acting in her life to risk a professional parallel. “Like when you’re going on stage. What you’re afraid of is exposing your skills in front of a large audience, but that’s very rarely what you worry about in the moments before curtain up. Instead, you worry about throwing up, having an attack of diarrhoea, bringing the most primitive kind of shame on yourself. You worry about the possible symptom, rather than the real cause.”
Flora Le Bonnier was silent for a moment while she assessed this claim. Then she said, “You’re right. And in the same way, when you’re really, genuinely ill and you have to give a performance, suddenly you stop feeling pain for the duration of the show, and it all comes crashing in again the moment the curtain’s down.”
“‘Doctor Theatre’,” Jude agreed, knowing that her use of the actor’s phrase would increase the bond between them. “So, right now your body is reacting to the tension in your shoulders by giving you a pain in the small of your back.”
Flora seemed to accept the logic of that. She shifted in the bed and winced. “More importantly, though, can you do something to relieve that pain?”
“Yes, I think I can. If you get into the least uncomfortable position you can find and just slip your nightie down off your shoulders…”
Having been used to the constant attention of dressers in theatres and on film sets all over the world, the old woman showed no coyness about revealing her bony body with its skin the texture of muslin. Jude anointed the shoulders with the smallest amount of oil, and let her fingers flicker gently against the flesh. There was no physical strength required for what she was doing, just immense mental energy and concentration. Jude could sense the heat emanating from the woman’s body and focused her mind on melting away the tight knot of pain that was causing it.
After about twenty minutes both women felt the same flood of relaxation as the pain ebbed away. Flora sank back on to the pillows and Jude, totally drained, as ever, by the effort of healing, subsided into a bedside chair. A long, relieved silence stretched between them.
Then Jude said, very gently, “And of course our bodies and our minds go on playing tricks on us all the time, don’t they? Something that’s troubling the mind expresses itself in a bodily ailment.”
“Yes. Something which doctors – in the days when I still foolishly wasted my money consulting doctors – never seemed to understand. They seemed to regard the body and the mind as totally separate.”
“I think they’ve got a bit better about that kind of thing over recent years.”
“Huh. Well, I’ve yet to meet the traditional doctor who could do what you’ve just done for me.”
“Luck, I think. It seemed to work this morning.”
“Are you suggesting that your healing doesn’t always work?”
“I certainly am. Sometimes the magic’s just not there. I rarely know the reason…some fault in my concentration, scepticism from the patient…? I’ll never fully understand it. Still, so long as it works sometimes…” There was another silence, then Jude continued, “Well, then, Flora, what was it in your mind that was so dreadful it could completely immobilize your body?”
“Obviously it’s related to Polly’s death.” Flora seemed to feel some relief from making that statement. Jude didn’t prompt her, she let the old woman take her own time. “I think for me what happened was the culmination of many years of anxiety.” Another silence, while she gathered more of her thoughts. “What I’m going to say now may sound rather fanciful, but it is true. As you may know, the Le Bonnier family has a long history in this country dating back to the Norman Conquest.”
“I had heard that, yes.”
“And amongst the inheritances of that long history are certain advantages, of looks, of intelligence, of resilience, of bravery even. But there are also less welcome family characteristics which have been passed on. It may sound melodramatic, but in this context I cannot avoid the expression ‘Bad Blood’. Bad luck, anyway.”
Jude maintained the silence until Flora Le Bonnier felt able to continue. “I refer to what in earlier days might have gone under the blanket description of ‘madness’. In these supposedly more enlightened days we speak of ‘manic depression’ or what’s that new phrase they’ve come up with? ‘Bipolar Disorder’? Whatever you call it, I’m referring to a tendency, all too common amongst creative people, towards violent fits of self-loathing, a self-loathing which in its most extreme manifestations can lead to self-destruction.
“There has been a suicidal streak, a flaw, whatever you want to call it, in the Le Bonnier family. Some people have even been melodramatic enough to refer to it as ‘the Le Bonnier Curse’…anyway, it’s been mentioned for as far back as their history is recorded. And the fact that those family records are incomplete is due to that very flaw. In the early nineteenth century a certain Giles Le Bonnier not only killed himself but also destroyed the ancestral family home in Yorkshire when he burnt the place to the ground. Invaluable family records were also lost in the inferno. Because of that tragedy a contemporary historian would have trouble piecing together the distant history of the Le Bonnier family.”
Remembering what Carole had discovered through Wikipedia, Jude rather daringly said, “It has been suggested that the more recent history of the family is also hard to piece together.”
“I don’t understand what you mean.”
“I gather that some newspapers have actually questioned whether you have any connection with the Le Bonnier family.”
It was a bold thing to say, and the icy hauteur with which Flora greeted it would have convinced most people of her aristocratic credentials. “I don’t read newspapers,” she announced imperiously. “I never have. Journalists have no interest in the truth; they look only for character assassination and sensation.”
“But don’t you even read reviews of your performances?”
“No, I never have. What possible benefit can one gain from reading them? A good notice makes you question yourself to such an extent about what it was you did that was worthy of praise that you become self-conscious; while a bad notice depresses you so much that you never want to work again.”
“Ah, right,” said Jude, deciding not to pursue that particular line of enquiry further. “You were talking about the ‘Le Bonnier Curse’…”
“Yes. The suicidal streak, I am glad to say, does not manifest itself in every bearer of the Le Bonnier name. I myself, though occasionally prone to black moods of despair, have generally managed to keep the demon at bay by concentrating on my professional work. Though I have always worried inordinately about being a transmitter of the family curse, my son Ricky, mercifully, seems untouched by it. I sometimes wonder whether he has ever had a negative thought in his entire life and, of course, his robust self-confidence has enabled him to make the enormous success of that life that he has.
“But his daughter Polly, I fear, was not so fortunate. As a small child, she was adorable, a blithe little lass without a care in the world. But as she got older, the shadows of her inheritance began to close in on her. The depression started to take over her life.”
“Just a minute,” Jude objected. “You talk about ‘the shadows of her inheritance’, but Polly has absolutely no connection to the Le Bonnier family. She was Ricky’s
“I know that,” Flora replied patiently. “But I’m talking about ‘the Curse of the Le Bonniers’. It doesn’t just affect people who carry the ‘Bad Blood’ of the Le Bonniers in their veins. It affects everyone who becomes involved in the family.”
Jude’s credulity was being rather stretched by all this. Though Flora Le Bonnier’s narrative carried undoubted dramatic conviction, its contact with logic seemed very tenuous.
“So Polly,” the old actress went on, “became infected with bad luck as soon as she became part of the Le Bonnier clan. The Curse took its toll on her mother, too. It killed her.”
“Polly’s mother died of a drug overdose.”
“That was the means by which she died. What killed her was ‘the Curse of the Le Bonniers’. And then it reached out its tentacles to Polly, crushing her with depression, driving her into madness, and forcing her to follow the awful precedent of Giles Le Bonnier.”
After assimilating this, Jude said quietly, “So you think Polly started the fire at Gallimaufry?”
“What else is there to think?”
There was obviously quite a lot else to think, but Jude wondered whether there was any point in troubling Flora Le Bonnier with any of it. The old actress had made her mind up about her granddaughter’s death and, though the initial shock of her conclusions had hit her hard, she now was on the road to recovery. Until a definitive explanation of what had happened to Polly emerged, was there any necessity to mention the anomaly of the girl’s
