‘But you’re… you’re there, on the floor… with your, your eyes closed…’
He was genuinely confused. ‘But how…’
What was wrong with her? Was she upset with him? Because of what he had done? ‘Have I… have I done something wrong? I didn’t mean to hit you that hard. I’m sorry… I should have, should have…’
He had to tell her, make himself understood. Plead, if he needed to. ‘But you did a bad thing to me first. I only hit you after that, you made me do it…’
‘I wouldn’t have done it otherwise…’
‘But…’
He smiled. Felt relief wash through him. ‘Thank you…’
‘I am prepared…’
He frowned, confused once more. ‘No… what, what d’you mean?’
‘I don’t…’
The Creeper thought hard. This was difficult. This didn’t feel right at all.
He sat down beside the inert body of Rani. Tried not to look at her. He closed his eyes, forehead furrowed. Thinking. It took some effort, but, yes, he remembered. He told her so.
He laughed, thinking that was what she wanted him to do.
She ignored him.
‘Yeah, no problem.’ He wanted to please her once more, make her happy again.
‘What about you?’
‘You. Lying here, on the floor. With your eyes closed. You’re talking to me and you’re not talking to me. What am I going to do with you?’
‘Like a husk? Another husk? You mean put it with the others?’
He felt a sharp stab of pain in his heart. ‘But, but you said this would be the one. The one body you were going to stay in. Forever…’
Her words, harsh. He didn’t like that. It upset him. Made him feel like crying.
‘I’m sorry… I didn’t, didn’t mean to…’
‘I won’t let you down. Promise.’
He listened. She told him. Asked him to repeat it back to her until she was sure he understood.
And she was gone.
He looked down at the husk. Sighed. Felt that stabbing in his heart once again. What a shame. He had thought that this was it. This was them back together forever. He should have known better. Should have known things wouldn’t work out.
Oh well.
He looked round the boat, knowing this was going to be the last time he would ever see it. It didn’t feel like home. Not really. But then nowhere ever did. Not any more. No place felt like home. Not if Rani wasn’t in it.
Felt tears well up. Swallowed them down. Wouldn’t give in to them. Not again.
But he was going to meet her. She had said so. Would this be the real Rani? No more husks? He hoped so. But then he had thought so before and been disappointed.
Still.
His eyes fell on the box in the corner. He smiled. That would help. That would be something to look forward to.
Fire. He liked the fire. It was power.
And he liked having power.
No longer caring about the husk on the floor, but checking it didn’t need another punch to keep it quiet, he crossed over to the box in the corner, opened it. Looked in.
Everything just as he remembered it.
Yes.
Fire was power.
And he was going to use it.
85
The circus had arrived.
The armed response unit had been hastily assembled in an old abandoned warehouse at the far end of Haven Street, along from King Edward Quay where Ian Buchan’s boat was moored.
It reminded Phil of the kind of desolate, empty, run-down place – all rusting metal supports, crumbling walls, rubble-strewn floors and partially destroyed roofs – that he imagined spies being exchanged in during the Cold War. Or the kind of location in which producers of TV spy dramas held end-of-episode shoot-outs. As he watched the armed response unit check, lock and load their weapons, he hoped that was just fanciful thinking.
He refused to carry a gun. Wasn’t even firearm trained. He disliked guns intensely, in any shape or form. Knives were worse, he knew that, but if he couldn’t disarm a potential aggressor with his mind and wits, or at the most with his hands and stick, he wasn’t being truly effective as a police officer.
He disliked the armed response unit. Thought the whole of CO19 – the Met’s supposedly elite force responsible for training all armed officers in the country – were a bunch of macho, fascist cowboys who hid behind the uniform while committing acts of barely licensed villainy. He was also intelligent enough to know that wasn’t a popular opinion for a serving officer to hold, never mind express, so kept it to himself. Most of the time. But he did admit there was a time when they were needed, a necessary evil. And this was one such occasion.
He snapped the Velcro tapes shut on his stab vest, pulled it down, making sure it fitted snugly but not tight