“When?”
“Call came through at 11:21.”
“The trace?”
“Yeah.” She lifted a pad from her desk and handed it to him. “They pinned it to that area. Had to be within those four blocks. Goldman said she did real good.”
“Christ, we were just there.” He tossed the pad back on her desk. “We might have driven right past him.”
“The captain’s sent out Bigsby, Mullendore, and some uniforms to comb the area and look for witnesses.”
“We’ll give them a hand.”
“Ben. Ben, wait.” He stopped, turning back with impatience. Lowenstein pressed the mouthpiece of the phone against her shoulder. “They’re sending up a transcript of the call for the captain. I think you’ll want to see it.”
“Fine, I’ll read it when I get back.”
“I think you’ll want to see it now, Ben.”
A few hours’ work at the Donnerly Clinic was enough to take Tess’s mind off her own nerves. The patients there ranged from manic-depressive businessmen to street junkies who were withdrawing. Once a week, twice if her schedule permitted, she came to the clinic to work with the staff doctors. Some of the patients she would only see once or twice, others she would see week after week, month after month.
She gave her time there, when she could, because it wasn’t an elite hospital where the rich came when their problems or addictions became too much to cope with. Neither was it a street-side clinic run by idealists on a shoestring. It was a struggling and capable institution which took in the emotionally and mentally ill from all walks of life.
There was a woman on the second floor with Alzheimer’s disease who sewed dolls for her grandchildren, then played with them herself when she forgot she had grandchildren. There was a man who thought he was John Kennedy and spent most of his day harmlessly writing speeches. The more violent patients were kept on the third floor, where security was tighter. Thick glass doors were locked and windows were barred.
Tess spent most of the afternoon there. By five she was nearly wrung dry. For the better part of an hour she’d been in session with a paranoid schizophrenic who had hurled obscenities then his lunch tray at her, before he’d ultimately been restrained by two orderlies. Tess had given him an injection of Thorazine herself, but not without regret. He’d be on medication for the rest of his life.
When he was quiet again, Tess left him to catch a few moments of quiet in the staff lounge. She still had one more patient to see: Lydia Woods, a thirty-seven-year-old woman who had run a household with three children, held down a full-time job as a stock broker, and worked as president of the PTA. She had cooked gourmet meals, attended every school function, and had been named Businesswoman of the Year. The new woman, who could have and handle it all.
Two months before, she had fallen violently apart at a school play. There had been convulsions, and a seizure many of the horrified parents had taken for epilepsy. When she’d been taken to the hospital it was discovered she’d been in a withdrawal as serious as one from heroin addiction.
Lydia Woods had held together her perfect world with Valium and alcohol until her husband had threatened divorce. To prove her strength, she’d gone cold turkey and had ignored her physical reactions in a desperate attempt to keep her life as she had structured it.
Now, though the physical illness was well under control, she was being forced to deal with the causes, and the results.
Tess took the elevator down to the first floor, where she requested Lydia’s file. After studying it, Tess tucked it under her arm. Her room was at the end of the hall. Lydia had left the door open, but Tess knocked before going in.
The curtains were drawn, the room dim. There were flowers beside the bed, pink carnations. Their scent was light and sweet and hopeful. Lydia herself was on the bed, curled up to face the blank wall. She didn’t acknowledge Tess’s presence.
“Hello, Lydia.” Tess set the file on a small table and glanced around the room. The clothes Lydia had worn the day before were heaped in a corner. “It’s dark in here,” she said, and moved to the curtain.
“I like it dark.”
Tess glanced at the figure on the bed. It was time to push. “I don’t,” she said simply, then drew the curtain open. When light spilled in, Lydia rolled over and glared. She hadn’t bothered with her hair and makeup. There was a drawn, bitter look around her mouth.
“It’s my room.”
“Yes, it is. From what I hear you’ve been spending too much time alone in it.”
“And what the hell are you supposed to do around this place? Weave baskets with the fruits and nuts?”
“You might try going for a walk on the grounds.” Tess sat, but didn’t touch the file.
“I don’t belong here. I don’t want to be here.”
“You’re free to go any time.” Tess watched her sit up and light a cigarette. “This isn’t a prison, Lydia.”
“Easy for you to say.”
“You signed yourself in. When you feel you’re ready, you can sign yourself out.”
Lydia said nothing, smoking in brooding silence.
“I see your husband was in to see you yesterday.”
Lydia glanced at the flowers, then away. “So?”
“How did you feel about seeing him?”
“Oh, I loved it,” she snapped. “I loved having him come in here to see me looking like this.” She grabbed a handful of her unwashed hair. “I told him he should bring the kids so they can see what a pitiful hag their mother is.”
“Did you know he was coming?”
“I knew.”
“You have a shower in there. Shampoo, makeup.”
“Aren’t you the one who said I was hiding behind things?”
“Using prescription drugs and alcohol as a crutch isn’t the same as making the effort to look nice for your husband. You wanted him to see you this way, Lydia. Why, so he’d go away feeling sorry for you? Guilty?”
The arrow hit home and started the blaze, as she’d hoped. “Just shut up. It’s none of your business.”
“Did your husband bring you those flowers? They’re lovely.”
Lydia looked at them again. They made her want to cry, lose the edge of bitterness and failure that was her defense now. Picking up the vase, she hurled it and the flowers against the wall.
From out in the hall where he’d been told to wait, Ben heard the crash. He was out of his chair and heading toward the open door when a nurse stopped him.
“I’m sorry, sir, you really can’t go in. Dr. Court’s with a patient.” Blocking his way, she went to the door herself.
“Oh, Mrs. Rydel.” Ben heard Tess’s voice, cool and unruffled. “Would you bring a dustpan and a mop so Mrs. Woods can clean this up?”
“I won’t!” Lydia shouted at her. “It’s my room and I won’t clean it up.”
“Then I’d be careful where I walked, so I didn’t cut my feet on the glass.”
“I hate you.” When Tess didn’t even wince, Lydia shouted it more loudly. “I hate you! Did you hear me?”
“Yes, I hear you very well. But I wonder if you’re shouting at me, Lydia, or yourself.”
“Who the hell do you think you are?” Her hand worked up and down like a jack hammer to crush out her cigarette. “You come in here week after week with your smug self-righteous looks and your pretty, upscale suits and wait for me to strip my soul. Well, I won’t. Do you think I want to talk to some ice maiden who has her life all worked out? Miss Perfect Society who treats basket cases as a hobby then goes to her just-so home and forgets about them.”
“I don’t forget about them, Lydia.”
Tess’s voice was quiet, a direct contrast, but in the hall, Ben heard it.
“You make me sick.” Lydia heaved herself off the bed for the first time that day. “I can’t stand the sight of you
