people, our own masters.”
“What happened to the Oze people who were here before you?”
“Some ran away. Others became our slaves.”
“So you were driven from Benin, then you drove others from here?or enslaved them.”
Anyanwu looked away, spoke woodenly. “It is better to be a master than to be a slave.” Her husband at the time of the migration had said that. He had seen himself becoming a great man?master of a large household with many wives, children, and slaves. Anyanwu, on the other hand, had been a slave twice in her life and had escaped only by changing her identity completely and finding a husband in a different town. She knew some people were masters and some were slaves. That was the way it had always been. But her own experience had taught her to hate slavery. She had even found it difficult to be a good wife in her most recent years because of the way a woman must bow her head and be subject to her husband. It was better to be as she was?a priestess who spoke with the voice of a god and was feared and obeyed. But what was that? She had become a kind of master herself. “Sometimes, one must become a master to avoid becoming a slave,” she said softly.
“Yes,” he agreed.
She deliberately turned her attention to the new things he had given her to think about. Her age, for instance. He was right. She was about three hundred years old?something none of her people would have believed. And he had said something else?something that brought alive one of her oldest memories. There had been whispers when she was a girl that her father could not beget children, that she was the daughter not only of another man, but of a visiting stranger. She had asked her mother about this, and for the first and only time in her life, her mother had struck her. From then on, she had accepted the story as true. But she had never been able to learn anything about the stranger. She would not have cared?her mother’s husband claimed her as his daughter and he was a good man?but she had always wondered whether the stranger’s people were more like her.
“Are they all dead?” she asked Doro. “These … kinsmen of mine?”
“Yes.”
“Then they were not like me.”
“They might have been after many more generations. You are not only their child. Your Onitsha kinsmen must have been unusual in their own right.”
Anyanwu nodded slowly. She could think of several unusual things about her mother. The woman had stature and influence in spite of the gossip about her. Her husband was a member of a highly respected clan, well known for its magical abilities, but in his household, it was Anyanwu’s mother who made magic. She had highly accurate prophetic dreams. She made medicine to cure disease and to protect the people from evil. At market, no woman was a better trader. She seemed to know just how to bargain?as though she could read the thoughts in the other women’s minds. She became very wealthy.
It was said that Anyanwu’s clan, the clan of her mother’s husband, had members who could change their shapes, take animal forms at will, but Anyanwu had seen no such strangeness in them. It was her mother in whom she had found strangeness, closeness, empathy that went beyond what could be expected between mother and daughter. She and her mother had shared a unity of spirit that actually did involve some exchange of thoughts and feelings, though they were careful not to flaunt this before others. If Anyanwu felt pain, her mother, busy trading at some distant market, knew of the pain and came home. Anyanwu had no more than ghosts of that early closeness with her own children and with three of her husbands. And she had sought for years through her clan, her mother’s clan, and others for even a ghost of her greatest difference, the shape changing. She had collected many frightening stories, but had met no other person who, like herself, could demonstrate this ability. Not until now, perhaps. She looked at Doro. What was it she felt about him?what strangeness? She had shared no thoughts with him, but something about him reminded her of her mother. Another ghost.
“Are you my kinsman?” she asked.
“No,” he said. “But your kinsmen had given me their loyalty. That is no small thing.”
“Is that why you came when … when my difference attracted you.
He shook his head. “I came to see what you were.”
She frowned, suddenly cautious. “I am myself. You see me.”
“As you see me. Do you imagine you see everything?”
She did not answer.
“A lie offends me, Anyanwu, and what I see of you is a lie. Show me what you really are.”
“You see what you will see!”
“Are you afraid to show me?”
“… No.” It was not fear. What was it? A lifetime of concealment, of commanding herself never to play with her abilities before others, never to show them off as mere tricks, never to let her people or any people know the full extent of her power unless she were fighting for her life. Should she break her tradition now simply because this stranger asked her to? He had done much talking, but what had he actually shown her about himself? Nothing.
“Can my concealment be a lie if yours is not?” she asked.
“Mine is,” he admitted.
“Then show me what you are. Give me the trust you ask me to give you.”
“You have my trust, Anyanwu, but knowing what I am would only frighten you.”
“Am I a child then?” she asked angrily. “Are you my mother who must shield me from adult truths?”
He refused to be insulted. “Most of my people are grateful to me for shielding them from my particular truth,” he said.
“So you say. I have seen nothing.”
He stood up, and she stood to face him, her small withered body fully in the shadow of his. She was little more than half his size, but it was no new thing for her to face larger people and either bend them to her will with words
