he was a Copy. And he'd
Once, preparing to be scanned, he'd had two futures.
Now he had two pasts.
+ + +
Paul woke in darkness, confused for a moment, then pulled his cramped left arm out from under the pillow and glanced at his watch. Low power infrared sensors in the watch face detected his gaze, and flashed up the time -- followed by a reminder: due at landau 7 a.m. It was barely after five, but it hardly seemed worth going back to sleep.
Memories of the night before came back to him. Elizabeth had finally confronted him, asking what decision he'd reached: to abandon his life's work, or to forge ahead, now that he knew, firsthand, what was involved.
His answer seemed to have disappointed her. He didn't expect to see her again.
If he made a Copy, ran it for a few virtual days, then terminated it abruptly . . . then at least
And if another Paul Durham in one of the countless billions of alternative worlds could provide a future for the terminated Copy -- a pattern into which it could merge -- then perhaps that flesh-and-blood Durham would repeat the whole process
And so on, again and again.
And although the seams would always be perfect, the 'explanation' for the flesh-and-blood human believing that he had a second past as a Copy would necessarily grow ever more 'contrived,' less convincing . . . and the dust theory would become ever more compelling.
Paul lay in bed in the darkness, waiting for sunrise, staring into the future down this corridor of mirrors.
One thing nagged at him. He could have sworn he'd had a dream, just before he woke: an elaborate fable, conveying some kind of insight. That's all he knew -- or thought he knew. The details hovered maddeningly on the verge of recollection.
His dreams were evanescent, though, and he didn't expect to remember anything more.
17
(Remit not paucity)
APRIL 2051
Maria shifted in her seat to try to get her circulation flowing, then realized it wasn't enough. She stood up and limped around the room, bending down to massage her cramped right calf.
She said, 'And you claim you're the
Durham said, 'I may be wrong about the exact number. I may have counted this last version more than once; if I'm capable of believing in twenty-three incarnations, some of them might be false. The whole nature of the delusions I suffered contributes to the uncertainty.'
Durham was unflappable. 'I'm cured now. The nanosurgery worked. The doctors pronounced me sane, and I have no reason to question their judgement. They've scanned my brain; it's functioning impeccably. I've seen the data, before and after. Activity in the prefrontal cortex --'
'But don't you see how absurd that is? You acknowledge that you
Durham said patiently, 'I've admitted from the outset: my condition
'No. Because I'm certifiably rational now -- and the logic of the dust theory makes as much sense to me as ever. And it makes no difference whether my memories are true, false, or both.'
Maria groaned.
'Can't be tested by whom?'
'By anyone! I mean . . . even assuming that everything you believe is the truth: you've 'been through' twenty-three separate experiments, and you still don't know what you've proved or disproved! As you say: your condition accounts for everything. Haven't you heard of Occam's razor: once you have a perfectly simple explanation for something, you don't go looking for ever more complicated ways of explaining the very same thing? No
Durham said firmly, 'After twenty-three ambiguous results, I know how to get it right this time. A Copy plus a virtual environment is a patchwork, a mess. A system like that isn't rich enough, detailed enough, or consistent enough, to be self-sustaining. If it was, when I was shut down,
'What I have to do now is construct a consistent pattern which can only have
Maria took a few deep breaths. It was almost too much to bear: Durham's sad flat, his cosmic visions, his relentless, mechanical logic, grinding away trying to make sense of the legacy of his disease. The doctors
If he'd really told the cops all this, why were they still hounding him? They should have seen that he was harmless and left him alone -- and left his moronic clients to fend for themselves. The man wasn't even a danger to himself. And if he could ever harness a fraction of the energy and intelligence he'd put into this 'project' and direct it towards something worthwhile --
Durham said, 'Do you know what a Garden-of-Eden configuration is?'
Maria was caught blank for a second, then she said, 'Yes, of course. In cellular automaton theory, it's a state of the system that can't be the result of any previous state. No other pattern of cells can give rise to it. If you want a Garden-of-Eden configuration, you have to start with it -- you have to put it in by hand as the system's first state.'
Durham grinned at her as if she'd just conceded the whole argument. She said, 'What?'