sorry to interrupt.'
'That's okay. Um, I don't know what we would have right here as far as his written works go. Like I said, it's mostly biographical. I can take a look. But, I mean, any bookstore around here is going to sell his stuff if we don't have it.'
'Okay, thanks. I'll just go over to the Tattered Cover.'
I was about to put the phone down when she said my name.
'Yes?'
'I just thought of something. Like if you want to quote a line or something, we have lots of quotations on CD- ROM. I could just plug it in real quick.'
'Okay. Do it.'
She put the phone down for an eternity. I reread the end of the Times story again. What I was thinking seemed like a long shot but the coincidences in the way my brother and Brooks had died and in the names of Roderick Usher and RUSHER could not be ignored.
'Okay, Jack,' Laurie said after picking back up. 'I just checked our indexes. We have no books containing Poe's works in whole. I've got the poetry disk in, so let's give it a whirl. What do you want?'
'There is a poem called 'The Haunted Palace' that is part of the story 'The Fall of the House of Usher.' Can you get that?'
She didn't answer. I heard her typing on the computer.
'Okay, yeah, there are selected quotes from the story and the poem. Three screens.'
'Okay, is there a line that goes 'Out of space, out of time'?'
'Out of space. Out of time.'
'Right. I don't know the punctuation.'
'Doesn't matter.' She was typing.
'Uh, no. It's not in-'
'Damn!'
I don't know why I made such an outburst. It immediately bothered me.
'But, Jack, it is a line from another poem.'
'What? By Poe?'
'Yes. It's in a poem called 'Dream-Land.' You want me to read it? The whole stanza's here.'
'Read it.'
'Okay, I'm not that great at reading poetry but here goes. 'By a route obscure and lonely, / Haunted by ill angels only, / Where an Eidolon, named NIGHT, / On a black throne reigns upright, / I have reached these lands but newly, / From an ultimate dim Thule- / From a wild weird clime that lieth, sublime, / Out of SPACE-out of TIME.' That's it. But there is an editor's note. It says an Eidolon means a phantom.'
I didn't say anything. I was frozen still.
'Jack?'
'Read it again. Slower, this time.'
I wrote the stanza in my notebook. I could have just asked her to print it out and then gone and picked it up but I didn't want to move. I wanted, for the short moment, to be totally alone with this. I had to be.
'Jack, what is it?' she asked when she was done reading. 'You seem so anxious about this.'
'I don't know yet. I've gotta go.'
I hung up.
In an instant I began to feel overly warm, claustrophobic. As large as the newsroom was, I felt like the walls were closing in. My heart pounded. A vision of my brother in the car flashed through my mind.
Glenn was on the phone when I walked into his office and sat down in front of him. He pointed to the door and nodded like he wanted me to wait outside until he was done. I didn't move. He pointed again and I shook my head.
'Listen, I've got something happening here,' he said into the phone. 'Can I call you back? Great. Yeah.'
He hung up.
'What's-'
'I need to go to Chicago,' I said. 'Today. And then probably to Washington, then maybe Quantico, Virginia. To the FBI.'
Glenn didn't buy it.
'Out of space? Out of time? I mean, come on, Jack, that has got to be a thought that goes through the minds of many people who contemplate or actually do commit suicide. The fact that it's mentioned in a poem written by some morbid guy a hundred and fifty years ago who also wrote another poem this other dead cop quoted, it's not the stuff conspiracies are made of.'
'What about Rusher and Roderick Usher? You think that's a coincidence, too? So now we have a triple coincidence and you say it's not worth checking out.'
'I didn't say it's not worth checking out.' His voice rose a notch to a level signaling indignation. 'Of course, you check it out. Get on the phones, check it out. But I'm not sending you off on a national tour on the basis of what you've got now.'
He swiveled in his chair so he could check his computer for pending messages. There were none. He turned to face me again.
'What's the motive?'
'What?'
'Who'd want to kill your brother and this guy in Chicago? It doesn't make-How come the cops missed this?'
'I don't know.'
'Well, you spent the day with them and the case, where's the hole in the suicide? How could someone have done this and just walked away? How come you came away yesterday convinced that it was suicide? I got your message, you said you were convinced. How come the cops are convinced?'
'I don't have any answers for that yet. That's why I want to go to Chicago and then to the bureau.'
'Look, Jack, you've got a cushy beat here. I can't tell you how many times reporters have come in here saying they wanted it. You-'
'Who?'
'What?'
'Who wants my beat?'
'Never mind. It's not what we're talking about. The point is, you've got it good here and you get to go anywhere in the state you want to go. But for this kind of travel, I've got to be able to justify it with Neff and Neighbors. I also have a newsroom full of reporters who would like to travel every once in a while on a story. I would like them to travel. It helps keep them motivated. But we're in an economic downturn here and I can't okay every trip that gets proposed.'
I hated these sermons and I wondered if Neff and Neighbors, the managing editor and editor of the paper, even cared whom he sent where as long as they got good stories. This was a good story. Glenn was full of shit and he knew it.
'Okay, I'll just take vacation time and do it myself.'
'You used everything you had after the funeral. Besides you're not going to run around the country saying you're a Rocky Mountain News reporter if you're not on an assignment for the Rocky Mountain News.'
'What about unpaid leave? You said yesterday that if I wanted more time you'd work something out.'
'I meant time to grieve, not go running across the country. Anyway, you know the rules on unpaid leave. I can't protect your position. You take a leave and you might not have the beat when you come back.'
I wanted to quit right there but I wasn't brave enough and I knew I needed the paper. I needed the institution of the media as my access card to cops, researchers, everybody involved. Without my press card, I'd be just some suicide's brother who could be pushed aside.
'I need more than what you've got now to justify this, Jack,' Glenn said. 'We can't afford an expensive fishing expedition, we need facts. If you had more, I could maybe see going to Chicago. But this foundation and the FBI you could definitely do by phone. If you can't, then maybe I can get somebody from the Washington news bureau to go over there.
