I stroked my breasts, cupping them, feeling their softness and curving shape. My fingers moved and stroked my nipples, teasing them further, moving in lazy circles. I ran my thumbs over them, reveling in their sensitivity. When my breasts were finally taut and aching, I let my hands travel down over my smooth and flat stomach, examining and lingering on every part until I reached my thighs. Parting them ever so slightly, I slipped two fingers between the waiting lips so I could stroke that throbbing knot of nerves, moaning without even realizing it. Something about Seth watching aroused me more than I'd expected. I was dripping with wetness, aching and scorching.
I slid my fingers over and over that burning, swelling spot, stoking the rapidly growing need. Arching my body, hearing the soft cries escaping from me, all I could think about was Seth's eyes on me. Doing this for him, was in many ways, more genuine than actual sex with Bastien-turned-Seth had been. This was as intimate as he and I could ever be. It wasn't exactly the same as the honest communication we kept talking about, but in a way, I was opening myself to him after all. Exposing myself without inhibition.
I kept expecting the succubus energy-need to pick up on this scam, but either the distance or the fact that I was doing this to myself continued to trick it. We'd found a loophole after all.
As my fingers continued to rub between my lips, bringing me closer and closer to that crest, I moved my other hand down and thrust a couple of fingers inside of me. This elicited a moan of yearning, and I opened my thighs further, letting Seth get a full view. Faster and harder both sets of fingers worked, touching everything, building and building up that delicious pleasure until I felt like I couldn't take it anymore. Like I was going to burst.
And then, I did.
Sparks and lightning shot through my body, radiating from my core outward until every part of me tingled with life. I cried out again, loudly, my body writhing against the sheets as spasms racked my muscles. What had started as an ostentatious show had become something more. Doing this for Seth—with Seth—had reawakened something sleeping inside of me. I had lost control; my own body had taken over.
When I finally calmed down, I lay back against the covers, my breathing shallow as I recovered myself. I could feel sweat all over me. And with that physical response, an emotional and almost spiritual one radiated through me as well. Like the experience had somehow lit a flame within me. One that hadn't died with the orgasm. One that had nearly gone cold once—long ago—but now shone fiercely.
A moment later, I heard Seth stand up. Gingerly, he moved to my side, just barely sitting on the bed. We stared at each other, neither of us speaking, our eyes conveying all we needed to each other. He reached out a hand, like he might stroke my cheek, then pulled back.
'I'm afraid to touch you,' he whispered.
'Yeah. It might…might be wise to hold back on that for a little longer. Just in case it kicks in.'
'I take back what I said earlier about the stripping.
I smiled back. 'We might have found a workaround.'
'For you maybe. As it is, I'm, uh, feeling a little…uncomfortable right now. I'm glad you were able to get a release, at least.'
I suddenly sat up, energized. 'Well, why can't you?'
His smile dropped. 'What? Like in the bathroom?'
'No. Right here.'
'You're joking.'
'No.' I could feel my lips turning into a mischievous smirk. 'Fair is fair. Quid pro quo. I did it for you, now it's your turn.'
'I…no.
'Sure you can. There's nothing to it.'
'Yeah, but…'
'No buts. You're the one going on about openness and sharing. '
'Whoa. That's not even the same.'
'It is.' I rolled over so that I was not quite in a pouncing position, but pretty close. I gave him a smoldering look. 'How do you think I was able to do all that? I thought about you. I thought about you being over me while I spread my body for you. I opened up to you. I let you see everything. I wanted you to have that part of me. Nothing held back. And now I want to see the same.' I leaned close, starting to tug his shirt off. 'I want to see you come. I want to see you give in to that desire. I want to see your face when you touch yourself and think about me.'
'And they say I'm good with words.' He closed his eyes for a moment. 'I can't believe you can have this effect on me.'
I pulled his Spam shirt over his head. 'I'm waiting.'
Seth stared at me, then carefully and hesitantly began taking off his pants. He tossed them on the floor and moved on to his adorable flannel boxers. He paused there, clearly nervous, and then removed them in a quick motion before he could turn back. I looked him over admiringly, seeing him naked for the first time. As my gaze lingered between his legs, I had to work to keep a straight face. Bastien hadn't done him justice.
'This is going to be hard,' he observed.
'It already looks hard to me.'
'Stop making jokes.'
'Sorry. Just relax, that's the key.' I sat back away from him, putting some distance between us once again. 'Drop the self-consciousness. Just give in to how you feel.'
He nodded and took a deep breath. 'Thanks, coach. Can you move over to your side—yeah. There. And then, the hand…yes, put it right there. Perfect.' He shook his head, an almost comic look of misery and eagerness on his face as his hand slowly moved down. 'I need a good view of you to pull this off, I think, so I can keep my eyes off me. If I pay too much attention to what I'm doing, the absurdity will hit. '
'Well then,' I said, getting comfortable. 'Don't look down.'