Velcroed round her legs. She was taking several deep breaths, her arm once again round her stomach, he noticed, her other arm on the bonnet of his car for support.
‘You sure you want to do this?’ Phil said, getting his own suit out of the back of his car and taking it out of the plastic bag.
She nodded, without making eye contact, keeping her focus on the front door. She didn’t say anything.
‘You don’t have to,’ he said, slipping into the suit. ‘No one expects you to. No one would blame you if you waited until the body had been cleared out.’
‘No.’ She still didn’t look at him, kept her eyes on something he couldn’t see, something he wasn’t even sure was there. ‘I want to do it.’
‘I should warn you. Once you step over that threshold, you’re in hell. You might step out again, but it’ll never leave you.’
‘I know.’
‘Well if you’re sure. I don’t want it messing you up, though. So much so that you can’t function when we need you.’
She looked at him, right in the eyes. ‘I won’t mess up.’
He kept eye contact with her for perhaps longer than he should have done. His voice softened slightly when he spoke. ‘I know you won’t.’
He saw the ghost of a smile on her face. They both looked away at the same time.
Anni came to join them, similarly attired.
‘Right.’ Phil pulled his hood up, fastened his boots. He was ready. ‘Let’s go.’
54
Phil had been right, thought Marina. It was hell.
She had hoped that seeing Claire Fielding’s apartment would have prepared her for this, but it hadn’t. Nothing could have done. She had seen the flat after it had been cleared, the bodies removed. She had looked at the crime- scene photos, tried to imagine the two together. It still wasn’t enough.
She had a flashback to when she was little and her mother used to wash her hair over the sink, rinsing it through with jug after jug of warm water. The school announced they were taking her year to the local swimming pool for lessons. Marina had never been swimming in a swimming pool before. She imagined it would feel like jug after jug of warm water over her head. But that gentle feeling was nowhere near the experience of plunging head first into the pool: the sheer weight and pressure of the cold, chlorinated water bearing down on her, pushing her under. She had felt like she was going to freeze and drown simultaneously.
Walking into the house had felt exactly the same. Viewing the photos, going round Claire Fielding’s had just been a dry run. Now she saw first-hand the way an ordered, regular life had been torn apart and destroyed in the most horrific manner imaginable. She could feel the violence, the hatred and – there was no other word for it – the insanity in the atmosphere of the house. It was like an indoor fog had descended and refused to move. Her legs weakened and she stumbled. Phil looked at her, concern on his face.
‘You okay?’
She nodded, kept her eyes away from his. The hall was carnage. The wallpaper, beige with gold designs, had bloodied handprints smeared down the length of it, showing signs of a desperate struggle, one she had no trouble imagining. The crunch of broken glass underfoot, a smashed light fitting helped her see it. But it was the bloodied spray over the walls, floor and ceiling that brought it to vivid life. The slaughterhouse decoration caused her to see the knife enter, break skin, slice muscle and tendon, watch as the bright arterial blood fountained and geysered out…
‘You sure?’
‘Yes.’ Her throat was hot and dry, her voice cracked.
He didn’t move for a few seconds, so she went on ahead of him. ‘Let’s… let’s see the rest.’
He looked at her once more, decided he had to take her at her word and moved on. ‘Must have been a struggle here,’ he said aloud. ‘She answered the door, he… what? Takes a swing at her? Cuts her?’ He looked down at the carpet. The bloodstains had been flagged, samples taken for analysis.
‘Looks like it,’ Anni said. ‘Why, though? That’s changing what he did last time.’
‘Serial killers…’ Marina took a deep breath. ‘Serial killers will do that sometimes.’
‘We’re saying that?’ said Phil. ‘Calling this the work of a serial killer?’
‘You think there’s any doubt now?’ said Marina.
‘And there’s no chance Brotherton could have done this before we brought him in?’ said Anni.
‘Highly unlikely,’ said Phil.
‘So why’s he done it like this?’ said Anni, getting them focused once more. ‘This serial killer? To throw us off? Make us think it’s someone else?’
‘Perhaps,’ said Marina. ‘They do that. Or they might find a… a different way of working. Something that… that… suits them better.’
‘Let’s find out where he cut her,’ said Phil. ‘Might give us more of a clue.’
Phil leading, they followed the bloodied trail into the living room. And stopped dead.
‘Oh God…’ said Marina. ‘Oh Jesus…’ She screwed her eyes tight shut, but not before the image had seared itself on to her retinas.
What was left of Caroline Eades’ body lay in the centre of the room, on the floor. Her stomach had been slit in a crude circle from her groin to beneath her breasts. The baby had been removed. That was horrific enough, but whoever had done it hadn’t stopped there.
‘Throat cut,’ said Phil.
‘Not just cut,’ said Anni. ‘He’s nearly taken her head off.’
The cut went right through her neck. Marina could see the glistening white bone of the woman’s spine in amongst the gore.
‘Maybe she started to scream,’ said Anni. ‘Had to keep her quiet. That accounts for the amount of blood in the hall.’ She looked again at the body. ‘What’s… what’s he done with her arms and legs?’
‘Broken them,’ said Phil, trying to sound as neutral as possible, failing to keep the revulsion out of his voice. ‘Then… held them down…’
Caroline Eades’ arms and legs were splayed out at impossible angles to her body. Heavy objects from around the room held them in place. Hardback reference books. A vase. The DVD recorder. The coffee table.
‘Oh God…’ said Marina again. ‘Oh God…’
Phil turned to her, grabbed her by the shoulders. Eye-to-eye contact. ‘Marina, look at me.’
‘But, but I… I know her…’
Anni joined Phil in staring at Marina. ‘How?’ asked Phil.
‘Oh God…’
‘How?’ Phil asked again, his voice managing to be both soft and firm.
‘Yoga… she was at yoga… She… she asked me to go for a coffee…’
Phil needed Marina to concentrate. He couldn’t allow her to slip into emotional memories. ‘Marina, that’s awful. Horrible. But I need you to focus now. To put that to one side and focus. I want to know what you see.’ His voice was calm, solicitous. ‘Tell me what you see.’
She glanced at the body again, then quickly back to Phil, her lip trembling.
‘What Marina Esposito the trained psychologist sees. What this means to our investigation. What you see on that floor that’s going to help us catch whoever did this.’ His voice dropped even lower. ‘Look again. Tell me what you see.’
She took a deep breath, steeled herself. Looked again. Tried to take in the scene dispassionately, clinically. Put aside her feelings, her emotions, work analytically. Put those years of theory into practice.
‘He’s… I say he, I don’t…’ She shook her head. ‘I’ll leave that one for now. The perpetrator came in through the front door; she… she answered it; he wanted to silence her. Maybe she started to scream… maybe he didn’t want to take that chance. So he did it fast. He’s… he’s in a hurry. On a schedule? Wants it over quickly?’ She shook her
