“You would have to define the word
“The wager will remain as it is, then,” he said. “We will make up for lost time when the month is over. But we are wasting a lovely day standing here. Come and sit in the parterre garden. You have not even smelled it yet-all those herbs.”
And he took her hand in his and laced their fingers together before leaving the gallery with her and descending the stairs and stepping out onto the upper terrace.
Just like lovers.
Or newlyweds.
With nothing to care about but their absorption in each other.
They spent an hour or more in the garden, first strolling along the graveled walks, examining the statues, admiring the flowers, and the neatly clipped hedges, smelling the herbs, reading the time by the sundial, and then sitting on one of the seats that were half hidden against the banks of wallflowers.
They breathed in the mingled scents of sage, mint, lavender, and myriad flowers, and Katherine closed her eyes and sighed with what sounded very like contentment.
Jasper had never really understood what had drawn him to that old painting in the attic to the extent that he had almost instantly determined to restore the parterres as they had been a century ago, with adaptations of his own. If he had thought of it at all, he would have given a negative reason-the artificiality of such a garden beyond the front doors and directly below the drawing room windows would have horrified his mother’s second husband and therefore must be recreated. Perhaps his decision to make it a
But a positive had come out of that negative motive. The garden was both beautiful and peaceful, though he had never thought of that latter fact until Katherine had used the word.
Strange that, when the garden was in full view of the house and of any carriage approaching it.
“Is solitude necessary for peace?” he asked her.
She opened her eyes.
“Perhaps not,” she said, “if one is in harmony with one’s surroundings and any companion with whom one shares them.”
“But not someone who talks a great deal?” he said.
She smiled.
“Is this,” he asked her when she said nothing, “another case of wearing the boot if it fits?”
“No,” she said. “I am feeling perfectly at peace even when you talk. I love it here.”
“Do you?” he asked her. “Here in the garden? Or here at Cedarhurst?”
“Both,” she said.
“And with present company?” he asked her.
“You remind me,” she said, still smiling, “of a little boy seeking approval.”
Good Lord!
“Whereas in reality,” he said, “I am a big, bad boy wondering if he dares steal a kiss-if kissing is permitted, that is.
“In full view of the house?” she said. “And any servants who happen to be peeping out at us? It is said that servants know their employers better than anyone else, that there is no hiding anything of significance from them. How long will it be before they know us and our marriage as well as we do? Even as long as a month?”
She had not answered his question about kissing.
He was feeling remarkably contented, considering the fact that he had got married just two days ago under the worst possible circumstances and agreed on his wedding night to a whole month of celibacy.
It felt surprisingly good to be home.
With Katherine.
Despite what he had said in the gallery about friendship with women, he had the odd feeling that he could become comfortable with Katherine’s companionship.
Peace was shattered in a sudden surge of panic.
Good Lord and devil take it, he was
And if
Oh, yes, Katherine had spoken a greater truth than she realized just a moment ago. Servants did indeed know all there was to know about their masters-or, in this case, about their master’s stepfather and self-appointed guardian.
No, dash it all, he did
Comfort and companionship would be
“This,” she said, indicating the parterres, “was what you described as your first tentative step to making Cedarhurst your own. And it was a magnificent step. What will your second be, Jasper? And your third?”
“
“Is everything about the house and the park perfect, then?” she asked him. “Are you content to live with everything as it is for the rest of your life?”
“Well,” he said, “since moving into the east wing-
“Probably not,” she agreed. “I had the same thought, though, when I looked out of my window this morning. There ought to be flowers down there so that they can be smelled from the bedchambers. And seen, of course. A rose garden, perhaps, though I would prefer to keep a rose garden small rather than have it fill that whole space-a rose
“With an apple orchard beyond it,” he said. “There is no orchard in the park. I always rather like seeing trees planted in straight rows like soldiers.”
“And blooming in the spring,” she said, turning a glowing face his way. “Oh, there is nothing more magical.”
“And heavy with fruit in the late summer,” he said. “To be plucked at will.”
She jumped to her feet and reached out a hand to him. “Let us go and look,” she said. “Let us go and see if it will be possible to have both. Though I am sure it will.”
He looked up at her and her outstretched hand and felt something in his soul shift. Perhaps it was nothing more than an easing of guilt. Maybe marriage would suit her after all, even with a man she would not have chosen in a million years if she could have made a free choice. And even without someone who could be heart of her heart and soul of her soul. As soon as the month was over, he was going to start working on giving her babies. She would surely be a wonderful mother-one who would enjoy her children. Had she not taught young children at that village in which she had grown up?
And before the month was over he was going to be able to look her in the eye without even having to make use of what she called his mask and tell her that he loved her. Even if he did not know quite what he meant by the words, he was going to say them. And mean them too as far as he was able.
He stood up and took her hand in his, lacing their fingers together.
“Very well, then,” he said with a sigh. “But you are not envisioning me with a shovel in my hands, digging