He felt in his pocket and the needles were there – filled, ready to use, to produce instant unconsciousness; dreamless, absolute sleep.
He could feel the perspiration starting under his arms and in his groin, and great beads of it were forming on his forehead and rolling down his cheeks. That was bad. It was a cold day. Mustn't look excited or nervous.
He took a precious few seconds to dab his face with the old towel he kept on the front seat and glanced over his shoulder. The canvas raincoat was the kind many Cape men kept in their cars, especially around fishing season; so were the rods that showed against the back window. But that coat was big enough to cover two small children. He giggled excitedly and swung the car towards Route 6A.
Wiggins' Market was on the corner of this road and Route 6A. Whenever he was at the Cape he shopped there. Of course, he brought most of the staples he needed with him whenever he came to stay. It was too risky to go out much. There was always the chance that he'd run into Nancy and she'd recognize him even with his changed appearance. It had almost happened four years ago. He'd been in a supermarket in Hyannis Port and he'd heard her voice behind him. He was reaching for a jar of coffee, and her hand went right up next to his as she took a jar from the same shelf. She was saying, 'Wait a minute, Mike. I want to get something here,' and while he froze, she brushed against him and murmured 'Oh, I'm sorry.'
He didn't dare to answer – just stood there – and she moved on. He was positive she hadn't even looked at him. But after that he had never risked a meeting. It was necessary, though, for him to establish a casual routine in Adams Port, because some day it might be important for people to dismiss his comings and goings as routine. That was why he bought milk and bread and meat at Wiggins' Market always about ten in the morning. Nancy never left the house before eleven, and even then she always went to Lowery's Market, down the road a half-mile. And the Wigginses had begun to greet him as a customer of long standing. Well, he'd be there in a few minutes, right on schedule.
There wasn't anyone out walking at all. The raw wind was probably discouraging any inclination to go outdoors. He was almost at Route 6A and slowed to a full stop.
The incredible luck. There wasn't a car in either direction. Quickly he accelerated, and the station wagon shot across the main street and on to the road that ran along the back of the Eldredge property. Audacity – that was all it took. Any fool could try to come up with a foolproof plan. But to have a plan so simple that it was unbelievable even to call it a plan – a schedule timed to the split second – that was real genius. To willingly leave yourself open to failure – to tightrope-walk across a dozen pits so that when the act was accomplished no one even glanced in your direction – that was the way.
Ten minutes to ten. The children had probably been out one minute now. Oh, he knew the possibilities. One of them might have gone into the house to the bathroom or for a drink of water, but not likely, not likely. Every day for a month straight he'd watched them. Unless it was actually raining, they came out to play. She never came to check them for ten to fifteen minutes. They never went back into the house for those same ten minutes.
Nine minutes to ten. He steered the car into the dirt road on their property. The community paper would be delivered in a few minutes. That article would be out today. Motivation for Nancy to explode into violence… exposure of her past… all the people in this town talking in shocked tones, walking by this house, staring…
He stopped the car half-way into the woods. No one could see it from the road. She couldn't see it from the house. He got out quickly and, keeping close to the protection of the trees, hurried to the children's play area. The leaves were off most of the trees, but there were enough pines and other evergreens to shield him.
He could hear the children's voices before he saw them. The boy, his voice panting a little – he must be pushing the girl on the swing… 'We'll ask Daddy what to buy for Mommy. I'll take both our money.'
The girl laughed. 'Good, Mike, good. Higher, Mike -push me higher, please.'
He stole up behind the boy, who heard him in that last second. He had an impression of startled blue eyes and a mouth that rounded in terror before he covered both with one hand and with the other plunged the needle through the woollen mitten. The boy tried to pull away, stiffened, then crumpled noiselessly to the ground.
The swing was coming back – the girl calling, 'Push, Mike – don't stop pushing.' He caught the swing by the right side chain, stopped it and encircled the small, uncomprehending wiggly body. Carefully stifling the soft cry, he plunged the other needle through the red mitten that had a smiling kitten face sewn on the back. An instant later, the girl sighed and slumped against him.
He didn't notice that one mitten caught in the swing and was pulled off as he easily lifted both children in his arms and ran to the car.
At five minutes to ten they were crumpled under the canvas raincoat. He backed down the dirt road and on to the paved highway behind Nancy 's property. He cursed as he saw a small Dodge sedan coming towards him. It slowed up slightly to let him pull into the right lane, and he turned his head away.
Damn the luck. As he passed, he managed a swift sidelong glance at the driver of the other car and got an impression of a sharp nose and thin chin silhouetted from under a shapeless hat. The other driver didn't seem to turn his head at all.
He had a fleeting feeling of familiarity: probably someone from the Cape, but maybe not aware that the station wagon he had slowed up for had come off the narrow dirt road leading from the Eldredge property. Most people weren't observant. In a few minutes this man probably wouldn't even have a recollection of having slowed for an instant to let a car complete a turn.
He watched the Dodge through the rearview mirror until it disappeared. With a grunt of satisfaction, he adjusted the mirror so that it reflected the canvas raincoat on the back deck. It was apparently tossed casually over fishing gear. Satisfied, he flipped the mirror back into place without looking into it again. If he had looked into it, he would have seen that the car he had just been watching was slowing, backing up.
At four minutes past ten he walked into Wiggins' Market and grunted a greeting as he reached into the refrigerator section for a quart of milk.
CHAPTER FIVE
Nancy came down the steep staircase precariously balancing an armful of towels and sheets, pyjamas and underwear. On impulse she'd decided to do a wash that could be hung outdoors to dry before the storm broke. Winter was here. It was on the edge of the yard, forcing the last few dead leaves off the trees. It was settling into the dirt road that now was as hardened as concrete. It was changing the colour of the bay into a smoky grey- blue.
Outside, the storm was building, but now, while there was still some weak sun, she'd take advantage of it. She loved the fresh smell of sheets dried outside; loved to pull them against her face as she drifted off to sleep with the way they captured the faint smell of cranberry bogs and pine and the salty smell of the sea – so different from the coarse, rough, dank smell of prison sheets. She pushed the thought away.
At the foot of the staircase she started to turn in the direction of the back door, then stopped. How foolish. The children were fine. They'd been out only fifteen minutes, and this frantic anxiety that was her constant albatross had to be conquered. Even now she suspected that Missy sensed it and was beginning to respond to her overprotection. She'd turn the wash on, then call them in. While they watched their ten-thirty television programme, she'd have a second cup of coffee and look at the weekly Cape Cod Community News. With the season over, there might be some good antiques available and not at tourist prices. She wanted an old-fashioned settee for the parlour – the high-backed kind they used to call a 'settle' in the seventeen-hundreds.
In the laundry room off the kitchen she sorted the wash, tossed the sheets and towels into the machine, added detergent and bleach and finally pushed the button to start the cycle.
Now it surely was time to call the children. But at the front door she detoured. The paper had just arrived. The delivery boy was disappearing around the curve in the road. She picked it up, shivering against the increasing wind, and hurried into the kitchen. She turned the burner jet under the still-warm coffeepot. Then, anxious to get a look at the classified page, she thumbed quickly to the second section of the paper.
Her eyes focused on the blaring headline and the pictures – all the pictures: of her and Carl and Rob Legler; the one of her with Peter and Lisa… that clinging, trusting way they'd always huddled up to her. Through a roaring in her ears she remembered vividly the time they'd posed for that one. Carl had taken it.
'Don't pay attention to me,' he'd said; 'pretend I'm not here.' But they'd known he was there and had shrunk
