Leading Dobbin, the horse I had just returned on, I went to look at Mickey over the stable door. His head was weaving weakly from side to side, and he seemed very restless.
Poor creature, I thought. Poor creature. And for a few seconds I was going to make him suffer more.
Humber stood at his office door, talking to Cass. The lads were bustling in and out looking after their horses, buckets were clattering, voices calling to each other:
routine stable noise. I was never going to have a better opportunity.
I began to lead Dobbin across the yard to his box. Halfway there I took the whistle out of my belt and pulled off its cap: then, looking round to make sure that no one was watching, I turned my head over my shoulder, put the tiny mouthpiece to my lips, and blew hard. Only a thread of sound came out, so high that I could hardly hear it above the clatter of Dobbin's feet on the ground.
The result was instantaneous and hideous.
Mickey screamed with terror.
His hooves threshed wildly against the floor and walls, and the chain which held him rattled as he jerked against it.
I walked Dobbin quickly the few remaining yards into his stall, clipped his chain on, zipped the whistle back into my belt, and ran across towards Mickey's box. Everyone else was doing the same. Humber was limping swiftly down the yard.
Mickey was still screaming and crashing his hooves against the wall as I looked into his box over the shoulders of Cecil and Lenny. The poor animal was on his hind legs, seemingly trying to beat his way through the bricks in front of him.
Then suddenly, with all his ebbing strength, he dropped his forelegs to the ground and charged backwards.
'Look out,' shouted Cecil, instinctively retreating from the frantically bunching hind-quarters, although he was safely outside a solid door.
Mickey's tethering chain was not very long. There was a sickening snap as he reached the end of it and his backwards momentum was jokingly, appallingly stopped. His hind legs slid forward under his belly and he fell with a crash on to his side. His legs jerked stiffly. His head, still secured in the strong new head collar, was held awkwardly off the ground by the taut chain, and by its unnatural angle told its own tale. He had broken his neck. As indeed, to put him quickly out of his frenzy, I had hoped he might.
Everyone in the yard had gathered outside Mickey's box. Humber, having glanced perfunctorily over the door at the dead horse, turned and looked broodingly at his six ragged stable lads. The narrow-eyed harshness of his expression stopped anyone asking him questions. There was a short silence.
'Stand in line,' he said suddenly.
The lads looked surprised, but did as he said.
'Turn out your pockets,' said Humber.
Mystified, the lads obeyed. Cass went down the line, looking at what was produced and pulling the pockets out like wings to make sure they were empty. When he came to me I showed him a dirty handkerchief, a penknife, a few coins, and pulled my pockets inside out. He took the handkerchief from my hand, shook it out, and gave it back. The whistle at my waist was only an inch from his fingers.
I felt Humber's searching gaze on me from six feet away, but as I studied to keep my face vacantly relaxed and vaguely puzzled I was astonished to find that I was neither sweating nor tensing my muscles to make a run for it. In an odd way the nearness of the danger made me cool and clear headed. I didn't understand it, but it certainly helped.
'Back pocket?' asked Cass.
'Nothing in it,' I said casually, turning half round to show him.
'All right. Now you, Kenneth.'
I pushed my pockets in again, and replaced their contents. My hands were steady. Extraordinary, I thought.
Humber watched and waited until Kenneth's pockets had been innocently emptied: then he looked at Cass and jerked his head towards the loose boxes. Cass rooted around in the boxes of the horses we had just exercised. He finished the last, came back, and shook his head. Humber pointed silently towards the garage which sheltered his Bentley. Cass disappeared, reappeared, and again un excitedly shook his head. In silence Humber limped away to his office, leaning on his heavy stick.
He couldn't have heard the whistle, and he didn't suspect that any of us had blown one for the sole purpose of watching its effect on Mickey, because if he had he would have had us stripped and searched from head to foot. He was still thinking along the lines of Mickey's death being an accident: and having found no whistle in any of the lads' pockets or in their horses' boxes he would conclude, I hoped, that it was none of that downtrodden bunch who had caused Mickey's brainstorm. If only Adams would agree with him, I was clear.
It was my afternoon for washing the car. Humber's own whistle was still there, tucked neatly into a leather retaining strap between a cork-screw and a pair of ice tongs. I looked and left it where it was.
Adams came the next day.
Mickey had gone to the dog-meat man, who had grumbled about his thinness, and I had unobtrusively returned the new head collar to the store basket, leaving the old one dangling as usual from the tethering chain. Even Cass had not noticed the substitution.
Adams and Humber strolled along to Mickey's empty box and leaned on the half door, talking. Jerry poked his head out of the box next door, saw them standing there, and hurriedly disappeared again. I went normally about my business, fetching hay and water for Dobbin and carting away the muck sack.
'Roke,' shouted Humber, 'come over here. At the double. '
I hurried over.
'Sir?'
'You haven't cleaned out this box.'
'I'm sorry sir. I'll do it this afternoon.'
'You will do it,' he said deliberately, 'before you have your dinner. '
He knew very well that this meant having no dinner at all. I glanced at his face. He was looking at me with calculation, his eyes narrowed and his lips pursed.
I looked down.
'Yes, sir,' I said meekly. Damn it, I thought furiously; this was too soon. I had been there not quite eight weeks, and I ought to have been able to count on at least three more. If he were already intent on making me leave, I was not going to be able to finish the job.
'For a start,' said Adams, 'you can fetch out that bucket and put it away. '
I looked into the box. Mickey's bucket still stood by the manger. I opened the door, walked over, picked it up, turned round to go back, and stopped dead.
Adams had come into the box after me. He held Humber's walking stick in his hand, and he was smiling.
I dropped the bucket and backed into a corner. He laughed.
'No tranquillizers today, eh, Roke?'
I didn't answer.
He swung his arm and the knobbed end of the stick landed on my ribs.
It was hard enough, in all conscience. When he lifted his arm again I ducked under it and bolted out through the door. His roar of laughter floated after me.
I went on running until I was out of sight, and then walked and rubbed my chest. It was going to be a fair-sized bruise, and I wasn't too keen on collecting many ould be thankful at least that they selves of me in the ordinary way, s in a burning car.
long, hungry afternoon I tried to t to do. To go at once, resigned didn't finish the job, or to stay the lid without arousing Adams' suspicions 8epressedly wondered, could I dis- for days that I had been unable to cs.
It was Jerry, of all people, who decided for me. After supper (baked beans on bread, and not enough of it) we sat at the table with Jerry's comic spread open. Since Charlie had left no one had a radio, and the evenings were more boring than ever. Lenny and Kenneth were playing dice on the floor. Cecil was out getting drunk. Bert sat in his silent world on the bench on the other side of Jerry, watching the dice roll across the concrete.
The oven door was open, and all the switches on the electric stove were turned on as high as they would
