My big shadow buddy did not run away with the others. I began to have some sense of it, as I had had with that other. It was terrified.
I caught one little flash of an instant in a place of torture, of pain beyond pain, while priests chanted.
I rose from my pallet. I went to stand beneath the standard, facing the ghosts. They let the shawls fall from their faces.
I do not know why. I thought, You motherfuckers are too ugly. Get the fuck off my road. And quit messing with my sleep. I had a feeling if they conformed to legend or whatnot they would be something like the Lady’s Ten Who Were Taken, demons or sorcerer kings who had been enslaved by some power greater and darker than they. Go on. Get out of here. You’re dead. Stay that way. I reached for the Lance, felt it come alive in my ghostly hand. Go on.
Three ugly beast masks inclined slightly toward the surface of the road. At least I think they were masks. I hope they were. Anybody that ugly for real should not have been allowed to climb out of the cradle.
They folded their hands before them. They began to withdraw. They did so without moving their feet.
Weird.
They flickered into nonexistence as they dwindled into the distance.
I stalked the perimeter of the circle. The shadows began to return. My pet matched my movements, always pressing against the barrier. I sensed a great hunger there.
I was surprised to find four roads leading out of the circle, matching the primary arms of the compass rose.
How come the east and west arms were not visible in the waking world?
The shapechanger’s roar reached into the ghostworld. Goats and bullocks protested. The men on watch, already scared shitless from watching shadows search for a break in the barrier, cursed all the beasts. Some went to beat the panther. Somebody yelled, “What the fuck is that?” and pointed toward the standard. The lack of light made it unclear. I drifted that way swiftly.
A white crow perched on the crosspiece, apparently sleeping. Which brought up a hundred questions immediately.
Was there another me up there watching from a time yet to come? Was the bird Kina’s creature? Or Soulcatcher’s? How had it gotten here, by night, from the world beyond the Shadowgate? I had seen huge shadows circling above... but I saw no such thing when I looked at the moon now. In fact, that untimely moon was no longer there. What I did see was a fingernail clipping of moon just beginning to rise.
More questions.
The panther roared again, this time in startled pain. They were paying her back for scaring the animals.
I drifted past where Croaker and Lady had made their beds. He was snoring. She was wide awake. She sensed my passage somehow. Her gaze followed me inaccurately. I lost her after a few yards. I wriggled between the cages. Longshadow was awake, too. He was sobbing quietly and shaking. I do not think there was anything left of the once dreadful, insane sorcerer.
Howler was awake, too. I realized, belatedly, that he had not been making much noise lately.
As I watched he tried to get off one of his ferocious yowls but nothing came out.
What had Lady done to him?
Soulcatcher was the one I really wanted to examine. And she too was awake when I found her. She was still bundled and gagged to a point that would have driven me over the edge, but she seemed as madly merry as at her best moments. She sensed me as easily as her sister had. Her eyes tracked me. They seemed to laugh, filled with secret knowledge. In fact, I got the distinct feeling that if she wanted to badly enough she could slide out of her flesh and chase me around.
No. But she wanted me to think she could do that. She was messing around with me even in her present circumstances.
That troubled me not nearly so much as her confidence did. She was not at all afraid or even worried.
That had to be passed on to the Captain and Lieutenant.
I drifted near the boundary, wondering if I ought to go see Sarie or engage in any of the hundred tasks I pursued when I walked the ghostworld. I did not really want to do anything but sleep. My personal shadow splashed itself against the barrier. There was some emotion there. But I could not tell if the thing wanted to talk to me or to eat me. It made me feel the way I might have, had I acknowledged the existence of a beggar who then refused to let me get away.
I passed a nervous Nyueng Bao prowling on catlike feet, his sword ready. The swamp men were more troubled by our quest than were the few Taglians accompanying us, despite their traditional burden of fear of Khatovar.
Sleeplessness was a common problem. I paused to eavesdrop on the murmurs of Blade, Mather and Willow Swan. No sedition surfaced there, though. Swan, being Willow Swan, was telling ghost stories. I wish I could talk about the man more. He was a character.
The Prahbrindrah Drah was awake as well, among them but evidently not with them. He contributed nothing.
I drifted near the crow. It sensed me. It cawed softly once, opened one reddish eye momentarily, resumed napping. But it cawed again sharply when I considered testing the barrier’s ability to contain me.
Without knowing how I got the message, I understood that it insisted I go roaming only by flying above the plain.
The wings were there, available, but I did not choose to don them. I continued around the camp. No ghosts watched me from any of the roads. The east and west ways were growing tenuous while the route back north remained solid, unthreatening, even inviting. My shadow companion could not reach me there, either. The roads were protected, too.
I raced northward. I am not sure what I meant to do, though I had some notion of visiting Sarie one more time.
Long before I managed that I got yanked back to my flesh.
I did find something else to intrigue me, though, right in front of the Shadowgate, before I went.
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Croaker was obnoxiously bright and cheerful next morning. Lady wore a secretive smile. They must have invented some kind of privacy for a few minutes. “Why’re you so grim?” Croaker demanded.
“Didn’t sleep for shit.”
“Nervous?” Half the guys were complaining about not having gotten any sleep.
“Ghostwalking.”
“Ah. And you saw something interesting or you wouldn’t be in a foul temper now.”
I talked about everything but the white crow. I underscored my belief that Catcher was in too good spirits for anybody in her situation. “She’s up to something.”
“She was born scheming,” Lady said. “She was manipulating people before she could talk. Don’t worry about it.”
“You eaten?” Croaker asked.
I nodded.
“Then let’s get them up and headed out.”
“Hang on while I provide you with one final taste of good cheer from my midnight walkabout. Those people we saw running toward my camp when we were climbing the hill yesterday? Guess who. You say anybody but Goblin, One-Eye and Gota, you’re wrong. I can’t go back in time to find out but I think it’s a safe bet they wanted to catch us before we came up here.”
Croaker lost his smile. “You overhear anything?”
“A lot of snoring. They were asleep. Goblin did mumble something but it wasn’t in any language I understand.”
“The road is open,” Lady observed. “You could go collect them.”
