won't when you're older. At your age I only liked Shelley. I can remember sobbing over him in the garden.
He has outsoared the shadow of our night,
Envy and calumny and hate and pain--you remember?
Can touch him not and torture not again
From the contagion of the world's slow stain.
How divine!--and yet what nonsense!' She looked lightly round the room. 'I always think it's _living_, not dying, that counts. I really respect some snuffy old stockbroker who's gone on adding up column after column all his days, and trotting back to his villa at Brixton with some old pug dog he worships, and a dreary little wife sitting at the end of the table, and going off to Margate for a fortnight--I assure you I know heaps like that-well, they seem to me _really_ nobler than poets whom every one worships, just because they're geniuses and die young. But I don't expect _you_ to agree with me!' She pressed Rachel's shoulder.
'Um-m-m--' she went on quoting--Unrest which men miscall delight--'When you're my age you'll see that the world is _crammed_ with delightful things. I think young people make such a mistake about that--not letting themselves be happy. I sometimes think that happiness is the only thing that counts. I don't know you well enough to say, but I should guess you might be a little inclined to--when one's young and attractive--I'm going to say it!--_every_thing's at one's feet.' She glanced round as much as to say, 'not only a few stuffy books and Bach.'
'I long to ask questions,' she continued. 'You interest me so much. If I'm impertinent, you must just box my ears.'
'And I--I want to ask questions,' said Rachel with such earnestness that Mrs. Dalloway had to check her smile.
'D'you mind if we walk?' she said. 'The air's so delicious.' She snuffed it like a racehorse as they shut the door and stood on deck.
'Isn't it good to be alive?' she exclaimed, and drew Rachel's arm within hers.
'Look, look! How exquisite!'
The shores of Portugal were beginning to lose their substance; but the land was still the land, though at a great distance. They could distinguish the little towns that were sprinkled in the folds of the hills, and the smoke rising faintly. The towns appeared to be very small in comparison with the great purple mountains behind them.
'Honestly, though,' said Clarissa, having looked, 'I don't like views. They're too inhuman.' They walked on.
'How odd it is!' she continued impulsively. 'This time yesterday we'd never met. I was packing in a stuffy little room in the hotel. We know absolutely nothing about each other-and yet--I feel as if I _did_ know you!'
'You have children--your husband was in Parliament?'
'You've never been to school, and you live--?'
'With my aunts at Richmond.'
'Richmond?'
'You see, my aunts like the Park. They like the quiet.'
'And you don't! I understand!' Clarissa laughed.
'I like walking in the Park alone; but not--with the dogs,' she finished.
'No; and some people _are_ dogs; aren't they?' said Clarissa, as if she had guessed a secret. 'But not every one-- oh no, not every one.'
'Not every one,' said Rachel, and stopped.
'I can quite imagine you walking alone,' said Clarissa: 'and thinking--in a little world of your own. But how you will enjoy it--some day!'
'I shall enjoy walking with a man--is that what you mean?' said Rachel, regarding Mrs. Dalloway with her large enquiring eyes.
'I wasn't thinking of a man particularly,' said Clarissa. 'But you will.'
