that.?
“Maybe he just wants to do something to Joachim?get even with him for something.” She shook her head angrily, bitterly. “Maybe he just likes being a son of a Clayark bitch!” She stood leaning against him, radiating her anger. “Joachim won’t let it happen,” she said. “He must have expected some kind of trouble, the way he kept warning us. But we can depend on him.”
?I hope so. But there was something … at the last, when he made me leave, he threatened to help Coransee against me if I attacked.”
?He was angry. He didn’t mean it.”
“He was angry, all right. But he meant it. He would have done it.”
She opened her mouth to protest again, to defend Joachim. Then she closed it and lowered her head. “It can’t happen, Teray.” She seemed to surrender to the fear that she had been holding at bay with her anger. She pressed herself against him, trembling. “Don’t you see what it would mean?” she whispered. “The outsider restrictions.”
He said nothing, only looked at her. He knew which restriction she had in mind. There were several: outsiders were not free to father children as they wished, and of course they had little or no say in where they lived or how long they lived there. They were property. But the restriction Iray had in mind was the one that said outsiders could not marry. They were free enough to have all the sex they wanted with any woman in the House who would have them?as long as they were careful to father no unauthorized offspring. But if, as in Teray’s case, a man was married before he lost his freedom, his wife took her place among the women of the House, the Housemaster’s wives. And she became the only woman in the House permanently forbidden to her former husband.
The laws were old, made in harsher times.
Perhaps it was reasonable, as the old records said, to forbid weak men to sire potentially weak children. But what reason could there be for denying a man access to his chosen one, his first, while permitting him so many others? What reason but to remind him constantly that he was a slave?
Teray drew a ragged breath. No matter why the laws had been made, they were still in effect, being used every day. Now, if Joachim failed him, they would be used against him.
No, he had chosen Joachim as well as been chosen by him. He knew the man. Iray was right. Joachim would not make the trade.
When they had talked for a while longer, Teray assuring Iray, reassuring himself, another mute approached them to say that Joachim had decided to stay the night. They had been assigned a room. If they wished to go there now…
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They had dinner in their room that night, served by a young mute girl who knew enough to go about her work without bothering them. The girl was on her way out when, finally, Joachim came to see them. The mute girl smiled at him and continued out of the room. Joachim watched silently until she closed the door behind her. Then he crossed the room to them, still silent. Teray stood up.
Joachim faced him, met his eyes. “I’m sorry, Teray.”
“Sorry?” Teray repeated the word mechanically, then explosively: “Sorry! You mean you did it? You traded me?”
“Yes.”
“Joachim, no!” Iray almost screamed the words. Then she was on her feet too, and beside Teray. “You’ve betrayed us.” She radiated more anger than fear. “After I introduced you to Teray.”
“How could you do it?” Teray demanded. “Why would you do it?”
Joachim turned away, went to stand beside a window. “You heard him. He wanted you. I couldn’t stop him.”
“Then why didn’t you let me try?”
“You can try if you want to.” Joachim shook his head wearily. “You probably will, sooner or later, because he wants you to. He wants to know just how strong you are. And he wants you to know his strength. He wants to put you in your place.”
“You’re so sure that I have no chance against him?”
“No chance at all. In a few years, maybe, when you’ve had more training, more experience, when you learn more control. But now… he’ll humiliate you before the rest of his House, before Iray.” He looked at Iray. “And that will be that.”
“That’s already that as far as you’re concerned,” said Iray.
Joachim said nothing.
“After all, you’ve sold us, and you’ve been paid.” Her voice was harder than Teray had ever heard it. “You’re sorry! What do you want? Our forgiveness?”
Joachim answered softly, “I tried. I did everything I could to make him change his mind.”
“I don’t believe that. Either you wanted the artist and you did what was necessary to get him, or you let Coransee frighten you into making the trade.” She looked at him closely. “You are afraid of him, aren’t you?”
Startled, Teray looked at Joachim. The Housemaster looked tired, looked almost sick. But he did not look frightened.
“I’m afraid for Teray,” said Joachim softly, “and for you.”
“Then help us,” demanded Teray. “We need your help, not your fear!”
“I can’t help you.”
“You mean you won’t help us. No one outsider is worth the trouble you could give him for taking me. You wouldn’t even have to fight.”
“Teray, it doesn’t have to be as bad as you think, being an outsider.” There was desperation in Joachim’s voice. “If you can just accept it, stop fighting Coransee, he can teach you more than I ever could. And he’s not as far from you in the Pattern as you think.”
“And what about me, My Lord?” If there had been any of Iray’s childishness left, it was gone
