A Drop of the Hard Stuff

“No, it would get old fast. So you unlocked the door and she bristled.”

“Exactly.”

“She say anything?”

“No.”

“Did you?”

“What was I going to say? ‘Hey, why give me a key if I’m not supposed to use it?’ ”

“So you waited for it to blow over, and it didn’t.”

“We went upstairs, and she made some coffee, which I don’t think either of us really needed at this point. And she put the radio on, and we’d picked up the Sunday Times on the way home, and we each settled in with a section of the paper.”

“The old folks at home,” he said. “This chicken’s good.”

“It’s always good.”

“I know, but somehow it always exceeds my expectations. So, domestic bliss. Unless you had a fight over the Arts and Leisure section.”

I shook my head. “But I didn’t want to be there. And she didn’t want me there, either. And there was no way either of us could say anything or do anything, so we were stuck with each other until morning.”

“And a few minutes earlier you’d been thinking of names for your kids.”

“Well, not exactly. But close enough. Still, it was quiet.”

“Duke Ellington working away in the background.”

“Among others. The jazz station. Except for what was going on in both our minds, everything was fine.”

“Not that you knew what was going on in any mind other than your own.”

“Well, I picked up vibes.”

“Ah, vibes. And who was playing them? Lionel Hampton or Milt Jackson?”

“I didn’t know what she was thinking,” I said, “but I had a pretty good idea. And I thought, All right, the thing to do is make the best of it, and there’s not really anything wrong, and it’ll work itself out. And when I was done with the sports section I went to take a shower, figuring that maybe she’d like me a little better if I smelled nice when we made love.”

“Which you always do on Saturday night?”

“Pretty much. And I thought, you know, that it might help things work out.”

“Because sometimes sex has that effect.”

“Sometimes it does.”

“And even if it doesn’t,” he said, “at least you wind up getting laid. But somehow I gather the physical manifestation of your mutual affection wasn’t a great success.”

“I went to bed,” I said, “and she said she’d be along in a few minutes. She went to the kitchen first, to wash the coffee cups. Usually she leaves them until morning.”

“The detective speaks.”

“And she was a long time in the shower, and a long time in the bathroom after the shower stopped running. And lying there waiting for her, I thought of pretending to be asleep.”

“So that you wouldn’t have to have sex.”

“And then she came in, quiet as a mouse, and she asked me if I was awake. In a whisper, too low to rouse me if I wasn’t paying attention. And I knew she was hoping I was asleep, so she wouldn’t have to have sex.”

“The cute little couple on the wedding cake, as I recall.”

“So I rolled over,” I said, “and made room for her beside me, and we worked our way into this slow and gentle lovemaking, and eventually she either had an orgasm or faked one, but either way I was grateful. It took me forever to fall asleep.”

Sunday morning she said she didn’t feel much like brunch, and I said I ought to skip the morning meeting and see if I could get some work done. She made coffee and we each had a cup and accompanied it with sections of the paper we hadn’t gotten to the night before. Then we kissed good-bye and I got out of there.

I wound up walking all the way uptown to my hotel. I kept thinking I’d catch a meeting or a subway, but I just kept on walking, stopping once for coffee and another time for a sausage roll. By the time I got home I was ready to lie down, and I napped for an hour until it was time to watch the Giants lose to the Packers. There was snow on the field in Green Bay, which surprised me. It was still sport jacket weather in New York, except on those days when the wind had an edge to it.

The phone never rang. I had some calls to make, but first I watched the game through to the bitter end, and then I pulled my chair over to the window and watched the sky darken. When I finally picked up the phone it was to call Jim, so he could decide where we’d have our sesame noodles.

Now he said, “You’re coming up on a year.”

“No kidding.”

“Generally a tense time, immediately before and after an anniversary.”

“So they tell me.”