and snow-clad mountain, up a long and very deep fjord, into whose sheltering massiveness this complex of pens had been blasted and cut.
While he killed time patiently waiting for his captain, Beck — whose rank equaled lieutenant commander in the U.S. or Royal navies — thought the recent construction work here looked skillfully done and well planned. He knew it was mostly completed by Norway, an active member of NATO, before Norway was overrun and occupied when Beck’s country, resurgent Imperial Germany, went to war. In fact, if Beck paid careful enough attention when he breathed, the air still smelled slightly sour, from the curing of fresh-poured cement. The lighting, from floodlights and bare fluorescents, was glaring and harsh. From near and far many voices yelled to one another, orders or questions and answers projected above the machinery din. Beck’s crewmen were crisp and professional; the yard workers in their own proud way sounded tough and intentionally vulgar.
As he glanced up for a moment at the lowering, hard gray ceiling of the pens — barely higher than the sail, the conning tower, of his stark black nuclear submarine — Ernst Beck also felt the weight of the burden of many cares. In the dock beside him loomed the big new vessel, the mighty undersea warship on which he would serve as executive officer, with all the responsibilities that entailed. A family man with a devoted wife and sturdy young twin sons, good Catholic in the traditional Bavarian way, and trapped in a tactical nuclear war he believed to be morally wrong, Beck knew he was lucky to still be alive. He also felt secretly guilty, that he could smile and make love with his wife and drink beer when so many others were dead and utterly gone, friends and colleagues some of them, vaporized or crushed and drowned or felled by acute radiation sickness. Yet ironically, Beck also was glad. He knew he was lucky indeed after his recent misadventures in battle: to have this fine ship, to get this important assignment, even to be allowed to go to sea once more at all….
Again Beck felt that gnawing in his innermost self, and fought against another combat flashback.
The screams of torpedo engine sounds, and of terrified, agonized men. The murderous crack and rumble and the body-wrenching shock force, like thunderclaps mixed with an earthquake, as nuclear torpedoes went off near and far. The acrid smell of fear in the control room, and the smell of choking smoke, then the worse smell of burning corpses mixed with urine and vomit and shit… Running breathlessly, and hoarsely shouting orders above the crackle of the flames. Climbing the steep steel ladder in desperation with a dying master chief draped on his shoulders — Beck’s best friend. Trying to think straight and give leadership while truly scared and exhausted beyond enduring.
Beck shook his head. There was nothing glamorous about tactical nuclear war at sea. It tore at the heart and battered the mind, and left the human soul in shredded fragments. These broken shards of Ernst Beck’s soul ripped at him from inside sometimes, a feeling in his stomach like broken glass. The intergenerational Germanic craving for empire, even at the risk of national self-immolation, seemed incurable, unquenchable. Decades could pass, and the disease was reborn, like a flare-up of a stubborn case of malaria… or the dreaded return of a once-cured cancer that this time might be terminal.
For escape, Beck turned to gaze admiringly at his ship, his submarine — his new home and his new life. She’d been christened the SMS
But Ernst Beck didn’t feel like a hero.
Blessedly, he was distracted when he saw a young, skinny figure clamber up through the
Haffner was high-strung but capable. Unlike most of the
“Sorry, sir,” Haffner said.
“You’re lucky our captain is running even later than you,” Beck responded as sternly as he could. “Fix your uniform, and try not to trip over your sword again.” But Beck smiled. He liked Werner Haffner, and felt better having the leutnant zur see standing there next to him. Seeing Haffner reminded Beck that surviving was possible.
One of
“Carry on.” Since Beck was executive officer — erster wach-offizier in German, first watch officer — he was often addressed in that navy slang, the acronym 1WO pronounced phonetically “einzvo.”
Beck glanced toward the after part of his ship. The two dozen thick, pressure-proof hatches for the cruise missiles were all tightly closed. Most of those hatches covered internal silos that each held several supersonic antiship cruise missiles, nuclear armed. These missiles were of Russian design, export-model Modified Shipwrecks. They did Mach 2.5, fast enough. Some of the silos held cargo instead, including crated tactical atomic warheads that Beck assumed were meant for delivery to the Boers in distant South Africa. The Boers made their own warheads, using native uranium ore, but they might be running low on weapons-grade material because of recent heavy use in the Indian Ocean battle theater.
And one of the
The Mach 8 missiles were in very short supply, thanks to interference from the Allies. For all Beck knew, the two he held on board were the last ones Germany had, and it would take a year to retool and manufacture more. Who could tell where the war might stand by then?
The loudspeakers in the dock area announced the commencement of fueling operations. The tinny-sounding voice concluded, “All unnecessary personnel leave the area.” Beck listened to the words echo and die away against the oppressive concrete walls enclosing him and his men and his ship.
Beck ordered
Beck’s captain was a jolly, roly-poly man, emotionally expressive, candid and frank. Beck found this a refreshing change from his previous commanding officer, an austere and distant man, arrogant and unlikable; it had been hard for Beck, the son of a dairy farmer, to work for such an aristocratic snob. Beck looked forward to his new captain’s arrival now, so they could get under way, and Beck could draw some comfort from this captain’s ample personal warmth. Obedience to someone he admired fulfilled Beck. He dearly loved the sea, and loved being a submariner — the intimate sense of community among the crew, hiding together submerged far down underwater, to Beck was nurturing despite the risks. It helped make up for the loneliness, the homesickness, each time he went on deployment and left his wife and sons behind. Besides, the sooner this war was over with and won, the sooner Beck’s family and the whole world would be safe. Safe from constant danger and hunger and want. Safe from drifting atomic fallout and all its harmful effects. Safe from the dread of uncontrolled escalation to major nuclear fighting on land.
Beck caught himself, his mind wandering again, and felt conflicted. Such doubts and fears, even unspoken, were unpatriotic. Beck was a man who’d been decorated by the figurehead kaiser himself. Beck forced his thoughts to focus on specific tasks of the present….