Bleeding Out

''Nother round?'

'I gotta get going,' Noah said to her chest. Bobby echoed, 'Me, too.'

Frank inclined her head toward Ike and Johnnie. 'How about another round for the drunks at the end of the table.'

After paying the tab, Frank walked out with Bobby and Noah. The air felt cool and fresh. She said good night to her detectives, offering to drive Noah home. He wasn't much of a drinker but he kept up with everyone on Fridays.

'I'm fine,' he said.

'Alright. Say hi to Tracey for me, and the kids.'

'Tracey misses you. Says she never sees you any more.'

The grimace that passed for Frank's smile quickly twisted her face.

'Tell her I miss her too.'

'You going back to the office?'

Frank leaned against her open door, considering. The beer felt good inside her. She was ready to call it a week.

'Nope. I think I'll go home.'

'Good girl. You've put in your obligatory twenty, thirty hours of OT. Get some rest.'

'Yessir.'

'Goddamnit, I love it when you get all military on me.'

'I'm going to get military on your ass if you don't get out of here.'

'See? Look! Goosebumps,' Noah said pointing to his wrist.

Frank wagged her head as Noah folded his lanky frame into his old car. They pulled out of the lot and already she missed his camaraderie, feeling the loneliness of the weekend seeping in like the chill around the window frames. As she approached the freeway, Frank thought about going back to the office, but that would only be putting off the inevitable. Instead she cruised slowly home, resigning herself to the company of the radio and the cheery glow of brake lights and turn signals.

She stopped at the grocery store, buying a pork loin and a good Pinot Noir, then picked up a bouquet of flowers from the hippie girl on the corner.

'Hi-i,' the girl drew out the greeting with a big, dopey smile.

'Hey,' Frank said. 'How's it going?'

'It's so-o slow tonight,' the girl said uncomplainingly. 'You're only my fourth customer. I was gonna close up but I knew you'd be here.'

'Well, now you can go home, get warm.'

'Yeah,' the girl giggled, handing Frank her change. 'See you next week.'

Frank rolled away, marveling at the wonder of good drugs. The girl was either always high, or she was an old stoner and had smoked so much for so long she'd become permanently goofy. But rain or shine, dark or day, the girl was on her corner peddling her flowers. It occurred to Frank she didn't even know her name.

Frank pulled into the dark driveway and the sensor light came on. Inside, a lamp was already lit. Frank didn't notice it anymore unless the bulb blew. In the beginning her heart had lifted when she'd seen the warm light coming from the window, until she realized it was just the damn timer and there was really no one home waiting for her.

Frank poured a glass of the Pinot, then studded the roast with garlic gloves. She pinched some rosemary from a bush in the backyard and sprinkled it over the meat, along with a generous dusting of salt and pepper. Quartered potatoes got tossed in a bowl with lemon juice, olive oil, and bay leaves, then snuggled around the roast to cook in its drippings.

Sliding the baking dish into the oven, Frank turned her attention to trimming the flowers, carefully standing them in the same vase she always used. The glass one Mag had always insisted on. She wiped up the kitchen, put the flowers on the big glass table, then realized there was nothing else to do. She changed out of her work clothes and into shorts. The gym distracted her until her watch beeped that the roast was ready. C-SPAN and the newspaper were her dinner companions at the coffee table in the living room. Later, while she did the dishes and finished the wine, she was buzzed enough to hum along softly with Ella Fitzgerald.

A typical Friday night followed by a typical weekend. Barring a call-out, Saturday morning she'd sleep late— dawn being late for Frank—then work out for a couple of hours. Then she'd return to the office, dropping her dry cleaning off on the way. She'd catch up on paperwork until evening, then stop at the Alibi for a while. It was usually slow on the weekends, but she'd stay for a pint or two and let Nancy flirt with her. Then it was back home to the news, law enforcement journals, and more beer.

Sundays started the same, only she'd go to the Alibi before the office to watch whatever games were on. Johnnie was always there, and Gough and Ike showed up fairly regularly. Nookey and Diego usually made it to the afternoon game, and sometimes Bobby would stop in. By Sunday evening, Frank would be feeling good that it was all downhill to Monday. There was safety in this numbing ritual and Frank didn't deviate from it. Nor could she possibly know it was all about to change.

He showed the boy his first Playboy when he was eight. The boy had been nervous, not sure how his father wanted him to react. His father had called him into the office. Patting the ripped loveseat, he made the boy sit next to him. His father opened the magazine on his lap, pointing at women's parts and calling them names the boy had never heard before, not even in science class. The boy had been too nervous and too young to be excited by the pictures. His father touched him, trying to encourage the anticipated response. When it wasn't forthcoming he became agitated, angry. Called the boy a homo.

He knew what a homo was. A couple of the boys at school called him that. The father continued berating his son as he unzipped his fly, proving what happened to men when they saw naked women. The boy only shrank up tighter. The father's tone was too familiar, and when he asked, 'Are you my bitch?' he lost the shred of hope he'd harbored, sinking instead to his knees, bending over like a dog. While he waited helplessly for it to end, he dreamed how someday he'd be a man and he'd be the one in back, grunting and pumping instead of crying on all fours.

6

'You know I hate these goddamned machines,' Frank said to Noah, indicating the lone computer sitting on a rickety table. The squad had gotten its first computer six months ago, but it still wasn't connected to the other seventeen divisions within the LAPD. Figueroa detectives either had to bribe someone at Parker Center to check information for them or get in their cars and drive downtown to do it themselves.

'What takes you twenty minutes takes me twenty hours. I need you go to Parker and run Kenneth Hahn through the database. Pull up whatever arrests and major incidents happened there over the last six months.'

'Shit, by the time I do that I could teach you how to do it.'

Frank peered mystified at the keyboard and muttered, 'It's good to be king.'

Noah told her as he walked out of the squad room that seeing as they were about to enter the twenty-first century, she might want to try and get a handle on the twentieth.

Later that day he tossed the report on Frank's desk.

'How'd you get that already?'

'Called in a favor. Hey, I got the subpoena signed to pick up Luther Jackson. Johnnie and I are gonna go serve him. Then I'm gonna try and get to the last half of Leslie's game.'

'Who's she playing?'

'St. Joseph's. Wanna come? They're really good.'

Frank was already reading the list.

'Next time. Thanks for getting this.'

'Sure. See ya tomorrow.'

Noah paused at the doorway. Frank was engrossed in the printout as he said, 'You know, the nine-three would crumble if you ever got a life, Frank.'

She grunted without looking at him. He reminded her, uselessly, not to work too late. Fishing around in the top drawer, she pulled out a green highlighter and started marking all the rapes on the list. Agoura's perp had been into rape. He might have started with them and worked his way up to homicide. Tomorrow she would go to headquarters and review the rape cases one by one, in more detail. There might be a pattern among them that