Wednesday. It is indeed remarkable what an unlimited budget can do. I posted the bond with Equity Friday afternoon, the principals are all cast except for the villainous Kronstein. The way things worked out, they're all people who have done the show with us before, either here or in one of the road companies. And Dex and Quentin are putting the chorus together. They got half of them over the weekend.'
'Who's playing Lise?'
'Kelly Sears. Pleased?'
'Delighted. I always thought she was the best of them. But no Kronstein.”
“No. Sam Reynolds is on tour with Me and My Girl, and Harry Barnes is about to open in the new Lloyd Webber show at the Kennedy Center.'
'What about Andy Sims?' Dennis said.
Steinberg frowned. 'Andy died. Three weeks ago. AIDS.'
'God. I didn't even know he was sick.'
'He kept it quiet. And we've had our own crosses to bear.'
'So what will we do about a Kronstein? Audition?'
'Yes. Tomorrow afternoon. The agents know that he has to bear a striking resemblance to you. You wouldn't happen to have a twin I don't know about, would you?… What is it?'
'Nothing.'
'You went pale for a moment,' Steinberg said.
'I'm fine, fine.' Dennis cleared his throat. 'How did you get a studio at the Minskoff on such short notice?'
'Well, I've given you the good news, now it's time for the bad. There was, as I'm sure you realize, no space available. Not at the Minskoff, not at Bennett's, nowhere. There was, however, a show rehearsing that was, shall we say, in financial straits. So I made the producers a proposition. In exchange for their delaying their show for three and a half weeks, which is our required rehearsal time here in the city, we would help to finance their show to the tune of… well, perhaps I should give you the figure later. It's rather depressing, particularly when you realize their show is a musical version of The Divine Comedy. Overreaching, in my opinion. They welcomed the hiatus, in fact. I believe they want to give the book a bit of a polish. So we have both studio rooms they were using – one for chorus rehearsals, the other for principals.'
'I didn't think you could do it so quickly, John. You're wonderful.'
'I am indeed. And now it's your turn to be wonderful. Starting Wednesday.”
“How did people react,' Dennis asked slowly, 'when you asked them? I mean, was there any hesitance because of what's happened? All the tabloid stories and everything?'
Steinberg shook his head. 'Not a bit. Everyone seemed very happy to be doing the show again, and not just because of what we're paying them. Now my job is to fill the house. But even if I do, it's a losing proposition. This is costing you a fortune, Dennis. Please note that I didn't say a small fortune. I mean a regular sized, Swiss bank account type fortune. No less.'
'It doesn't matter.' Dennis thought of the funeral then. 'Are you still going to Whitney's funeral?' Steinberg nodded. 'Did you send flowers from us?'
'No, a contribution to a children's hospital in lieu. A generous one. I did hear, however, from Marvella's daughter's lawyer on Saturday. He's thinking of bringing a wrongful death suit against us. Apparently because of our
