She had turned suddenly pale.
No, she had not known. '/Now /have I frightened you?' he asked. 'Of course not,' she said after gazing at him in silence for a few moments. 'You are still just a man. But I am going.' She turned to walk away. 'Wait!' he said. 'If you are to marry twice in your lifetime, you really ought to have the memory of one proposal that was made by the man. And I am a proud man, Mrs. Dew, as you have observed. I cannot go through life with a wife who proposed to /me/.' She turned again, an arrested look on her face.
And if it was to be done, it might as well be done properly, he supposed, though he would have done no such thing for Miss Huxtable. He went down on one knee before her and looked up into her eyes. 'Mrs. Dew,' he said, 'would you do me the honor of marrying me?' She stared at him for a moment and then -
And then color, animation, and laughter rushed back into her face all at once so that for a startled moment he was dazzled. 'Oh,' she said. 'Oh, how absolutely splendid of you! You look /very /romantic. But are you quite sure?' 'If I were not,' he said irritably, 'would I be making such a thorough ass of myself? And would I not be in fear and trembling lest you say yes? Do I /look /as if I am trembling?' 'No,' she said, 'but you look as if you may have a wet knee. There was rain last night. Do get up.' 'Not before I have my answer,' he said. 'Will you?' 'But of course I will,' she said. 'Was not /I /the one to ask /you/? You will not be sorry. I promise you will not. I know how to - ' 'Make a man happy,' he said, interrupting her as he stood again and looked down ruefully at the dark circle of wetness about his right knee. 'And what of yourself, Mrs. Dew? Do you believe /I /can make /you /happy?' 'I do not see why not,' she said. 'I am not difficult to please.' She blushed rosily. 'Very well, then.' He bent to the grass to retrieve his discarded garments. 'I suppose we ought to go up to the house and tell our news.' 'Yes.' She smiled at him again. But just before she took his offered arm, her eyes flickered and looked away from his own. Not, however, before he read something in them that looked very like fear.
It could not be worse than what he was feeling. What the devil had he just done?
Whatever it was, it was irrevocable now.
He was affianced to Mrs. Nessie Dew, for the love of God.
Who irritated him almost beyond endurance almost every time he was in company with her.
Whose very name made him cringe.
Who disapproved of almost everything about him - not that he did not return the compliment.
It sounded like a match made in hell.
He strode off with her in the direction of the house.
10
THEY walked back to the house in silence.
It had seemed a good idea last night. She had not believed he would refrain from offering for Meg if she simply asked it of him. He would look at her with that hard-jawed, supercilious look of his, and proceed to business. And she /knew /Meg would not say no.
Desperate measures had been necessary, and she had known just what measures they must be.
Something his mother had said had hardened her resolve. /But you have had your chance, Mrs. Dew. Your elder sister has not./ It was true. She had had her chance. She had married Hedley. It did not matter that he had lived only a year and had been very ill throughout it. She had had her chance.
Meg must not be deprived of hers, even if that chance appeared to be slim to none. /She /would marry Viscount Lyngate instead of Meg and give him the wife he needed and give her sisters an easy entrГ©e into society.
She would be the sacrificial lamb - though she had not thought of what she was doing in those terms until /he /had said it.
It did not really matter that neither of them particularly liked the other. That could be changed. If they were married, she would work on making him happy. She would work upon making herself happy too. She had done it before, after all - and in far more difficult circumstances.
And she could not deny that physically she found him very appealing indeed. Peculiar, almost painful things happened to her insides at the very thought of being married to him.
It would not be difficult…
Last night it had seemed a good idea. Today she was not nearly so sure.
She was not even marginally pretty, let alone beautiful.
She had had her boast exposed for what it was. How very humiliating it was to compare /her /kiss with /his/.
She knew he had kissed her only to prove a point, not because he had /wanted /to.
She had been left with the feeling that she had unleashed something very dangerous indeed.
Good heavens, she was still aching in places she had not known there were places.
And then there had been the great shock of discovering that he was heir to a dukedom. She had proposed marriage to a future duke!
That meant she was probably going to be a duchess one day.
She was going to be a viscountess as soon as she married and - though she had never until recently ventured more than a few miles beyond Throckbridge - she was going to be presented to the queen, and then she was going to introduce Meg and Kate to society.
And this man was going to be her husband.
If he kissed like that when standing beside a lake in broad daylight, what was he going to do to her when…
Well.
She stumbled over the merest tuft of grass, and he pressed her hand more tightly against his side and looked down at her briefly - with a very tight-lipped look as if to say he did not expect such awkwardness from his future duchess.
What were Meg and Kate and Stephen going to say?
What was his mother going to say?
And his /grandfather/?
Why had he turned the tables on her and offered for her? It was the last thing she had expected at that particular point. She had been about to crawl away in search of a deep, dark hole to hide in, preferably forever. 'Mrs. Dew,' he said as they stepped onto the terrace. He stopped walking and looked down at her again. 'There is still time to change your mind.
I have sensed your agitation since we left the lake. Do you /wish /to marry me or do you /not/? You have my word of honor as a gentleman that regardless of your answer I will never marry either of your sisters.' The chance of reprieve!
She gazed up into his eyes and thought quite irrelevantly that whoever had made them blue - God? - had been very clever indeed since one expected dark brown with his Mediterranean complexion.
Yes, she did wish it despite everything. But… 'Do /you /wish to marry /me/?' she asked him.
His nostrils flared and his jaw set in a hard line. 'It is not at all the thing, ma'am,' he said curtly, 'to answer one question with another. I will answer nonetheless. I offered for you.
Therefore I wish for a marriage with you. I am not a ditherer, Mrs. Dew.
Now I will hear /your /answer.' Ah. A man accustomed to command. He would have the right to command and bully her forever after she married him. /If /she allowed him to get away with it, that was. 'Of course I wish to marry you,' she said. 'I was the first to ask, remember?' 'I doubt I will ever forget,' he retorted.
And he half bowed to her and offered his arm again.
She chuckled despite herself. 'Was that our first quarrel?' she asked him. 'I would suggest you not even try counting,' he said as she took his arm. 'Before the nuptials have even been celebrated you may find you cannot count so high.' She laughed outright.
And then sobered again. 'Who is going to tell?' she asked as they climbed the marble steps to the house. 'I will,' he said decisively. He sounded grim.
She did not argue. She was massively relieved if the truth were known.
