'More real than this place, buddy.' Carl took his arm again. 'Let's skip.'
Zeke allowed himself to be led. Outside, where the morning sunlight drifted like sawdust over the garden, he saw the other patients standing at their gates, watching with mute wonder.
The diagnostic room was crowded with attendants, but no one moved to stop Carl and Zeke until they reached the examining room. There, the largest of them jumped out from behind a portable partition and locked Carl's arms in a bearhug.
Two others grabbed Zeke.
A whipcrack of voltage hissed very loudly, and the bearhugger was cast backward like an unstrung marionette. His stupefied bulk slammed into the pursuing
Dr. Blau and knocked him onto the floor so hard he plunged into unconsciousness. The two men holding Zeke let him go.
The limousine drove them back into Manhattan. On the return trip, in the privacy of the soundproofed interior, Carl and Zeke faced each other in luminous silence for a long time.
Carl spoke first: 'You've changed, ZeeZee.'
'I've changed?' They laughed helplessly.
'How did you know?' Carl asked when he found his breath. 'Shards of Time tells what happened to me better than I can.'
'I wrote it, yeah. But only after I witnessed it. I don't really know how. I think it's some kind of inertial resonance between you and me. I was unconscious for a long time. Then my ego was killed, and I began having what I call inspelling. I think everybody has that power, but ordinary consciousness has filters that dampen the inspells to moods which most people, in the blustery course of their lives never even notice.
There are so many more important things going on-like getting published and tenured, like making a success of a ratty Irish pub. Madness heals that misdirection, man. We're running one path, and only the dying and the mad know it: Yeah, well, I found that out when I couldn't get anyone to believe me.'
Zeke informed Carl of his image captured in the bathroom mirror. 'Everyone thought it yeas a fake. No one believed his senses. And the few that did said, 'So what? A man turned to light. What can we do, think, or feel about it?
It's an epiphenomenon. A once-only event. Forgot it.' I couldn't buy that. I know you, buster. I knew you weren't a bodhisattva or a Christ='
'Thanks.'
'I just mean-what happened to you wasn't supernatural.
There had to be reasons. And I looked for them. But I didn't find anything certain until my quest had tortured me free of any hope. Hope that I would be understood. By then I was in Cornelius, and they were hitting me with drugs. The inspelling turned to surges, heavy hallucinations. I'm still streaming, man.'
'I can tell. You sound like a flashback to the Sixties. But you wrote Shards of Tinie before the shrinks got you, right?'
'Yeah. My imagination was the gateway to the truth. I know it's true now, but then it was a fantasy. A lot's happened to my awareness since that time. And your -showing up is the most enormous miracle of all. But enough of my blathering-look at you! Squirm, you're a frigging bulldog now. I want to hear you tell the story'
'Carl told it, and Zeke listened with a face bright as noon.
His eyes bugged when Carl showed him the light lance. He handled it with the reverence of a priest. 'Nothing like this was in your book,' Carl said. 'In your story, Eve and Ken live happily ever after in Timesend. But in my life she was taken by the zotl. And now here I am warehousing pig manure; three people dead, and maybe even Evoe. It's crazy' .
'It's crazier even than that,' Zeke told him after a respectful pause.
The emotions that his retelling had churned went still in Carl. 'What do you mean?'
'I mean, the urg-the eld skyle, whatever you want to call it-it didn't tell you the truth:'
'About what?'
'The eld skyle told you that the Werld was inside the cosmic black hole. The final black hole. There's no such thing.'
'Why would it lie?'
'It. was easier,' Zeke replied, smiling thinly as a
philosopher. 'You see, there no end to the universe. It's forever.'
'Yeah, the multiverse. I've heard of that. But our own universe is-just a bubble, expanding now but eventually collapsing in on itself and maybe starting over again.'
'That's the contemporary myth, and that's why the eld skyle told you that. It knew you would believe it. If you'd been a medieval European, it would have told you you'd made it to the empyrean. To a Babylonian the urg would call itself Utnapishtim and welcome you to Aralu. '
..'Why?..
'I told you. It's easier. The truth is too strange.'
'Well-don't keep me hanging. What do you know, and how do you know it?'
'I don't know it, Carl. I feel it, when the surges come on me. I've seen that the universe is eternal. It's an infinite continuum, Squirm. There's no final collapse. And there's no Big Bang.'
