have scars on my back where Daddy hit me with the whip.”
“I saw them.” It was time for me to get out of this house. I had done enough talking and learning and hoping to be transported home. It was clear that whatever power had used me to protect Rufus had not provided for my own protection. I had to get out of the house and to a place of safety before day came—if there was a place of safety for me here. I wondered how Alice’s parents managed, how they survived.
“Hey!” said Rufus suddenly.
I jumped, looked at him, and realized that he had been saying something—something I had missed.
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“I said what’s your name?” he repeated. “You never told me.” Was that all? “Edana,” I said. “Most people call me Dana.”
“Oh, no!” he said softly. He stared at me the way he had when he thought I might be a ghost.
“What’s wrong?”
“Nothing, I guess, but … well, you wanted to know if I had seen you this time before you got here the way I did at the river. Well, I didn’t see you, but I think I heard you.”
“How? When?”
“I don’t know how. You weren’t here. But when the fire started and I got so scared, I heard a voice, a man. He said, ‘Dana?’ Then he said, ‘Is it happening again?’ And someone else—you—whispered, ‘I think so.’ I heard you!”
I sighed wearily, longing for my own bed and an end to questions that had no answers. How had Rufus heard Kevin and me across time and space? I didn’t know. I didn’t even have time to care. I had other more immediate problems.
“Who was the man?” Rufus asked.
“My husband.” I rubbed a hand across my face. “Rufe, I have to get out of here before your father wakes up. Will you show me the way downstairs so that I don’t awaken anyone?”
“Where will you go?”
“I don’t know, but I can’t stay here.” I paused for a moment wonder- ing how much he could help me—how much he would help me. “I’m a long way from home,” I said, “and I don’t know when I’ll be able to get back there. Do you know of anyplace I could go?”
Rufus uncrossed his legs and scratched his head. “You could go out- side and hide until morning. Then you could come out and ask Daddy if you could work here. He hires free niggers sometimes.”
“Does he? If you were free and black, do you think you’d want to work for him?”
He looked away from me, shook his head. “I guess not. He’s pretty mean sometimes.”
“Is there someplace else I could go?”
He did some more thinking. “You could go to town and find work there.”
“What’s the name of the town?” “Easton.”
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“Is it far?”
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“Not so far. The niggers walk there sometimes when Daddy gives them a pass. Or maybe …”
“What?”
“Alice’s mother lives closer. You could go to her, and she could tell you the best places to go to get work. You could stay with her too, maybe. Then I might see you again before you go home.”
I was surprised he wanted to see me again. I hadn’t had much contact with children since I’d been one myself. Somehow, I found myself liking this one, though. His environment had left its unlikable marks on him, but in the ante bellum South, I could have found myself at the mercy of someone much worse—could have been descended from someone much worse.
“Where can I find Alice’s mother?” I asked.
“She lives in the woods. Come on outside, and I’ll tell you how to get there.”
He took his candle and went to the door of his room. The room’s shad- ows moved eerily as he moved. I realized suddenly how easy it would be for him to betray me—to open the door and run away or shout an alarm.
Instead, he opened the door a crack and looked out. Then he turned and beckoned to me. He seemed excited and pleased, and only frightened enough to make him cautious. I relaxed, followed him quickly. He was enjoying himself—having an adventure. And, incidentally, he was play- ing with fire again, helping an intruder to escape undetected from his father’s house. His father would probably take the whip to both of us if he knew.
Downstairs, the large heavy door opened noiselessly and we stepped into the darkness outside—the near darkness. There was a half-moon and several million stars lighting the night as they never did at home. Rufus immediately began to give me directions to his friend’s house, but I stopped him. There was something else to be done first.
“Where would the draperies have fallen, Rufe? Take me to them.”
He obeyed, taking me around a corner of the house to the side. There, what was left of the draperies lay smoking on the ground.
“If we can get rid of this,” I said, “can you get your mother to give you new draperies without telling your father?”
“I think so,” he said. “They hardly talk to each other anyway.”
Most of the remnants of the drapes were cold. I stamped out the few
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that were still edged in red and threatening to flame up again. Then I found a fairly large piece of unburned cloth. I spread it out flat and filled it with smaller pieces and bits of ash and whatever dirt I scooped up along with them. Rufus helped me silently. When we were finished, I rolled the cloth into a tight bundle and gave it to him.
“Put it in your fireplace,” I told him. “Watch to see that it all burns before you go to sleep. But, Rufe … don’t burn anything else.”
He glanced downward, embarrassed. “I won’t.”
“Good. There must be safer ways of annoying your father. Now which way is it to Alice’s house?”
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He pointed the way, then left me alone in the silent chilly night. I stood beside the house for a moment feeling frightened and lonely. I hadn’t realized how comforting the boy’s presence had been. Finally, I began walking across the wide grassy land that separated the house from the fields. I could see scattered trees and shadowy buildings around me. There was a row of small buildings off to one side almost out of sight of the house. Slave cabins, I supposed. I thought I saw someone moving around one of them, and for a moment, I froze behind a huge spreading tree. The figure vanished silently between two cabins—some slave, prob- ably as eager as I was to avoid being caught out at night.
I skirted around a field of some grassy waist-high crop I didn’t even try to identify in the dim light. Rufus had told me his short cut, and that there was another longer way by road. I was glad to avoid the road, though. The possibility of meeting a white adult here frightened me, more than the possibility of street violence ever had at home.
Finally, there was a stand of woods that looked like a solid wall of darkness after the moonlit fields. I stood before it for several seconds wondering whether the road wouldn’t be a better idea after all.
Then I heard dogs barking—not too far away by their sound—and in sudden fear, I plunged through a tangle of new young growth and into the trees. I wondered about thorns, poison ivy, snakes … I wondered, but I didn’t stop. A pack of half-wild dogs seemed worse. Or perhaps a pack
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of tame hunting dogs used to tracking runaway slaves.
The woods were not as totally dark as they had seemed. I could see a little after my eyes grew accustomed to the dimness. I could see trees, tall and shadowy—trees everywhere. As I walked on, I began to wonder how I could be sure I was still going in the right direction. That was enough. I turned around—hoping that I still knew what “around” meant, and headed back toward the field. I was too much of a city woman.
I got back to the field all right, then veered left to where Rufus had said there was a road. I found the road and followed it, listening for the dogs. But now, only a few night birds and insects broke the silence—crickets, an owl, some other bird I had no name for. I hugged the side of the road, trying to suppress my nervousness and praying to go home.
Something dashed across the road so close to me that it almost brushed my leg. I froze, too terrified even to scream, then realized that it was just some small animal that I had frightened—a fox, perhaps, or a rabbit. I found myself swaying a little, swaying dizzily. I collapsed to my knees, desperately willing the dizziness to intensify, the
