'Wait, Versh. Cant he go out again, Mother. I want him to go with me.
'You'd better leave him here.' Uncle Maury said. 'He's been out enough today.'
'I think you'd both better stay in.' Mother said. 'It's getting colder, Dilsey says.'
'Oh, Mother.' Caddy said.
'Nonsense.' Uncle Maury said. 'She's been in school all day. She needs the fresh air. Run along, Candace.'
'Let him go, Mother.' Caddy said. 'Please. You know he'll cry.'
'Then why did you mention it before him.' Mother said. 'Why did you come in here. To give him some excuse to worry me again. You've been out enough today. I think you'd better sit down here and play with him.'
'Let them go, Caroline.' Uncle Maury said. 'A little cold wont hurt them. Remember, you've got to keep your strength up.
'I know.' Mother said. 'Nobody knows how I dread Christmas. Nobody knows. I am not one of those women who can stand things. I wish for Jason's and the children's sakes I was stronger.'
'You must do the best you can and not let them worry you. ' Uncle Maury said. 'Run along. you two. But dont stay out long, now. Your mother will worry.'
'Yes, sir.' Caddy said. 'Come on, Benjy. We're going out doors again.' She buttoned my coat and we went toward the door.
'Are you going to take that baby out without his overshoes.' Mother said. 'Do you want to make him sick, with the house full of company.'
'I forgot.' Caddy said. 'I thought he had them on. We went back. 'You must think.' Mother said.
Caddy took me to Mother's chair and Mother took my face in her hands and then she held me against her.
'My poor baby.' she said. She let me go. 'You and Versh take good care of him, honey.'
'Yessum.' Caddy said. We went out. Caddy said,
'You needn't go, Versh. I'll keep him for a while.'
'All right.' Versh said. 'I aint going out in that cold for no fun.' He went on and we stopped in the hall and Caddy knelt and put her arms around me and her cold bright face against mine. She smelled like trees.
'You're not a poor baby. Are you. Are you. You've got your Caddy. Haven't you got your Caddy.'
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17.1
'Git in, now, and set still until your maw come.' Dilsey said. She shoved me into the carriage. T.P. held the reins. 'Clare I dont see how come Jason wont get a new surrey.' Dilsey said. 'This thing going to fall to pieces under you all some day. Look at them wheels.'
Mother came out, pulling her veil down. She had some flowers.
'Where's Roskus.' she said.
'Roskus cant lift his arms, today.' Dilsey said. 'T.P. can drive all right.'
'I'm afraid to.' Mother said. 'It seems to me you all could furnish me with a driver for the carriage once a week. It's little enough I ask, Lord knows.'
'You know just as well as me that Roskus got the rheumatism too bad to do more than he have to, Miss Cahline.' Dilsey said. 'You come on and get in, now. T.P. can drive you just as good as Roskus.'
'I'm afraid to.' Mother said. 'With the baby.' Dilsey went up the steps. 'You calling that thing a baby.' she said. She took Mother's arm. 'A man big as T.P. Come on, now, if you going.'
'I'm afraid to.' Mother said. They came down the steps and Dilsey helped Mother in. 'Perhaps it'll be the best thing, for all of us.' Mother said.
'Aint you shamed, talking that way.' Dilsey said. 'Dont you know it'll take more than a eighteen year old nigger to make Queenie run away. She older than him and Benjy put together. And dont you start no projecking with Queenie, you hear me. T.P. If you dont drive to suit Miss Cahline, I going to put Roskus on you. He aint too tied up to do that.'
'Yessum.' T.P. said.
'I just know something will happen.' Mother said. 'Stop, Benjamin.
'Give him a flower to hold.' Dilsey said. 'That what he wanting.' She reached her hand in.
'No, no.' Mother said. 'You'll have them all scattered.'
'You hold them.' Dilsey said. 'I'll get him one out.' She gave me a flower and her hand went away.
'Go on now, fore Quentin see you and have to go too.' Dilsey said.
'Where is she.' Mother said.
'She down to the house playing with Luster.' Dilsey said. 'Go on, T.P. Drive that surrey like Roskus told you, now.
'Yessum.' T.P. said. 'Hum up, Queenie.'
'Quentin.' Mother said. 'Dont let '
'Course I is.' Dilsey said.
The carriage jolted and crunched on the drive. 'I'm afraid to go and leave Quentin.' Mother said. 'I'd better not go. T.P.' We went through the gate, where it didn't jolt anymore. T.P. hit Queenie with the whip.
'You, T.P.' Mother said.
'Got to get her going.' T.P. said. 'Keep her wake up till we get back to the barn.'
'Turn around.' Mother said. 'I'm afraid to go and leave Quentin.'
'Cant turn here.' T.P. said. Then it was broader.
'Cant you turn here.' Mother said.
'All right.' T.P. said. We began to turn.
'You, T.P.' Mother said, clutching me.
'I got to turn around some how.' T.P. said. 'Whoa, Queenie.' We stopped.
'You'll turn us over.' Mother said.
'What you want to do, then.' T.P. said.
'I'm afraid for you to try to turn around.' Mother said.
'Get up, Queenie.' T.P. said. We went on.
'I just know Dilsey will let something happen to Quentin while I'm gone.' Mother said. 'We must hurry back.'
'Hum up,' there.' T.P. said. He hit Queenie with the whip.
'You, T.P.' Mother said, clutching me. I could hear Qucenie's feet and the bright shapes went smooth and steady on both sides, the shadows of them flowing across Queenie's back. They went on like the bright tops of wheels. Then those on one side stopped at the tall white post where the soldier was. But on the other side they went on smooth and steady, but a little slower.
'What do you want.' Jason said. He had his hands in his pockets and a pencil behind his ear.
'We're going to the cemetery.' Mother said.
'All right.' Jason said. 'I dont aim to stop you, do I. Was that all you wanted with me, just to tell me that.'
'I know you wont come.' Mother said. 'I'd feel safer if you would.'
