'I don't have to be told. I'm not a fool. I know men. When Sydney told me about you, I thought you were one of those ghastly little miscarriages who boast about what they have done: who he, cheat, and brag because they haven't the guts to live like men. But Sydney told me I was wrong. Even then I wouldn't believe him He told me you had a gun, and I said you were lying.'
George found perspiration was running down his face. He took out his handkerchief and mopped himself. He realized that if he wanted her admiration—and he wanted that more than anything else in the world—he could not admit that he had been lying to Brant. He was caught in his own trap; but, oddly enough, he didn't care. What possible harm could it do if he did pretend that he was a big-shot gangster? She wouldn't tell the police about him. And just suppose she did? He could always say that he had been pulling her leg, and he could prove that he had never been out of the country. All right, if she thought he had lived dangerously, if she thought he had killed men, and if, knowing that, she admired him, he would give her the opportunity to admire him even more.
'I don't talk about that side of my life,' he said, picking up his glass. 'It only sounds like bragging; but if you really want to know . . . well, I Suppose I've had as exciting a life as most men.'
'Men are such liars,' she said calmly, leaning down to put her glass on the floor. 'I still think you could be lying . . .'
George bit his lip. What was she up to now?
'Show me your gun,' she said. 'I'll believe you if you really have a gun.'
He hesitated. Some instinct warned him not to show her the gun. He had never shown it to anyone. It was his secret. He had never intended sharing it with anyone.
She was watching him now, her eyes cold and cynical.
'Bluffing?' she asked, in a contemptuous, amused tone.
He went to his drawer and took out the cardboard box.
'You mustn't tell anyone,' he said, putting the box on the bed.
She pushed his hand away and took off the lid. She had the gun now. It was odd, but it looked right in her hands. It looked as right in her hands as a scalpel looks right in the hands of a surgeon. She sat up and examined the gun. Her face was expressionless, but there was an intent concentration in her eyes that worried him.
'Is it loaded?' she asked, at last.
'Oh no,' George said. 'Now let me put it away. I don't know why you should be interested in it.'
'Show me how to load it,' she urged. 'Where are the cartridges?'
Without waiting for him to show her, she slid off the bed, went to the drawer and found the little wooden box.
'No,' he said, surprised at his own firmness. 'You leave those alone. Put them back.'
She was looking at the shiny brass cylinders.
'Why?'
'I don't want any accidents. Please put them back.'
She shrugged impatiently; but she put the box back and sat on the bed again. She picked up the Luger and pressed the trigger.
'Why doesn't it work?' she asked, frowning.
'It's stiff,' George said. 'You have to pull very hard.'
She tried again, but she still couldn't pull hack the trigger. 'Here, I'll show you,' George said, taking the gun from her. 'Like this.'
He exerted his great strength, and the hammer snapped down.
'It wants adjusting really, only I haven't bothered. I'll never use it here. At one time it had a hair-trigger, it would fire at the slightest touch; but it's a little out of order now.'
'How do you adjust it?' she asked, taking the gun from him and curling her slim finger round the trigger. By holding the gun in both hands and pressing very hard, she managed to raise the hammer an inch or so. 'Phew; it is stiff! How do you adjust it?'
George sat on the bed by her side and explained the trigger mechanism to her.
'It's simple; only I prefer to keep the trigger stiff, just in case of accidents.'
'You're scared of accidents, aren't you?' There was a mocking note in her voice. 'Even when the gun isn't loaded, you're scared.'
'It's better to be safe than sorry,' he returned, and took the Luger from her. His hand touched hers, and for one brief moment he felt a flame shoot through him: a burning desire to take her in his arms.
He got up at once and put the gun away.
'Now perhaps you believe me,' he said, with an embarrassed laugh.
'I believe you,' she returned, stretching out on the bed. 'Give me an apple, will you?'
He gave her an apple, and took the other himself. He went back to the window, feeling that it was too disturbing to be so close to her.
'I say!' he said, looking into the street. 'It's beginning to rain.'
'Oh, hell!' She raised her head. 'Hard?'
'I'm afraid so.' He leaned out of the window, feeling the rain on his face. 'It looks as if it's set in for the night. I can lend you my mack, of course, but I'm afraid you'll get wet.'
