As I eased the animal off the floor his head fell limply over my arm. He had blood all round the edges of his mouth.
‘Usual, what’s happened to you, boy?’
I tried to rouse him, but he was cold.
Chapter 25
I slapped the dog on the back, but got nothing. I put my ear to his nose and felt sure he was breathing, but only just. My mind whirred with dark thoughts. I lifted Usual onto the passenger seat and his mouth dropped open, his tongue flopped over the edge. As I panicked, tried to get my head working, I caught sight of something sticking to the carpet by the door. I reached for it. It was a piece of raw steak, half chewed.
‘You fuckers.’
Someone had fed the poor animal a piece of dodgy meat. I knew at once I had to get him to a vet. The nearest one was a mile away.
‘Hang in, boy… we’ll get you help.’
I slammed the door and over-revved the engine so much that a cloud of smoke came flooding from the back of the car. The tyres spun on the slippery road as I gunned the gas pedal hard. I saw people pointing at me as I clipped the kerb with my back wheel but I didn’t care. I had the car up to sixty on Easter Road and took the junction in a handbrake turn. The Punto skidded into London Road, near taking out the traffic lights. An old giffer on the pedestrian crossing raised his shopping bag and mouthed abuse.
I took the bus lane and flashed my lights at anyone else who got the same idea. I had one hand on the steering wheel and the other on Usual’s back. ‘Hang in, boy. Hang in.’
My mind filled with all I had been through with this dog: I had rescued him from a shower of yobs who’d been torturing him on Corstorphine Hill. They had tied him to a tree, were firing air-rifle pellets at him when I stepped in. A frenzied dash to the vet had been called for then. He’d survived his ordeal; I hoped he would be as lucky again. There had never been a more devoted dog than Usual. He had grown into our little household and he worshipped Debs. She would be devastated if anything happened to him. Fuck, she would never forgive me.
I was sweating now, my brows collecting beads of moisture. I had my mouth set in a grimace as I raced through the gears, getting to the box junction at the Carphone Warehouse. The lights turned red but I ran them. A Volvo came out from the stadium road and I was inches from its massive front bumper. The driver braked suddenly, brought the Volv’ to a halt. I flew past him; as I did, he regained some composure and pummelled the horn.
The dog didn’t look as if he was travelling well. His tongue had changed colour, seemed to have drained of blood. I patted his back, but he didn’t so much as murmur. I was losing hope, I sensed the dog slipping away from me.
‘Come on, boyo. Don’t you be leaving me. Come on, come on.’
I spun the wheel through my hands, it burned my palms. I hit a traffic island and the back end fishtailed out of control. I had to countermand the steering to get the car to right itself. The front end lurched at a parked car and there was a millisecond of impending damage before I got the bastard under control. I ramped up the revs again and the car lurched to the other side of the road. An oncoming motorist pulled out of the way, but we clipped wing mirrors.
‘Fuck it.’
The Punto’s mirror was hanging off. Banged on the side of the door.
In my rear-view I saw the driver of the other car stop. He opened his door and stood in the road, roaring at me. Like I gave a shit.
I had two streets to go. I took the car over the edge of the dropped kerb at the corner shop and rolled in neutral, then I had to slam on the anchors.
‘Bollocks!’
There were roadworks.
Two fat builders in high-visibility coats directed a reversing dumper truck. The other side of the street was filled with a pile of stone chippings. The road was blocked. I gripped at the wheel. Smacked my fists off the dash. What the fuck was I to do? I punched the steering wheel and the horn belted out.
The builders looked at me, mouthed something between themselves, then got back to work.
I looked at the dog: he lay lifeless. His body had slid towards the door when I hit the brakes, his face shoved up against the armrest. I put a hand on him — he felt cold, his nose dry.
‘Oh Christ, Usual!’
I jerked my hand from him and reached for the door. I ran round to the passenger side and yanked it open. Usual’s head flopped as the door’s support was taken from him. I leaned over, put my arms under his still body and picked him up. As I held him close, I reached for the raw steak that sat on the floor, shoved it in my coat pocket and ran.
I tanked it down the slush-filled streets.
I felt my steps give way on the slippery surface but I kept up a good pace. As I rounded the corner I fell, landed on one knee but held on to the dog. As I looked down his head lolled like a rag doll’s. I put my hand under the base of his skull, supported him. The vet’s surgery was in sight.
Normally, parked cars were lined up out front, and all the way down the street, but today there were none to be seen.
‘Oh, fucking hell… Don’t be closed on me.’
I chanked it as fast as I could for the last fifty yards. I thought my heart might let out. My lungs shrieked; I cursed myself for smoking so much.
‘Come on, be open. Be fucking open!’
There were no signs of life at the vet’s. It was nearly holiday time — had they shut up early?
‘Oh, Jesus…’
As I got closer to the door, sliding and cursing as I went, I suddenly saw a sight that fired hope in me — lights burning on a Christmas tree.
I rounded the path, grabbed the door handle. It opened — I gasped in relief.
Inside I got hit with the smell of disinfectant and dog food. I brushed past a man with a cat carrier in the foyer and took a noticeboard down with me. A woman on the reception desk looked as though I’d cracked it over her head.
‘Hey, hey, what you playing at?’ she yelped at me.
I shouldered customers out of the way; there was more yelping.
‘Sorry, sorry,’ I gasped, short of breath.
Some tutting was added to the cacophony.
As I reached the desk, I panted, completely out of breath. My heart was bursting. I was dizzy with exertion and fear. ‘My dog… My dog…’
The receptionist was indignant. ‘You’ve just pushed through the queue!’
I was ready to lamp her, but she caught sight of Usual in my arms and her tone changed immediately.
‘Oh my God, is this a road accident?… Has he been hit by a car?’
I shook my head, rummaged in my pocket. ‘It’s this… this.’
She looked scoobied, had no idea what I was giving her.
I shook the steak — blood dripped from it. ‘It’s meat, someone’s fed him this.’
Her brain clicked to on. She pushed back her chair. The wheels cut into the floorboards as she called out to the vet, ‘Bob, Bob… There’s a dog here been poisoned.’
The vet came running through, tucking a thermometer in his shirt pocket. He didn’t look at me; all I saw was the top of his bald and freckled head as he poked and prodded at Usual. He picked up the meat and sniffed it, shook his head, then lifted the dog. I watched him jog through to the surgery, calling out instructions to a girl who appeared wearing a green gown and gloves.
I was still gasping for air as the receptionist placed a hand on my arm, said, ‘Are you okay there?’
She seemed absorbed by me. I patted the back of the hand she placed on my arm, muttered, ‘I think so,
