But against the husband.
Yes. I won't use names or go into details because you know the people involved, but I find the husband too ambitious
and conceited. I experience him as a rival.
You don't need to hide the names. You know it would make no difference outside this office how I treated them.
Well, maybe. I suppose you're right, but I don't think the names should be necessary if I can present everything else
honestly. - The details.
Yes. Although I suppose you will know then immediately the people I'm talking about. But still, I'll omit the names. How did the affair start? - I followed . . . a whim one night and went to her place, found her alone, and raped her. Raped her?
Well, there was a good deal of cooperation. Actually, she enjoyed it more than I did. But the original idea was mine.
Mmm.
We've been seeing each other off and on now for about half a year.
Mmmm. I go to her place when her husband's away, or occasionally we meet in a room I rent in a Puerto Rican neighborhood.
Ahhh.
Sexually it's been rewarding. The woman seems totally without inhibitions. I've tried just about everything my
imagination can cook up and she seems to have more recipes than me.
I see. The husband doesn't seem to suspect a thing. He doesn't suspect a thing.
No. He seems completely wrapped up in his work. His wife says he pulls off a quick one about once every two weeks but with about as much passion or pleasure as when making an extended bowel movement. Mmmm. I once finished an orgasm in her while she was handing a towel in to her husband in the bathtub.
You what? I was pumping away from behind while she leaned into the bathroom and talked to her husband and handed him a towel.
Look here, Rhinehart, do you know what you're saying?
I thought I did.
How could you … How could you possibly…
What's the matter?
How could you possibly miss the significance of this affair?
I don't know. It seems just…
Free associate.
What?
I'll feed you words and you free associate.
Oh, okay.
Black.
White.
Moon.
Sun.
Father.
Mother.
Water. Ah. . . bathtub.
Road.
Roadway.
Green.
Yellow.
Fucking from rear.
- Ar . . . ah . . . ah . . . artificial.
Artificial?
Artificial.
How so? -How should I know? I'm just free associating.
Let's go on. Father.
Figure.
Lake.
Tahoe.
Thirst.
Water.
Love.
Women.
Mother.
Women.
Father.
Women.
White.
Women.
Black.
Negresses.
Well. That's enough. It was just as I expected.
What do you mean?
That was your father in the bathtub.
It was?
Obviously. Item number one: you associate father figure. You may consciously explain this as a result of the psychoanalytic phrase and it does refer to this, but the association also implies you associate a `figure' - naturally a female figure - with father.
Wow.
Item number two. You associate `fucking from rear' with artificial and you can blurt it out only after a significant
delay. I challenge you to tell me what first flashed through your mind.
Well …
Go ahead.
To be frank with you, I thought that the fucking was artificial, unnecessary, irrelevant. I was aiming to hurt someone
… someone bigger.
Precisely. Item number three: from the rear is obviously the position of sodomy, or male making love to male.
But Item number four: you associate lake with Tahoe. Tahoe, even if your conscious mind denies it, means in Cherokee `Big Father Chief.' Lake obviously means water and you associated water with bathtub. Ergo: Big Father Chief was in the bathtub.
Wow. Finally, although these are but trivial confirmations of what now is obvious to you, you associate with `thirst', `water.' You thirst not for women but for water, for bathtub, for your father. At the end, the free association seems to break
down as you associate both your mother and father with women, but in fact it is further confirmation of the whole significance of your extramarital affair and of this free association your incestuous, homosexual love for your father. That's incredible. That's absolutely … wham … [Long pause] . . But what… what does it all mean?
How so? I've told you.
I mean . . . what should I do about it? 'Ah so. Details. Your urge for this woman will probably evaporate now
