She realized that Doro was standing over her between the long cloths that could be closed to conceal the bed. And she realized that this was not the first time he had said her name. Still, it surprised her that she had heard him without his shouting or touching her. He had only spoken quietly.
She opened her eyes, looked up at him. He was beautiful standing there with the light of candles behind him. He had stripped to the cloth he still wore sometimes when they were alone together. But she noticed this with only part of her mind. Her main thoughts were still of the loathsome thing she had been tricked into doing?the consumption of animal milk.
“Why didn’t you tell me!” she demanded.
“What?” He frowned, confused. “Tell you what?”
“That these people were feeding me animal milk!”
He burst into laughter.
She drew back as though he had hit her. “Is it a joke then? Are the others laughing too now that I cannot hear?”
“Anyanwu …” He managed to stop his laughter. “I’m sorry,” he told her. “I was thinking of something else or I wouldn’t have laughed. But, Anyanwu, we all ate the same food.”
“But why was some of it cooked with?”
“Listen. I know the custom among your people not to drink animal milk. I should have warned you?would have, if I had been thinking. No one else who ate with us knew the milk would offend you. I assure you, they’re not laughing.”
She hesitated. He was sincere; she was certain of that. It was a mistake then. But still … “These people cook with animal milk all the time?”
“All the time,” Doro said. “And they drink milk. It’s their custom. They keep some cattle especially for milking.”
“Abomination!” Anyanwu said with disgust.
“Not to them,” Doro told her. “And you will not insult them by telling them they are committing abomination.”
She looked at him. He did not seem to give many orders, but she had no doubt that this was one. She said nothing.
“You can become an animal whenever you wish,” he said. “You know there’s nothing evil about animal milk.”
“It is for animals!” she said. “I am not an animal now! I did not just eat a meal with animals!”
He sighed. “You know you must change to suit the customs here. You have not lived three hundred years without learning to accept new customs.”
“I will not have any more milk!”
“You need not. But let others have theirs in peace.”
She turned away from him. She had never in her long life lived among people who violated this prohibition.
“Anyanwu!”
“I will obey,” she muttered, then faced him defiantly. “When will I have my own house? My own cooking fire?”
“When you’ve learned what to do with them. What kind of meal could you cook now with foods you’ve never seen before? Sarah Cutler will teach you what you need to know. Tell her milk makes you sick and she’ll leave it out of what she teaches you.” His voice softened a little, and he sat down beside her on the bed. “It did make you sick, didn’t it?”
“It did. Even my flesh knows abomination.”
“It didn’t make anyone else sick.”
She only glared at him.
He reached under the blanket, rubbed her stomach gently. Her body was almost buried in the too-soft feather mattress. “Have you healed yourself?” he asked.
“Yes. But with so much food, it took me a long time to learn what was making me sick.”
“Do you have to know?”
“Of course. How can I know what to do for healing until I know what healing is needed and why? I think I knew all the diseases and poisons of my people. I must learn the ones here.”
“Does it hurt you?the learning?”
“Oh yes. But only at first. Once I learn, it does not hurt again.” Her voice became bantering. “No, give me your hand again. You can touch me even though I am well.”
He smiled and there was no more tension between them. His touches became more intimate.
“That is good,” she whispered. “I healed myself just in time. Now lie down here and show me why all those women were looking at you.”
He laughed quietly, untied his cloth, and joined her in the too-soft bed.
“We must talk tonight,” he said later when both were satiated and lying side by side.
“Do you still have strength for talking, husband?” she said drowsily. “I thought you would go to sleep and not
