even register it. He let the screams go on until Connelly was gasping for breath. Then he walked around and looked at where the cement floor was spattered with blood from Connelly’s wrists. He examined it as though faintly curious and nodded to himself.
“I see,” he said, “that you are still alive.”
“Fuck you,” snarled Connelly.
“You’ve come a long way since Memphis.”
“Fuck you.”
“As have I.”
Connelly growled and heaved himself at the man. The gray man stood just inches away, looking down on him calmly. This close Connelly could see one scar on his cheek went up into his scalp, cutting his ear in half and nearly splitting half his head. The gray man seemed strangely still. He did not even seem to need to breathe.
“You should not have followed me,” he said with a trace of sadness.
“Bastard! Bastard!” Connelly howled. “You killed my daughter! You killed my little girl! My little girl, my little fucking girl!”
“You should not have followed me,” said the gray man again.
“I’m going to kill you,” snarled Connelly. “I’m going to kill you. Cut your throat, you fucking bastard. Kill you.”
“It has been a long time since I have been aware of men,” said the gray man. “A man, more specifically. You are all so alike. I can no more tell you apart than I could a drop of water in the ocean.”
“Fuck you.”
“It’s so strange. If I were to take a man from the hills of this country on which we stand,” said the gray man, “and then take another from some foreign place—China, perhaps—and if you were then to cut a foot off of each of those men I am certain the noises they would make with their mouths would be similar. Their histories and cultures and names would crumble and they would be the same man then, would they not?”
“Bastard,” said Connelly. “Fucking bastard. You sick, sick bastard.”
“But you are different,” said the gray man. “You and I. I notice you, I even know your name, which is strange in its own right. We are alike in some fashion which I find difficult to perceive.”
Connelly screamed and heaved himself forward again. The gray man seemed not to notice. His blank eyes were fixed on Connelly and he might have been blind, seeing but not seeing, staring through everything like all matter and all creatures within his eyesight were immaterial.
Connelly finished screaming. The gray man said, “You don’t agree?”
“Goddamn you. Goddamn you to hell. I am not like you, I’m not.”
“You have taken lives in getting here. You are willing to take more in the future.”
“I don’t kill little girls!” howled Connelly.
The gray man considered this, accepted it with a tilt of the head. “No. You do not. Not yet.”
“I ain’t never going to, neither. I ain’t like you and I ain’t like the goddamn sheriff. I don’t kill, you bastards, I’m no murderer. You’re all fucking monsters doing whatever the hell you please, ain’t you?”
“The sheriff does as I ask. I see you survived his little poison. I’m somewhat impressed.” Then he reached forward and dropped something onto the floor. A pile of twigs and string, horribly mauled. Chewed, almost. “An old magic, and a minor one,” he said. “You fed the taint and made it slow and fat. But it would have gotten you in the end, you know, had you not found it.”
“I’ll kill you both,” said Connelly, now almost sobbing. “Kill the both of you. I don’t understand why the hell you’d bother to do this.”
“The sheriff is a friend of mine,” said the gray man. “I have given him something very precious and he does small tasks for me.”
“And what the hell could any man ever want from a bastard like you?”
“Life,” said the gray man. “Peace. These things are valued, yes?”
“I’m going to kill you,” said Connelly. “Maybe not now and maybe not today, but goddamn you, the last thing you see on this earth is going to be my face. Last image your fucked-up brain is going to take in is going to be my face, and I’ll say her name. I’ll say her name and that’ll be the last thing you hear because that’s what killed you, the second you touched her you were dead and I’m going to be the one to do it. And you’ll die knowing it. You’ll die knowing it. I swear.”
The gray man listened to that and once more Connelly saw some strange fear work its way into his face. He said, “Mr. Connelly, you should go home.”
“Fuck you.”
“You should give up now and go home.”
“Keep running. I don’t care how long it takes. I’ll find you.”
“You think I am running from you?” said the gray man. “Is that what you think?”
Connelly didn’t answer. The gray man bent low. His eyes were huge in his face and his ruined mouth twisted into a snarl. “Dawn is breaking,” he whispered. “Night has fallen and the dawn comes. It is on the horizon. Do you not feel it? Each breath this nation and this world takes is one taken in anticipation, for in our future something rears its head, something new and terrible, and the sun shall show it. These past years have been the long night before it, the long midwinter. But now I ask you, what will you see once that dawn breaks? What will it reveal? When the cold gray light washes across the face of this earth, will it be the same earth you fell asleep in? Or will it be something new? Will it be something so great and awesome that it will deny words and dwarf language, something to belittle all the previous creations of man and beast? Can you say for sure?”
“I don’t know what the hell you’re talking about.”
“Do you not? Why not? Does your life matter so little? It is happening out there!” he cried, pointing westward. “Just out there! The years and ages line up and somewhere in those endless flats time itself heaves with pangs of labor, a sick, red cunt that readies to birth a new age! A new era! Do you not understand?”
“You’re crazy. You’re a fucking loon.”
The gray man thought about that and stooped to eye level.
“No,” he whispered. “No.” He leaned close. “Do you know what I’ve seen out there?”
Connelly did not answer.
“I have been to the far reaches,” said the gray man. “I have walked to the edge where the black vaults swallow creation and I stood on the edge of the world and pissed into nothingness. I’ve seen the things that hide and dance behind the stars in the sky and I pinned them to the ground and laughed and made them tell me their names one by one, one by one.”
The gray man drew himself up to his fullest height, an impossibly tall man, and as he spoke Connelly swore his scars were no longer scars but it was all one mouth, enormous and ragged. His voice grew loud and as it did the light seemed to shrink.
“I have walked in dark places where eyeless things of no mind and no soul gnaw the bottoms of mountains and eat rock and stone the likes of which mankind has never known and will never know. I have watched eons being devoured by crushing waves and as I watched I knew in my heart that I was the sole witness of their existence and their passing. I have stalked the forests that ring the top of this earth where snow is thick and silence has gone undisturbed for centuries, and
He looked down on Connelly, eyes still blank. “I have done things which your mind cannot possibly comprehend, which you cannot ever approach. I am in all shadows and in no shadow, I am in every atom and I am in every heart. And I will not allow the new day to break. Night everlasting, if it may be so. And you must stop, Mr. Connelly. You
Connelly said, “Then kill me.”
The gray man charged forward, his long white hands grasping out, but they stopped inches away from Connelly’s neck. He saw the scarred man struggle, face contorted, like he was pulling against an unimaginable force. He shuddered, then withdrew, his chest heaving and a sheen of sweat across his pallid brow.
