'She came to me this morning in tears… she told me how you made her go into the hay barn… and held her there until she was worn out with struggling to get away… she told the… the disgusting things you did to her with your hands… and then how you forced her… forced her to…'
He couldn't say it.
I was appalled.
'I didn't,' I said vehemently.
'I didn't do anything like that. I kissed her… and that's all. She's making it up.'
'She couldn't possibly have made it up. It was too detailed… She couldn't know such things unless they had happened to her.'
I opened my mouth and shut it again. They had happened to her, right enough; somewhere, with someone else, more than once, and certainly also with her willing co-operation. And I could see that to some extent at least she was going to get away with her horrible revenge, because there are some things you can't say about a girl to her father, especially if you like him.
October said scathingly, 'I have never been so mistaken in a man before. I thought you were responsible… or at least able to control yourself. Not a cheap lecherous jackanapes who would take my money and my regard and amuse yourself behind my back, debauching my daughter.'
There was enough truth in that to hurt, and the guilt I felt over my stupid behaviour didn't help. But I had to put up some kind of defence, because I would never have harmed Patty in any way, and there was still the investigation into the doping to be carried on. Now I had got so far, I did not want to be packed off home in disgrace.
I said slowly, 'I did go with Patty into the hay barn. I did kiss her.
Once. Only once. After that I didn't touch her. I literally didn't touch any part of her, not her hand, not her dress. nothing. '
He looked at me steadily for a long time while the fury slowly died out of him and a sort of weariness took its place.
At length he said, almost calmly, 'One of you is lying. And I have to believe my daughter.' There was an unexpected flicker of entreaty in his voice.
'Yes,' I said. I looked away, up the gully.
'Well… this solves one problem, anyway.'
'What problem?'
'How to leave here with the ignominious sack and without a reference.'
It was so far away from what he was thinking about that it was several moments before he showed any reaction at all, and then he gave me an attentive, narrow- eyed stare which I did not try to avoid.
'You intend to go on with the investigation, then?'
'If you are willing.'
'Yes,' he said heavily, at length.
'Especially as you are moving on and will have no more opportunities of seeing Patty. In spite of what I personally think of you, you do still represent our best hope of success, and I suppose I must put the good of racing first.'
He fell silent. I contemplated the rather grim prospect of continuing to do that sort of work for a man who hated me. Yet the thought of giving up was worse. And that was odd.
Eventually he said, 'Why do you want to leave without a reference? You won't get a job in any of these three stables without a reference.'
'The only reference I need to get a job in the stable I am going to is no reference at all.'
'Whose stable?'
'Hedley Humber's.'
'Humber!' He was sombrely incredulous.
'But why? He's a very poor trainer and he didn't train any of the doped horses. What's the point of going there?'
'He didn't train any of the horses when they won,' I agreed, 'but he had three of them through his hands earlier in their careers. There is also a man called P. J. Adams who at one time or another owned six more of them. Adams lives, according to the map, less than ten miles from Humber. Humber lives at Posset, in Durham, and Adams at Tellbridge, just over the Northumberland border. That means that nine of the eleven horses spent some time in that one small area of the
British Isles. None of them stayed long. The dossiers of Transistor and Rudyard are much less detailed than the others on the subject of their earlier life, and I have now no doubt that checking would show that they too, for a short while, came under the care of either Adams or Humber. '
'But how could the horses having spent some time with Adams or Hunter possibly affect their speed months or years later?'
'I don't know,' I said.
'But I'll go and find out.'
There was a pause.
'Very well,' he said heavily.
'I'll tell Inskip that you are dismissed. And I'll tell him it is because you pestered Patricia.'
'Right.'
He looked at me coldly.
'You can write me reports. I don't want to see you again.'
I watched him walk away strongly up the gully. I didn't know whether or not he really believed any more that I had done what Patty said;
but I did know that he needed to believe it. The alternative, the truth, was so much worse. What father wants to discover that his beautiful eighteen-year-old daughter is a lying slut?
And as for me, I thought that on the whole I had got off lightly; if I had found that anyone had assaulted Belinda or Helen I'd have half killed him.
After second exercise the following day Inskip told me exactly what he thought of me, and I didn't particularly enjoy it.
After giving me a public dressing down in the centre of the tarmac (with the lads grinning in sly amusement as they carried their buckets and hay nets with both ears flapping) he handed back the insurance card and income tax form there was still a useful muddle going on over the illegible Cornish address on the one October had originally provided me with and told me to pack my bags and get out of the yard at once. It would be no use my giving his name as a reference he said, because Lord October had expressly forbidden him to vouch for my character, and it was a decision with which he thoroughly agreed. He gave me a week's wages in lieu of notice, less Mrs. Allnut's share, and that was that.
I packed my things in the little dormitory, patted goodbye to the bed I had slept in for six weeks, and went down to the kitchen where the lads were having their midday meal. Eleven pairs of eyes swivelled in my direction. Some were contemptuous, some were surprised, one or two thought it funny. None of them looked sorry to see me go. Mrs. Allnut gave me a thick cheese sandwich, and I ate it walking down the hill to Slaw to catch the two o'clock bus to Harrogate.
And from Harrogate, where?
No lad in his senses would go straight from a prosperous place like Inskip's to ask for a job at
Humber's, however abruptly he had been thrown out;
there had to be a period of some gentle sliding downhill if it were to look unsuspicious. In fact, I decided, it would be altogether much better if it were Humber's head travelling-lad who offered me work, and not I who asked for it. It should not be too difficult. I could turn up at every course where Humber had a runner, looking seedier and seedier and more and more ready to take any job at all, and one day the lad-hungry stable would take the bait.
Meanwhile I needed somewhere to live. The bus trundled down to Harrogate while I thought it out. Somewhere in the northeast, to be near Humber's local meetings. A big town, so that I could be anonymous in it. An alive town, so that I could find ways of passing the time between race meetings. With the help of maps and guide books in Harrogate public library I settled on Newcastle, and with the help of a couple of tolerant lorry drivers I arrived there late that afternoon and found myself a room in a back-street hotel.
