My stomach knotted up again and I reached for the nurse’s hand, astonished at how warm it was. My fingers felt like they were turning blue. “I know the people who were in that room. William and Melinda Holliday. Are they… okay?”
The nurse put her hand over mine momentarily, a gentler gesture than I’d have expected, given that I’d seized her, then extracted her wrist to check the computer. “They’re fine. We’re just finding it necessary to sta—” She cut herself off with a look of dismay.
Relief brought laughter to my lips. “Stack ’em and rack ’em?”
“I would
I nodded, almost reached out to grab her hand again and stopped myself by folding both my hands together on the counter hard enough to turn my knuckles white. “Thank you. Thank you so much. Would it help if I brought Morrison up to the room? I want to see Billy, anyway.”
“You really shouldn’t. Visiting hours don’t start until eleven.” Then she looked around and exhaled. “Just tell the nurse’s station I couldn’t find an orderly and you offered to help. It’s a madhouse around here, anyway. They’ll be too busy to fire me.” She pulled out another smile, this one wry, and handed me Morrison’s chart before turning into the noise to help another incoming patient.
Somebody at the nurse’s station upstairs took Morrison away from me, and I went down the hall to Billy’s room, where a harried-looking orderly was changing sheets and cleaning up as fast as his legs would let him. A third bed had been inserted into the room, making it claustrophobic but worthwhile. Mel’s bed had been pushed up against Billy’s. Robert Holliday was there, and I wondered if he’d stayed the night in the hospital, too, and had simply been elsewhere when I visited, or if he’d found a way in himself. I didn’t know if strict visiting hours counted for immediate family, but they didn’t seem to apply to Brad Holliday, who, it appeared, had never left.
The two of them were hunched over the beds like weary gargoyles, one on each side. I tapped on the door frame and they both looked up, Robert brightening and Brad glowering. I said, “Hey,” before Brad had time to say anything mean, and came into the room pushing my hair back with both hands. “How’re they doing?”
“No change.” Brad held his mouth in a thin line of disapproval, as if he was trying to drive me out through force of will alone.
“I guess that’s a good thing, under the circumstances. At least they’re not getting worse.” I stepped up to Robert to give him a one-armed hug, then brushed my fingers over Melinda’s temple. Silver-blue sparks leapt from my fingertips into her hair, sparkling down her body like a quick vehicle diagnostic, and came back to tell me she was fine and the baby was very very bored with Mom just lying there on her back. I heard Robert draw a sharp breath and looked down at him. His pupils ate the irises, black swallowing light brown.
He blurted, “You’re warm,” then sucked his lower lip in, not sure I’d understand. I put my arm around his shoulders again.
“That’s good. Hospitals are cold.” The kid sagged against my side and I hugged him harder. “How’re your sisters and brother? Who’s watching them?”
“My wife came up from Spokane.” Brad’s tone told me I could leave any time now. I lifted my gaze from Melinda and studied him a moment, then tilted my head.
“Can I talk to you out in the hall for a minute, Brad?” Robert stiffened under my arm and I gave him another hug, wishing I could reassure him that I wasn’t leaving him out of grown-up talks. I left the door open so he could eavesdrop when I followed Brad out of the room.
Leaving the meager sanctuary of the room dropped us back into the chaos and sound of the hospital hallways. Orders blared over the PA system. Hospital personnel called out to one another as they coordinated their workday. Frightened, worried families hovered in doorways and in waiting rooms, whether visiting hours were open or not. I said, “I don’t know how you do this every day,” without thinking. “Just standing here exhausts me.”
Brad’s face relaxed from its pinch, surprise taking over for a few seconds. His “You get used to it” sounded almost friendly, though he looked like he didn’t know why he’d responded politely.
“I don’t know if I would. Look, Doc, I’m sorry.” Apologizing was not high on my list of favorite things to do, and I listened to myself with nearly as much surprise as Brad’s expression showed. “We got off on an incredibly bad start, and that’s my fault. I was completely out of line and I’m sorry. I was…” I raked my hand through my hair again and sighed. I needed a shower. “I was trying to protect people, and trying to show off, and I was a total jerk. I’m not going to ask you to forgive me, but Robert’s not stupid, and his parents are in there asleep and nobody knows if they’re going to wake up. He doesn’t need you and me bristling at each other.”
“So you want me to bury the hatchet.” Brad spoke so suddenly I hiccupped, caught out of an apology that was only starting to build up steam.
“Yeah. Please. You want to go
“I don’t want to know.” Brad’s voice went thin and stressy. I lifted my hands in another apology.
“Sorry. Peace?”
He jerked his chin in a downward nod and walked back into Billy’s room. Robert watched him, then watched me, his clear gaze telling me he knew perfectly well I’d let him listen in on the conversation. His hand crept into mine for a squeeze when I came back to his side, an eleven-year-old’s way of saying thank you without drawing notice to himself. “They’re bringing Captain Morrison in here,” I said as if that had been the topic all along. Robert held on to my hand harder, dismay radiating off him.
“Captain Morrison’s sick, too? He can’t be. I thought you’d keep him okay.” Robert’s voice rose in alarm. “Gary’s okay, isn’t he?”
“Gary’s fine.” Robert relaxed a little under my arm, then gave me the same sideways look he’d gotten when he’d first met Gary. Even he thought I was dating the old man. “How come Gary’s okay and Captain Morrison isn’t?” he asked, somewhere between suspicious and testing. I groaned and closed my eyes.
It did nothing to make the world go away. My second sight just slid into place, letting me see everything in vibrant neon glows and swirls of color. Robert’s aura spiked orange, pulses of curiosity. “Gary’s okay and Morrison isn’t because Gary listens to me.” I opened my eyes and looked down at Robert. “
Robert said, “Hnh,” through his nose, and assumed an expression of innocence as he looked away.
I could feel Brad’s gaze turn curious and nearly groaned again. After all, Gary had been the one to ride to the rescue Wednesday morning when Melinda’d gotten sick. It all made sense, from an outside point of view. I muttered, “He’s not,” aware that the lady was protesting too much.
I was rescued from further attempts at extracting myself from a relationship with the old cabbie by a tired orderly wheeling my sleeping captain into the room. Brad got up from the far side of Billy’s bed, said, “I’m a doctor,” and gave the orderly a hand in getting Morrison into bed. After one look to see who’d entered the room, I kept my focus wholly on Melinda and Billy. For some reason I really didn’t want to watch people manhandling my boss into a hospital bed. I was going to take that piece of topaz and hammer it into Morrison’s skull when this was all over.
It took a while for them to get Morrison settled. Robert, rather too loudly, asked Uncle Brad to take him down to the café for breakfast, and I wondered if the kid was just teasing me about Gary for form’s sake. Either way, they left me alone and I found myself by Morrison’s bed, sitting on my hands so I wouldn’t take his in both of mine.
The poor man looked like he needed the sleep, honestly. I didn’t know if a coma was proper rest or not, but the inability to worry wiped some of the lines from his face, making him look younger than his thirty-eight years. If I let my eyes unfocus just a little, I could see the shielding I’d put in place, sparking blue along the silver threads in his hair and swimming over the surface of him. I could feel it, too, if I wanted to, and I was trying hard not to. I didn’t think Morrison would appreciate the intimate invasion, and the last thing I wanted was fullbody memory flashes when I went to work and faced my boss every day.
After a while I noticed my face was in my hands and there was salty wetness leaking through my fingers. For someone who didn’t think of herself as the crying sort, I’d sure done a lot of it recently. More in the last six or seven months than I could remember in years. I had a fair idea that said nothing good about my ongoing
