shoulder the same motion complete the jerked skein of blood backward not looping. But that's not it. It's not not having them. It's never to have had them then I could say O That That's Chinese I dont know Chinese. And Father said it's because you are a virgin: dont you see? Women are never virgins. Purity is a negative state and therefore contrary to nature. It's nature is hurting you not Caddy and I said That's just words and he said So is virginity and I said you dont know. You cant know and he said Yes. On the instant when we come to realise that tragedy is second-hand.
Where the shadow of the bridge fell I could see down for a long way, but not as far as the bottom. When you leave a leaf in water a long time after a while the tissue will be gone and the delicate fibers waving slow as the motion of sleep. They dont touch one another, no matter how knotted up they once were, no matter how close they lay once to the bones. And maybe when He says Rise the eyes will come floating up too, out of the deep quiet and the sleep, to look on glory. And after a while the flat irons would come floating up. I hid them under the end of the bridge and went back and leaned on the rail.
I could not see the bottom, but I could see a long way into the motion of the water before the eye gave out, and then I saw a shadow hanging like a fat arrow stemming into the current. Mayflies skimmed in and out of the shadow of the bridge just above the surface.
The trout hung, delicate and motionless among the wavering shadows. Three boys with fishing poles came onto the bridge and we leaned on the rail and looked down at the trout. They knew the fish. He was a neighborhood character.
'They've been trying to catch that trout for twenty-five years. There's a store in Boston offers a twenty-five dollar fishing rod to anybody that can catch him.'
'Why dont you all catch him, then? Wouldn't you like to have a twenty-five dollar fishing rod?'
'Yes,' they said. They leaned on the rail, looking down at the trout. 'I sure would,' one said.
'I wouldn't take the rod,' the second said. 'I'd take the money instead.'
'Maybe they wouldn't do that,' the first said. 'I bet he'd make you take the rod.'
'Then I'd sell it.'
'You couldn't get twenty-five dollars for it.'
'I'd take what I could get, then. I can catch just as many fish with this pole as I could with a twenty-five dollar one.' Then they talked about what they would do with twenty-five dollars. They all talked at once, their voices insistent and contradictory and impatient, making of unreality a possibility, then a probability, then an incontrovertible fact, as people will when their desires become words.
'I'd buy a horse and wagon,' the second said.
'Yes you would,' the others said.
'I would. I know where I can buy one for twenty-five dollars. I know the man.'
'Who is it?'
'That's all right who it is. I can buy it for twenty-five dollars.'
'Yah,' the others said. 'He dont know any such thing. He's just talking.'
'Do you think so?' the boy said. They continued to jeer at him, but he said nothing more. He leaned on the rail, looking down at the trout which he had already spent, and suddenly the acrimony, the conflict, was gone from their voices, as if to them too it was as though he had captured the fish and bought his horse and wagon, they too partaking of that adult trait of being convinced of anything by an assumption of silent superiority. I suppose that people, using themselves and each other so much by words, are at least consistent in attributing wisdom to a still tongue, and for a while I could feel the other two seeking swiftly for some means by which to cope with him, to rob him of his horse and wagon.
'You couldn't get twenty-five dollars for that pole,' the first said. 'I bet anything you couldn't.'
'He hasn't caught that trout yet,' the third said suddenly, then they both cried:
'Yah, what'd I tell you? What's the man's name? I dare you to tell. There aint any such man.'
'Ah, shut up,' the second said. 'Look. Here he comes again.' They leaned on the rail, motionless, identical, their poles slanting slenderly in the sunlight, also identical. The trout rose without haste, a shadow in faint wavering increase; again the little vortex faded slowly downstream. 'Gee,' the first one murmured.
'We dont try to catch him anymore,' he said. 'We just watch Boston folks that come out and try.'
'Is he the only fish in this pool?'
'Yes. He ran all the others out. The best place to fish around here is down at the Eddy.'
'No it aint,' the second said. 'It's better at Bigelow's Mill two to one.' Then they argued for a while about which was the best fishing and then left off all of a sudden to watch the trout rise again and the broken swirl of water suck down a little of the sky. I asked how far it was to the nearest town. They told me.
'But the closest car line is that way,' the second said, pointing back down the road. 'Where are you going?'
'Nowhere. Just walking.'
'You from the college?'
'Yes. Are there any factories in that town?'
'Factories?' They looked at me.
'No,' the second said. 'Not there.' They looked at my clothes. 'You looking for work?'
'How about Bigelow's Mill?' the third said. 'That's a factory.'
'Factory my eye. He means a sure enough factory.'
'One with a whistle,' I said. 'I haven't heard any one oclock whistles yet.'
'Oh,' the second said. 'There's a clock in the unitarial steeple. You can find out the time from that. Haven't you got a watch on that chain?'
'I broke it this morning.' I showed them my watch. They examined it gravely.
'It's still running,' the second said. 'What does a watch like that cost?'
'It was a present,' I said. 'My father gave it to me when I graduated from high school.'
'Are you a Canadian?' the third said. He had red hair.
'Canadian?'
'He dont talk like them,' the second said. 'I've heard them talk. He talks like they do in minstrel shows.'
'Say,' the third said. 'Aint you afraid he'll hit you?'
'Hit me?'
'You said he talks like a colored man.'
'Ah, dry up,' the second said. 'You can see the steeple when you get over that hill there.'
I thanked them. 'I hope you have good luck. Only dont catch that old fellow down there. He deserves to be let alone.'
'Cant anybody catch that fish,' the first said. They leaned on the rail, looking down into the water, the three poles like three slanting threads of yellow fire in the sun. I walked upon my shadow, tramping it into the dappled shade of trees again. The road curved, mounting away from the water. It crossed the hill, then descended winding, carrying the eye, the mind on ahead beneath a still green tunnel, and the square cupola above the trees and the round eye of the clock but far enough. I sat down at the roadside. The grass was ankle deep, myriad. The shadows on the road were as still as if they had been put there with a stencil, with slanting pencils of sunlight. But it was only a train, and after a while it died away beyond the trees, the long sound, and then I could hear my watch and the train dying away, as though it were running through another month or another summer somewhere, rushing away under the poised gull and all things rushing. Except Gerald. He would be sort of grand too, pulling in lonely state across the noon, rowing himself right out of noon, up the long bright air like an apotheosis, mounting into a drowsing infinity where only he and the gull, the one terrifically motionless, the other in a steady and measured pull and recover that partook of inertia itself, the world punily beneath their shadows on the sun.
Their voices came over the hill, and the three slender poles like balanced threads of running fire. They looked
