“Just like us,” Virgil said.
“Yep.”
Virgil drank some coffee.
“Every morning,” he said, “Allie comes down here and makes us coffee and leaves, and we throw it away and make some new coffee.”
I nodded.
“Whadda you think of that?” Virgil said.
“Better than drinking hers,” I said.
“A’course,” Virgil said. “But don’t you think there’s something wrong with it?”
“Sure,” I said.
“But she’s trying to translate herself,” Virgil said. “You know, make herself different?”
“Transform,” I said.
“That’s right,” Virgil said. “She’s trying to transform herself.”
“And you don’t want to tell her it ain’t working,” I said.
“Well, maybe it is,” Virgil said. “Except she can’t make coffee.”
“Or sew or iron or wash clothes,” I said. “Or cook.”
“Hell,” Virgil said. “She can’t sing and play the piano, either, but she been doing it for years.”
“I thought you liked her piano playing,” I said.
“God, no,” Virgil said. “You?”
“No,” I said. “Singing, neither.”
It was still raining, and the water ran down the windows in the front of the office, changing the shape of everything moving in the street. Virgil sipped his coffee and looked at the rain.
“She used to be fun,” Virgil said. “Now she working so hard to make it up to me, she ain’t fun anymore.”
“She is pretty drab,” I said.
“Drab,” Virgil said.
“Sorta no color,” I said. “Boring.”
He nodded.
“Drab,” he said. “That’s her. Drab.”
“Maybe if you was to say something to her.”
Virgil shook his head.
“Know the only thing she’s good at?” Virgil said.
“Not firsthand,” I said.
Virgil nodded.
“She’s good at it,” Virgil said.
I nodded.
“Built for it,” he said.
“I notice she’s filled back out, since we come here,” I said.
“She has,” Virgil said.
“But…” I said.
“Ain’t ready yet,” Virgil said.
“Why not?” I said.
“Got to think it through,” Virgil said.
“You love her?”
“That’s what I’m thinking through,” Virgil said.
“We come all the way down here looking for her,” I said. “And killed four men to get her out of Placido, and you don’t know if you love her.”
“Thought I did when we come down here,” Virgil said.
“But?”
“But I can’t seem to get past what she done yet,” Virgil said.
“The men or the running off, or both.”
“Understand the running off,” Virgil said. “She felt shamed. But the other men.”
“It didn’t work out for her,” I said. “You seen where we found her.”
“No,” Virgil said. “And I don’t have no problem with the whoring when she didn’t have no choice. Feel bad for her. But I don’t have no problem.”
“Bragg?” I said.
“Him, the other men, when she had a choice.”
“Maybe she thinks she didn’t,” I said.
“Then what she transforming for?” Virgil said.
“Please you?”
“It don’t please me.”
“And you ain’t talked about it,” I said.
“Can’t,” Virgil said.
I nodded.
“Neither one of us,” Virgil said.
I nodded again.
“Yet,” Virgil said.
26
WHEN ALLIE BROUGHT OUR LUNCH, Virgil and I were sitting outside the sheriff’s office watching the last of the whiskey get packed onto a wagon, in front of the Bluebell Saloon.
“Isn’t that good?” Allie said.
“The Bluebell?” Virgil said.
“Yes, it’s closing. They’re going away.”
“Some saloons left,” Virgil said.
“Not so many,” Allie said. “Brother Percival says we’ve driven four of them out already.”
“Pike’s Palace still doing well, though,” Virgil said.
I knew why he said it. He was still thinking about Choctaw Brown being with Pike the night Pike killed three men. Virgil never forgot anything, and he never let anything go.
“Brother Percival says Mr. Pike is running a much more Christian enterprise than the others.”
Virgil said, “Uh-huh.”
“I think they’re actually kind of friends,” Allie said. “I see them together sometimes.”
Virgil nodded.
“What’s Pike do that the others don’t?” Virgil said.
“I don’t really know,” Allie said. “But I know Brother Percival sends some of the deacons over there regularly.”
“How ’bout Deacon Brown?” Virgil said.
“Yes, he goes over.”
“And they go there to make sure,” I said, “that he’s running a Christian saloon.”
Allie’s face sort of squeezed in on itself.
She said, “Being Christian doesn’t mean being foolish, Everett. We know men have their needs.”
She looked at the floor.
“Women, too, I guess,” she said. “And we don’t expect everyone to be perfect. So we are working to get rid of the worst kind of vice dens, and try to maintain a better option.”
“Why not let them decide for themselves,” I said.
Allie didn’t look at either of us. She stared down the street and watched the wagon pull away from the
