?He insists on hurting himself,? Dichaan said. ?I wonder if he hasn?t convinced Akin to hurt himself, too.?
?Akin does as he pleases!? Tino said. ?He understands what I feel better than either of you could, but it?s not what he feels. He has his own ideas.?
?You aren?t part of his body,? Nikanj said, pushing him backward so that he would lie down. He did lie down this time. ?But you?re part of his thoughts. You?ve done more than Lilith would have to make him feel that the resisters have been wronged and betrayed.?
?Resisters have been wronged and betrayed,? Tino said. ?I never told Akin that, though. I never had to. He saw it for himself.?
?You?re working on another ulcer,? Nikanj said.
?So what??
?You want to die. And yet you want to live. You love your children and your parents and that is a terrible conflict. You even love us?but you don?t think you should.? It climbed onto the platform and lay down alongside Tino. Dichaan touched the platform with his head tentacles, encouraging it to grow, to broaden and make room for him. He was not needed, but he wanted to know firsthand what happened to Tino.
?I remember Akin telling me about a Human who bled to death from ulcers,? he said to Nikanj. ?One of his captors.?
?Yes. He gave the man?s identity. I found the ooloi who had conditioned the man and learned that he had had ulcers since adolescence. The ooloi tried to keep him for his own sake, but the man wouldn?t stay.?
?What was his name?? Tino demanded.
?Joseph Tilden. I?m going to put you to sleep, Tino.?
?I don?t care,? Tino muttered. After a time, he drifted off to sleep.
?What did you say to him?? Nikanj asked Dichaan.
?I asked him about Akin?s disappearances.?
?Ah. You should have asked Lilith.?
?I thought Tino would know.?
?He does. And it disturbs him very much. He thinks Akin is more loyal to Humanity than Tino himself. He doesn?t understand why Akin is so focused on the resisters.?
?I didn?t realize how focused he was,? Dichaan admitted. ?I should have.?
?The people deprived Akin of closeness with his sibling and handed him a compensating obsession. He knows this.?
?What will he do??
?Chkah, he?s your child, too. What do you think he?ll do??
?Try to save them?what?s left of them?from their empty, unnecessary deaths. But how??
Nikanj did not answer.
?It?s impossible. There?s nothing he can do.?
?Maybe not, but the problem will occupy him until his metamorphosis. Then I hope the other sexes will occupy him.?
?But there must be more to it than that!?
Nikanj smoothed its body tentacles in amusement. ?Anything to do with Humans always seems to involve contradictions.? It paused. ?Examine Tino. Inside him, so many very different things are working together to keep him alive. Inside his cells, mitochondria, a previously independent form of life, have found a haven and trade their ability to synthesize proteins and metabolize fats for room to live and reproduce. We?re in his cells too now, and the cells have accepted us. One Oankali organism within each cell, dividing with each cell, extending life, and resisting disease. Even before we arrived, they had bacteria living in their intestines and protecting them from other bacteria that would hurt or kill them. They could not exist without symbiotic relationships with other creatures. Yet such relationships frighten them.?
?Nika
? Dichaan deliberately tangled his head tentacles with those of Nikanj. ?Nika, we aren?t like mitochondria or helpful bacteria, and they know it.?
Silence.
?You shouldn?t lie to them. It would be better to say nothing.?
?No, it wouldn?t. When we keep quiet, they suppose it?s because the truth is terrible. I think we?re as much symbionts as their mitochondria were originally. They could not have evolved into what they are without mitochondria. Their earth might still be inhabited only by bacteria and algae. Not very interesting.?
?Is Tino going to be all right??
?No. But I?ll take care of him.?
?Can?t you do something to stop him from hurting himself??
?I could make him forget some of his past again.?
?No!?
?You know I wouldn?t. I wouldn?t even if I hadn?t seen the pleasant, empty man he was before his memories came back. I wouldn?t do it. I don?t like to tamper with them that way. They lose too much of what I value in them.?