and even his heartbeat seem labored, heavy and slow, from his misery. He’d never before felt such pain, as if he would never be free of this ache. She was gone. It wasn’t fair; he had realized he loved her only to lose her the very next day. He resented her for being upset with him yesterday, for forcing him to really
DREA WOKE IN the middle of the night, gasping for air, fighting the sheet as if it were a rope twisting around her. She bolted upright, looking wildly around the room. Enough streetlight seeped in around the edges of the curtains that the room wasn’t truly dark; if it had been, she might have had heart failure, but as it was she could plainly see that no one was there. She was blessedly alone.
She’d dreamed of the assassin, dreamed he somehow found her here in this motel and got inside the room, and that this time, after he had sex with her, he really was going to kill her. She couldn’t see him, but she’d sensed him there in the shadows, watching her. In the weird way of dreams, she knew that as long as she stayed awake he wouldn’t be able to do anything, but in spite of her best efforts to keep her eyes open she got sleepier and sleepier until finally she couldn’t resist and fell asleep-now, there was something she’d never done before, dreaming about trying to stay awake and falling asleep instead-only to wake with him on top of her, inside her, and with his hands wrapped around her throat.
That was when she woke up for real, struggling against a phantom, freezing cold from the panic that held her in its icy grip.
Even dreaming, even knowing he was going to kill her, the feel of his penetration had been so real that she’d been close to climax. Fully awake now, angry and humiliated even though no one knew what a fool she was, Drea got out of bed and went to the sink to get a drink of water.
She flipped on the light and stared at herself in the harsh fluorescent glare. She was naked, because she had no clothes other than the ones she’d had on. She had washed her underwear out by hand, and draped it over a clothes hanger to dry.
Normally she wore pajamas; was the abnormality of sleeping nude what had triggered the nightmare? Because that’s what it had been, a nightmare. Even knowing she was alone, she looked behind herself in the mirror, as if expecting him to appear there.
The layout of the room was typical of motels, with the sink and vanity area in an open alcove at the rear of the room, and the toilet and tub/shower in a tiny room by themselves. There was no rear exit, she realized; if she was caught in here, she had no way out. Knowing that made her want to immediately bolt, but common sense kicked in. She was relatively safe here; even if Rafael had found out about his bank account so soon, which would be unbelievably bad luck, and somehow got the security video from the library so he had a current description of her, she had changed cabs often enough, and done enough zigzagging across the city on foot, that it would take time for him to put all of it together and follow her trail.
She could afford to wait until she had her money, until she got her hair cut and colored, until she had a chance to buy more clothes and a secondhand car. She shouldn’t let herself panic. The dream had her spooked, that was all.
Still, though she turned out the light, she couldn’t go back to sleep. She didn’t want to dream about him again, didn’t want him close, even in her subconscious. Lying awake in the dark, she endured the slow tick of minutes slipping away, bringing dawn and her new life closer and closer. Thinking about the past was useless; she focused instead on what was ahead of her. She was a millionaire now; maybe she’d buy a house, her very own house. She’d never owned a home before. Come to think of it, there hadn’t been anywhere she thought of as home, not for a very long time anyway.
Morning came, and Drea ventured out to get something to eat. She was starving, having made do the night before with crackers and chips from the vending machine next to the stairwell. She found a small diner that was so crowded she had to stand and wait for a stool at the counter, rather than having a booth to herself. Finally she was sitting, crammed between two burly guys who looked like construction workers, or truck drivers maybe. She didn’t make eye contact, and they didn’t speak, just devoted themselves to emptying their plates.
She ordered sausage and eggs and toast, a meal she would never have eaten if she’d still been with Rafael, out of fear she might gain a few ounces. Once the first bite hit her mouth, Drea forgot about watching the clock and lost herself in what was maybe the first complete meal she’d had in…she didn’t remember how long. Since way before she’d met Rafael, so…years. She hadn’t eaten a complete meal in years.
Screw men. She didn’t need a man now. She was rich, and she’d eat whatever the hell she felt like eating.
Finally, filled with a sense of well-being that went beyond food, she walked back to the motel. It was almost time for the bank to open. Sitting in her shabby little room, she waited until nine-fifteen, then turned on her BlackBerry, which immediately buzzed an alert that she had messages, which she ignored, and accessed her account. Nothing. The transfer hadn’t been posted yet. Transfers should have been handled first thing. There was no point in even checking the Kansas account, because Kansas was on Central time and it would be another hour before she could realistically expect anything there.
Had something gone wrong? A chill ran down her spine. Legally there was no way Rafael could have stopped the transfer, but illegally…yeah, hold a gun to the bank manager’s head and maybe he could have done it, if Rafael had somehow found out almost immediately.
He didn’t, as a rule, write a check for anything he wanted to buy; he used plastic. For that matter, Rafael didn’t normally write a check at all, even to pay bills. Orlando had told him not to get a debit card, that someone could get the number and wipe him out, so Rafael still paid bills the old-fashioned way, but he didn’t actually do it himself. His accountant, the legal one, did that for him.
No, she was almost certain Rafael couldn’t have found out anything.
Ten minutes later, she tried again. This time, her account showed the hundred-thousand-dollar deposit.
Limp with relief, Drea fell back across the bed, clutching the BlackBerry to her chest. She looked at the amount again, and began laughing. It was there, and it was all hers, every last penny of it.
And she was going to be late for her appointment at the salon if she didn’t hurry. She bounced off the bed, called a taxi, and left the room key and a couple of dollars on the bedside table before going out to wait for her ride.
Things went downhill when she got to the bank and began closing out her account. After providing her identification, and information for the paperwork, she asked for the hundred thousand in cash. The account manager, a middle-aged woman with wine-red hair, stopped what she was doing and stared over the desk at Drea. She looked perturbed. “I don’t know if we can do that, at least not for the full amount,” she said apologetically. “Usually we give customers a cashier’s check when they close out accounts. Obviously we don’t keep a huge cash reserve here. If you’d given us some warning we could have had additional funds on hand, but…let me talk to the bank manager. I’ll see what we can do.”
Drea bit back the stinging remark she’d been about to make. A bank didn’t keep a lot of cash on hand? What the hell kind of bank didn’t have cash? Antagonizing the woman wouldn’t help, though, would probably even prevent her from walking out with any cash at all, so instead she said, “I’m sorry. Everything happened so fast…I wasn’t thinking.”
She didn’t specify
As the woman disappeared into another office, Drea thought furiously. What good would a cashier’s check for a hundred thousand do her? All she could do with it was open another account. She needed cash, untraceable cash.
Glancing at her watch, she saw that time was getting short if she intended to make her salon appointment. She could skip the appointment, get her hair cut farther on down the road, but she’d like to change her appearance before she bought a car. Maybe if she gave the bank some time, and came back after her salon appointment, she could get more cash, but that would mean the account manager would know how she’d changed her hair, which would make it easier for Rafael to trace her.
This wasn’t working. She’d have to adjust her plan. Okay, so she’d give the bank more time to get the cash together, maybe even another day-God, what kind of risk would she be running by staying in Elizabeth another day?
An unacceptable risk, she decided. She needed to leave today.
