'So Peter really could use him?'

'That's not what worries me. What worries me is what Peter will do when he finds out that he can't use him.'

Theresa sat back up and faced her husband. 'You can't think Peter would raise a hand against Ender!'

'Peter doesn't raise his own hand to do anything difficult or dangerous. You know how he's been using Valentine.'

'Only because she lets him use her.'

'Exactly my point,' said John Paul.

'Ender is not in danger from his own family.'

'Theresa, we have to decide: What's best for Ender? What's best for Peter and Valentine? What's best for the future of the world?'

'Sitting here on our bed, in the middle of the night, the two of us are deciding the fate of the world?'

'When we conceived little Andrew, my dear, we decided the fate of the world.'

'And had a good time doing it,' she added.

'Is it good for Ender to come home? Will it make him happy?'

'Do you really think he's forgotten us?' she asked. 'Do you think Ender doesn't care whether he comes home?'

'Coming home lasts a day or two. Then there's living here. The danger from foreign powers, the unnaturalness of his life at school, the constant infringements on his privacy, and let's not forget Peter's unquenchable ambition and envy. So I ask again, will Ender's life here be happier than it would be if.»

'If he stays out in space? What kind of life will that be for him?'

'The I.F. has made its commitment — total neutrality in regard to anything happening on Earth. If they have Ender, then the whole world — every government — will know they'd better not try to go up against the Fleet.'

'So by not coming home, Ender continues to save the world on an ongoing basis,' said Theresa. 'What a useful life he'll have.'

'The point is that nobody else can use him.'

Theresa put on her sweetest voice. 'So you think we should write back to Graff and tell him that we don't want Ender to come home?'

'We can't do anything of the kind,' said John Paul. 'We'll write back that we're eager to see our son and we don't think any bodyguard will be necessary.'

It took her a moment to realize why he seemed to be reversing everything he'd said. 'Any letters we send Graff,' she said, 'will be just as public as the letter he sent us. And just as empty. And we do nothing and let things take their course.'

'No, my dear,' said John Paul. 'It happens that living in our own house, under our own roof, are two of the most influential formers of public opinion.'

'But John Paul, officially we don't know that our children are sneaking around in the nets, manipulating events through Peter's network of correspondents and Valentine's brilliantly perverse talent for demagoguery.'

'And they don't know that we have any brains,' said John Paul. 'They seem to think they were left at our house by fairies instead of having our genetic material throughout their little bodies. They treat us as convenient samples of ignorant public opinion. So. let's give them some public opinions that will steer them to do what's best for their brother.'

'What's best,' echoed Theresa. 'We don't know what's best.'

'No,' said John Paul. 'We only know what seems best. But one thing's certain — we know a lot more about it than any of our children do.'

* * * * *

Valentine came home from school with anger festering inside her. Stupid teachers — it made her crazy sometimes to ask a question and have the teacher patiently explain things to her as if the question were a sign of Valentine's failure to understand the subject, instead of the teacher's. But Valentine sat there and took it, as the equation showed up in the holodisplay on everybody's desk and the teacher covered it point by point.

Then Valentine drew a little circle in the air around the element of the problem that the teacher had not addressed properly — the reason why the answer was not right. Valentine's circle did not show up on all the desks, of course; only the teacher's computer had that capability.

So the teacher then got to draw his own circle around that number and say, 'What you're not noticing here, Valentine, is that even with this explanation, if you ignore this element you still can't get the right answer.'

It was such an obvious ego-protective cover-up. But of course it was obvious only to Valentine. To the other students, who were barely grasping the material anyway (especially since it was being explained to them by an unobservant incompetent), it was Val who had overlooked the circled parenthetical, even though it was precisely because of that element that she had asked her question in the first place.

And the teacher gave her that simpering smile that clearly said, You aren't going to defeat me and humiliate me in front of this class.

But Valentine was not trying to humiliate him. She did not care about him. She simply cared that the material be taught well enough that if, God forbid, some member of the class became a civil engineer, his bridges wouldn't fall down and kill people.

That was the difference between her and the idiots of the world. They were all trying to look smart and keep their social standing. Whereas Valentine didn't care about social standing, she cared about getting it right. Getting the truth — when the truth was gettable.

She had said nothing to the teacher and nothing to any of the students and she knew she wouldn't get any sympathy at home, either. Peter would mock her for caring about school enough to let that clown of a teacher get under her skin. Father would look at the problem, point out the correct answer, and go back to his work without ever noticing that Val wasn't asking for help, she was asking for commiseration.

And Mother? She would be all for charging down to the school and doing something about it, raking the teacher over the coals. Mother wouldn't even hear Val explaining that she didn't want to shame the teacher, she just wanted somebody to say, 'Isn't it ironic, that in this special advanced school for really bright kids, they have a teacher who doesn't know his own subject!' To which Val could reply, 'It sure is!' and then she'd feel better. Like somebody was on her side. Somebody got it and she wasn't alone.

My needs are simple and few, thought Valentine. Food. Clothing. A comfortable place to sleep. And no idiots.

But of course a world with no idiots would be lonely. If she herself were even allowed there. It's not as if she never made mistakes.

Like the mistake of ever letting Peter rope her into being Demosthenes. He still thought he needed to tell her what to write every day after school — as if, after all these years, she had not completely internalized the character. She could write Demosthenes' essays in her sleep.

And if she needed help, all she had to do was listen to Father pontificate on world affairs — since he seemed to echo all of Demosthenes' warmongering jingoistic demagogic opinions despite claiming never to read the columns.

If he knew his sweet naive little daughter was writing those essays, he'd poop petunias.

She fumed into the house, headed straight for her computer, scanned the news, and started writing the essay she knew Peter would assign her — a diatribe on how the I.F. should not have ended the hostilities with the Warsaw Pact without first demanding that Russia surrender all her nukes, because shouldn't there be some cost to waging a nakedly aggressive war? All the usual spewings from her Demosthenes anti-avatar.

Or am I, as Demosthenes, Peter's real avatar? Have I been turned into a virtual person?

Click. An email. Anything would be better than what she was writing.

It was from Mother. She was forwarding an email from Colonel Graff. About Ender having a bodyguard when he came home.

'I thought you'd want to see this,' Mother had written. 'Isn't it just THRILLING that Andrew's homecoming is SO CLOSE?'

Stop shouting, Mother. Why do you use caps for emphasis like that? It's so — junior high school. It's what she told Peter more than once. Mother is such a cheerleader.

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