“You’ve got to listen to me,” he said. “I love your wife. I can’t live without her. I’ve tried and I can’t. I’ve even thought of going away?of moving to the West Coast?but I know that it wouldn’t make any difference. I want to marry her. I’m not romantic. I’m matter-of-fact. I’m very matter-of-fact. I know that you have two children and that you don’t have much money. I know that there are problems of custody and property and things like that to be settled. I’m not romantic. I’m hardheaded. I’ve talked this all over with Mrs. Trencher, and she’s agreed to give me a divorce. I’m not underhanded. Your wife can tell you that. I realize all the practical aspects that have to be considered?custody, property, and so forth. I have plenty of money. I can give Ethel everything she needs, but there are the children. You’ll have to decide about them between yourselves. I have a check here. It’s made out to Ethel. I want her to take it and go to Nevada. I’m a practical man and I realize that nothing can be decided until she gets her divorce.”
“Get out of here!” I said. “Get the hell out of here!”
He started for the door. There was a potted geranium on the mantelpiece, and I threw this across the room at him. It got him in the small of the back and nearly knocked him down. The pot broke on the floor. Ethel screamed. Trencher was still on his way out. Following him, I picked up a candlestick and aimed it at his head, but it missed and bounced off the wall. “Get the hell out of here!” I yelled, and he slammed the door. I went back into the living room. Ethel was pale but she wasn’t crying. There was a loud rapping on the radiator, a signal from the people upstairs for decorum and silence?urgent and expressive, like the communications that prisoners send to one another through the plumbing in a penitentiary. Then everything was still.
We went to bed, and I woke sometime during the night. I couldn’t see the clock on the dresser, so I don’t know what time it was. There was no sound from the children’s room. The neighborhood was perfectly still. There were no lighted windows anywhere. Then I knew that Ethel had wakened me. She was lying on her side of the bed. She was crying.
“Why are you crying?” I asked.
“Why am I crying?” she said. “Why am I crying?” And to hear my voice and to speak set her off again, and she began to sob cruelly. She sat up and slipped her arms into the sleeves of a wrapper and felt along the table for a package of cigarettes. I saw her wet face when she lighted a cigarette. I heard her moving around in the dark.
“Why do you cry?”
“Why do I cry? Why do I cry?” she asked impatiently. “I cry because I saw an old woman cuffing a little boy on Third Avenue. She was drunk. I can’t get it out of my mind.” She pulled the quilt off the foot of our bed and wandered with it toward the door. “I cry because my father died when I was twelve and because my mother married a man I detested or thought that I detested. I cry because I had to wear an ugly dress?a hand-me-down dress?to a party twenty years ago, and I didn’t have a good time. I cry because of some unkindness that I can’t remember. I cry because I’m tired?because I’m tired and I can’t sleep.” I heard her arrange herself on the sofa and then everything was quiet.
I LIKE TO THINK that the Trenchers have gone away, but I still see Trencher now and then on a cross-town bus when I’m late going to work. I’ve also seen his wife, going into the neighborhood lending library with Fraulein. She looks old. I’m not good at judging ages, but I wouldn’t be surprised to find that Mrs. Trencher is fifteen years older than her husband. Now when I come home in the evenings, Ethel is still sitting on the stool by the sink cleaning vegetables. I go with her into the children’s room. The light there is bright. The children have built something out of an orange crate, something preposterous and ascendant, and their sweetness, their compulsion to build, the brightness of the light are reflected perfectly and increased in Ethel’s face. Then she feeds them, bathes them, and sets the table, and stands for a moment in the middle of the room, trying to make some connection between the evening and the day. Then it is over. She lights the four candles, and we sit down to our supper. THE CHASTE CLARISSA
The evening boat for Vineyard Haven was loading freight. In a little while, the warning whistle would separate the sheep from the goats?that’s the way Baxter thought of it?the islanders from the tourists wandering through the streets of Woods Hole. His car, like all the others ticketed for the ferry, was parked near the wharf. He sat on the front bumper, smoking. The noise and movement of the small port seemed to signify that the spring had ended and that the shores of West Chop, across the Sound, were the shores of summer, but the implications of the hour and the voyage made no impression on Baxter at all. The delay bored and irritated him. When someone called his name, he got to his feet with relief.
It was old Mrs. Ryan. She called to him from a dusty station wagon, and he went over to speak to her. “I knew it,” she said. “I knew that I’d see someone here from Holly Cove. I had that feeling in my bones. We’ve been traveling since nine this morning. We had trouble with the brakes outside Worcester. Now I’m wondering if Mrs. Talbot will have cleaned the house. She wanted seventy-five dollars for opening it last summer and I told her I wouldn’t pay her that again, and I wouldn’t be surprised if she’s thrown all my letters away. Oh, I hate to have a journey end in a dirty house, but if worse comes to worst, we can clean it ourselves. Can’t we, Clarissa?” she asked, turning to a young woman who sat beside her on the front seat. “Oh, excuse me, Baxter!” she exclaimed. “You haven’t met Clarissa, have you? This is Bob’s wife, Clarissa Ryan.”
Baxter’s first thought was that a girl like that shouldn’t have to ride in a dusty station wagon; she should have done much better. She was young. He guessed that she was about twenty-five. Redheaded, deep- breasted, slender, and indolent, she seemed to belong to a different species from old Mrs. Ryan and her large- boned, forthright daughters. “‘The Cape God girls, they have no combs. They comb their hair with codfish bones,’” he said to himself but Clarissa’s hair was well groomed. Her bare arms were perfectly white. Woods Hole and the activity on the wharf seemed to bore her and she was not interested in Mrs. Ryan’s insular gossip. She lighted a cigarette.
At a pause in the old lady’s monologue, Baxter spoke to her daughter-in-law. “When is Bob coming down, Mrs. Ryan?” he asked.
