between his fingers. The movement comforted him, he felt his pulse decrease slightly as he touched the smooth surface. ‘Look, what did Mr Gow say, Stevie?’
DS McGuire puffed his cheeks, squinted towards the window. ‘He wanted to speak to the officer in charge, I came to look for you but you were in with Benny and… Well, I headed him off at the pass.’
Brennan touched his forehead, the filter tip of the unlit cigarette pressed against his brows. ‘Jesus fucking Christ, that’s all we need.’
‘But…’
Brennan dropped his hand, looked at McGuire. ‘There’s a but?’
‘I’m afraid so… He wants to come and speak to you. As soon as possible.’ The DS reached into his shirt pocket, removed a yellow Post-it note and handed it to Brennan, said, ‘Here’s his number, he’s waiting for your call… Says he’s happy to come in to the station when you’re free.’
‘Right, thanks…’
‘I thought perhaps I should have handballed it to Jim.’
Brennan pocketed the number, ‘No chance.’ He pointed the cigarette like a blade at McGuire, ‘Jim is on a strictly needs to know basis… Needs to know fuck all, that is, unless I say otherwise.’
McGuire rolled his eyes towards the ceiling. ‘Message received and understood, sir.’
Brennan tucked the cigarette behind his ear, ‘Look, Stevie, you talk to Mr Gow, tell him we’re exploring links to the Sloan killing… But be careful, eh, and get him in for interviews with the squad.’ The DI started to do up his tie. His expression said he had moved on from the last topic of conversation. ‘I need you to do something else for me.’
‘What’s that?’
‘Get onto the press office and tell them to contact all media — especially the television studios — and tell them I’m fronting a press conference downstairs tomorrow morning… That should give them enough time to get us on the evening news slot.’
‘We’re going public already?’ McGuire’s voice dipped again.
‘We’ve no choice, the News beat us to it.’ Brennan brushed down the shoulders of his jacket, ‘We can maybe turn this around, though, make it work for us.’
McGuire looked doubtful, thinning his eyes and pressing out his lower lip like a petulant child. ‘We’ve never done well with the media before, boss.’
Brennan nodded, straightened his cuffs and headed for the door. ‘You can say that again. Look, it’s not the way I’d like to have played it, Stevie, but we’ve no choice. And it’s not like we’ve got leads coming out of our ears.’
‘Yes, sir.’
Brennan grabbed the door handle, held it steady as he spoke, ‘But remember, keep this out of Benny’s earshot…’
‘He doesn’t know?… You’ll have to tell him.’
Brennan shook his head now, ‘No, Stevie, he knows. He just thinks this was a fait accompli some time ago.’
‘I don’t follow you.’
‘Good. It’s probably best you don’t. And, don’t forget to let the press office know that I am fronting this up… I don’t want fucking Gallagher anywhere near those cameras, don’t even want him in the room with them.’
McGuire smiled, ‘You media whore.’
‘No, Stevie, I don’t want him sticking his size tens in and tipping the press off to the links with the Fiona Gow case, that would be all we need — a serial killer frenzy on our hands and a baying mob of hacks following our every move.’
‘Got you.’ McGuire watched Brennan open the door, step through. ‘Are you heading out, sir?’
‘Well observed, Detective… I’m off to see the Sloans.’
Chapter 32
DI Rob Brennan thought the world was cracked, fragmenting. He felt the age he lived in had grown confused and uncertain. The world no longer knew right from wrong. It confused profits with rewards and seemed unsure of the value of anything. As he drove towards the Sloans’ home in Pilrig his mind thrashed between the case and more petty concerns. He thought about the way the Chief Super had cautioned him — not for his conduct on the case but for his financial mismanagement of the force’s resources. It was insane: he knew you could not put a price on policing the streets. You could not put a price on finding the killer who had left the cold bodies of Fiona Gow and Lindsey Sloan in a Straiton field. He shook his head, wondered how far off a privatised police force was. They had put the prisons in the hands of big business — and the court transport — was a private force much closer now? Nothing was beyond the scope of the bean counters, he surmised.
Brennan tilted with the sweep of the car as he overtook a double-decker bus with an advertisement for a new reality show on its side. He realised he no longer knew what a good television programme was. Or a good book. A movie or a piece of music. He couldn’t remember the last time he’d engaged with mass culture. It was for other people, alien to him; it seemed to him like nobody got Rob Brennan any more. He didn’t fit the unthinking mould: they were all waiting to be told their tastes, spoon fed.
He turned on the car radio, a saccharine pop song burst from the speakers and assaulted his eardrums; he turned it off, sneered into the windscreen.
‘Fuck’s sake.’
Where were the true artists, thought Brennan, the people to make sense of this mess? If a fifteen-year-old singer with a side sweep could shift records, it meant all now — but it meant nothing — where were the arbiters? Had they gone too? If they had gone — those point-men for the human race — then the rest of us weren’t far behind. No one stood up any more to say we had all lost our way; we had supplanted our souls with rhinestone or dust or paste — anything vacuous and empty, anything worthless, meaningless.
Brennan felt like the only one who cared; he was old enough to remember a different way, a different world. Was he simply being nostalgic? he wondered. Had it really been that much better to hear a song he’d enjoyed on the radio had reached number one on Top of the Pops? Did it mean anything? It was just another fond memory from his youth that triggered deeper memories — reminded him that those times were now gone, passed, and would not be coming back. Was it further evidence of his growing discontent? Brennan knew that the world he had dwelt in as a younger man had vanished and the promise it offered had never materialised. He felt let down, duped; and every reminder of the fact dug at his battered heart.
The mobile phone on the passenger seat beside him started to ring; he picked it up. The caller ID said Joyce. He flicked on the blinkers, pulled into the side of the road.
Brennan took a deep breath before he answered, ‘Hello, Joyce.’
She started on him immediately, ‘That was some trick to pull.’ Her voice was high, forceful. She had taken time to let her wrath simmer. ‘I mean, to drag your daughter out of school is one thing, but to not even tell me, to leave me waiting at home… Wondering where in the name of Christ she was.’
‘Shut up, Joyce.’
There was a single second of silence, then indignation bit once more, ‘What did you say to me?’
Brennan answered calmly, he let the flat tone of his voice lead her opinion more than his words. ‘I think you heard, I think you’re being unfair, and I think you know it.’
Her teeth clacked on the other end of the line, ‘I don’t believe I’m hearing this.’
‘Neither do I… did you just call to bawl me out?’ Brennan could tell from the tone of his wife’s voice that she had no intention of making a valid point about him collecting Sophie from school. She was not concerned about where she had been or whom she was with; Joyce had called to vent unspoken frustrations. She wanted to tell him that she was the one who had decamped to the moral high ground, she was the one who stayed home, looked after their daughter. He, by contrast, had to be reminded he was the adulterer, not fit to remain under their roof. That was her message, however she attempted to relay it.
‘She went straight to her room and stayed there all night, never spoke a word. Do you realise the
