It was time to leave. It certainly would not do to arrive late for the most important appointment of her life.
The others stood back at the head of the stairs so that she could precede them down. She could see why as soon as she began the descent.
Elliott and Stephen were standing in the hallway, looking up. 'Oh, I say, Nessie,' Stephen said, admiration in his eyes. 'Is that really you?' She might have said the same of him. He was dressed in a dark green well-tailored coat with gold-embroidered waistcoat and dull gold knee breeches. His linen was sparkling white. He looked taller, more slender, than ever. His hair had been tamed but already showed signs of fighting back. His eyes burned with the intensity of suppressed excitement.
But in truth Vanessa had less than half her attention to spare for her brother. For Elliott too was dressed for a court appearance.
He had not seen her court finery until now. But she /had /described the clothes to him. She had told him the colors. He wore a pale blue coat with silver breeches and a darker blue silver-embroidered waistcoat. His linen matched Stephen's in whiteness.
The pale colors that he wore looked nothing short of stunning with his dark Greek looks.
It was a pity, she thought, they would not be appearing together at court. But perhaps it was as well. Who would be able to drag their eyes away from him in order to spare her a glance?
He stepped forward to the foot of the stairs and held out a hand for hers. She set her own in it and laughed. 'Look at us,' she said. 'Are we not all splendid indeed?' He bowed over her hand and raised it to his lips before looking directly into her eyes. 'I suppose we are,' he said. 'But you, my lady, are beautiful.' If he kept saying it, foolish man, she was going to start believing it. 'I think so too,' she said, batting her eyelids at him.
And then they were on their way, though it took a ridiculously long time to get the ladies and all their finery into the carriage. 'I think after all,' Vanessa said after waving to Margaret and Katherine and Cecily, 'I am glad I was born in this age and not in one when clothes like this were worn every day.' 'I am glad of it too,' Elliott said from the seat opposite, where he sat with Stephen, his eyelids half drooped over his eyes.
Was it possible, Vanessa wondered as she smiled back at him, that she was beginning to live a happily- ever-after? Not that she really believed in such a thing. But was it possible that she was to have a happy marriage? Was it possible that she could fall in love with her husband?
Well, of course /that /was possible. It had happened already, in fact.
It was impossible to deny it to herself any longer. Could she also /love /him, though?
More important, was it possible /he /could ever love /her/? Or at least feel something of an affection for her?
Did he already feel it?
This morning everything seemed possible. Even that she would not make an utter cake of herself in the presence of the queen.
And yes - this morning even happily-ever-after seemed possible. And even desirable.
Outside the sun shone from a blue sky. There were some clouds on the horizon, but they were too far away to cause concern. They would not bring rain soon enough to ruin the morning.
19
ALL went smoothly during Vanessa's presentation at court. She did not draw any undue attention to herself. She curtsied correctly without losing her balance or disappearing entirely inside her hooped skirt. And she backed out of the royal presence without once tangling her feet in her train.
In between times she gazed at the queen and wanted to pinch herself so that she could believe all this was really happening. She was actually in the same room as England's queen. The queen actually /looked /at her when she was presented and addressed a few remarks to her - Vanessa could never afterward remember exactly what was said.
It was a relief when the ordeal was over. At the same time, it was an event that Vanessa knew she would never forget even if she lived to be a hundred.
In the meanwhile Stephen had been presented to the Prince of Wales, who had actually engaged him in conversation for several minutes. There was nothing so very remarkable about that, of course. Stephen was the Earl of Merton after all. But it was still hard to believe.
How could all their lives have changed so drastically in such a short time?
It was a question Vanessa kept asking herself as she dressed for the ball in the evening - a real /ton /ball in London during the Season. The ballroom at Moreland House had been decorated to resemble a garden complete with masses of pink and white flowers and greenery. The twin chandeliers had been cleaned and polished and fitted with new candles and raised to hang below the coved, gilded ceiling. The air had been filled with enticing aromas all day as the supper banquet was being prepared. And a full orchestra of professional musicians was already in place on the dais when she descended to the ballroom after dinner to join Elliott, her mother-in-law, and Cecily in the receiving line.
Her brother and sisters had come for dinner, and Margaret and Katherine were in the ballroom before her. Margaret was wearing a gown of shimmering emerald green, Katherine a delicate muslin gown of white embroidered all over with tiny blue cornflowers. How different they looked from usual, how much more elegant and poised and… expensive. 'I wish there were a more powerful word than beautiful,' Vanessa said, looking fondly from one to the other of them. 'You would both be that word.' 'Oh, Nessie,' Katherine said, 'do you sometimes long for Rundle Park as I sometimes long for my class of infants? This is all absolutely terrifying as well as being more exciting than anything else so far in my life.' Vanessa laughed. Yes, sometimes she /did /long for home, though she was no longer sure where that was. The cottage in Throckbridge? Rundle Park?
Warren Hall, Finchley Park? The dower house? Perhaps home was really not a place at all but wherever one felt most sense of belonging. Perhaps home now was wherever Elliott and she happened to be together.
Oh, dear, she really must be in love. 'I am very happy for you, Nessie,' Meg said. 'This is all yours, and you have a good marriage to go with it. It /is /good, is it not?' She looked at her sister almost pleadingly. 'It is good,' Vanessa said, smiling at her and daring to hope that she spoke the truth. Her relationship with Elliott would doubtless suffer numerous other growing pains, but surely the worst was over. The possibility for happiness or at least for contentment was surely there.
There was no time for further thought or conversation. The first guests were arriving, and Vanessa had to hurry to join the receiving line.
For the next half hour or so she smiled and exchanged greetings with a seemingly endless line of guests, most of whom she had not seen before.
All were the very cream of society. She tried desperately to commit faces and names and titles to memory, though she suspected it was a hopeless task. 'You will get to know everyone soon enough,' Elliott said, moving his head closer to hers during a brief lull in the arrivals. 'You will meet the same people at almost every function you attend during the coming weeks.' She smiled gratefully at him. Obviously he did not expect the impossible from her. He was looking enormously handsome in black and white again.
She would have told him so earlier when he appeared in her dressing room to escort her downstairs to dinner, but he had spoken first. He had told her how pretty she looked in pink. He had actually used that word - /pretty/.
She did not believe him, of course - or that she was beautiful. But it felt /so /good to hear the words anyway. She was starting to feel both pretty and beautiful in Elliott's presence.
If she had told him after that how handsome he looked, it would have seemed that she was merely feeling obliged to return the compliment. 'I wish,' he said now, 'I could lead you into the opening set, Vanessa, but I must do that with Cecily.' 'Of course you must,' she said. 'It is /her /come-out, not mine. We have already talked about it. I can wait until later.' But how lovely it would be… They had danced the opening set at the Valentine's assembly. 'Come,' he said when it seemed that all the guests had arrived, 'I will introduce Lord Bretby and his brother to your sisters.' 'And then ask Meg and Kate quite pointedly in their hearing if they are engaged to dance the opening set?' she asked.
