?Don?t I??
I focused on it. ?I didn?t think you did. You didn?t say anything.?
?You didn?t want me to. You should eat.?
When I didn?t eat, it moved closer to me and leaned against me, linking comfortably into my nervous system. It had not done that for a while. It wasn?t afraid of me anymore. It had not exactly abandoned me. It had allowed me to isolate myself?since I seemed to want to. It let me know this in simple neurosensory impressions.
?I was lonely,? I protested aloud.
?I know. But not for me.? It spoke with confidence and contentment that confused me.
?You?re changing,? I said.
?Not yet. But soon, I think.?
?Metamorphosis? We?ll lose each other when you change.?
?I know. Share the Human with me. It will give the two of us more time together.?
?All right.?
Then I had to go to the Human. I had to heal him alone. After that, Aaor and I could share him.
People remembered their ooloi siblings. I had heard Ahajas and Dichaan talk about theirs. But they had not seen it for decades. An ooloi belonged to the kin group of its mates. Its siblings were lost to it.
The Human male had lost consciousness by the time I lay down beside him. The moment I touched him, I knew he must have broken his leg in a fall?probably from a tree. He had puncture wounds and deep bruises on the left side of his body. The left leg was, as I had expected, a total loss, foul and poisonous. I separated it from the rest of his body above the damaged tissue. First I stopped the circulation of bodily fluids and poisons to and from the leg. Then I encouraged the growth of a skin barrier at the hip. Finally I helped his body let go of the rotting limb.
When the leg fell away, I withdrew enough of my attention from the male to ask the family to get rid of it. I didn?t want the male to see it.
Then I settled down to healing the many smaller injuries and neutralizing the poisons that had already begun to destroy the health of his body. I spent much of the evening healing him. Finally I focused again on his leg and began to reprogram certain cells. Genes that had not been active since well before the male was born had to be awakened and set to work telling the body how to grow a leg. A leg, not a cancer. The regeneration would take many days and would have to be monitored. We would camp here and keep the man with us until regeneration was complete.
It had been dark for some time when I detached myself from the male. My Human parents and my siblings were asleep nearby. Ahaj as and Dichaan sat near one another guarding the camp and conversing aloud so softly that even I could not hear all they said. A Human intruder would have heard nothing at all. Oankali and construct hearing was so acute that some resisters imagined we could read their thoughts. I wished we could have so that I would have some idea how the male I had healed would react to me. I would have to spend as much time with him as new mates often spent together. That would be hard if he hated or feared me.
?Do you like him, Oeka?? Nikanj asked softly.
I had known it was behind me, sitting, waiting to check my work. Now it came up beside me and settled a sensory arm around my neck. I still enjoyed its touch, but I held stiff against it because I thought it would next touch the male.
?Thorny, possessive ooloi child,? it said, pulling me against it in spite of my stiffness. ?I must examine him this once. But if what you tell me and show me matches what I find in him, I won?t touch him again until it?s time for him to go?unless something goes wrong.?
?Nothing will go wrong!?
?Good. Show me everything.?
I obeyed, stumbling now and then because I understood the working of the male?s body better than I understood the vocabulary, silent or vocal, for discussing it. But with neurosensory illusions, I could show it exactly what I meant.
?There are no words for some things,? Nikanj told me as it finished. ?You and your children will create them if you need them. We?ve never needed them.?
?Did I do all right with him??
?Go away. I?ll find out for sure.?
I went to sit with Ahajas and Dichaan and they gave me some of the wild figs and nuts they had been eating. The food did not take my mind off Nikanj touching the Human, but I ate anyway, and listened while Ahajas told me how hard it had been for Nikanj when its ooan Kahguyaht had had to examine Lilith.
?Kahguyaht said ooloi possessiveness during subadulthood is a bridge that helps ooloi understand Humans,? she said. ?It?s as though Human emotions were permanently locked in ooloi subadulthood. Humans are possessive of mates, potential mates, and property because these can be taken from them.?
?They can be taken from anyone,? I said. ?Living things can die. Nonliving things can be destroyed.?
?But Human mates can walk away from one another,? Dichaan said. ?They never lose the ability to do that. They can leave one another permanently and find new mates. Humans can take the mates of other Humans. There?s no physical bond. No security. And because Humans are hierarchical, they tend to compete for mates and property.?
?But that?s built into them genetically,? I said. ?It isn?t built into me.?
?No,? Ahajas said. ?But, Oeka, you won?t be able to bond with a mate?Human, construct, or Oankali?until you?re adult. You can feel needs and attachments. I know you feel more at this stage than an Oankali would. But until you?re mature, you can?t form a true bond. Other ooloi can seduce potential mates away from you. So other ooloi are suspect.?
