“I could have,” Claude Marais agreed. “But I didn’t.”
I sat with Marx in his office. “What do you think?”
“Robbery,” Marx said, “what else? Pawn shop. A prime target for small-timers, junkies, street kids.”
“Three hundred in cash left? The safe not touched?”
“Panic. Points even more to junkies or kids.”
“Maybe,” I said. “What was actually taken?”
“We’re still checking. Marais kept lousy records. Jimmy Sung and the wife, Viviane, are helping us check.”
“Does the wife have an alibi?”
Marx sighed. “She was home all night-alone.”
“So no one has an alibi. Jimmy Sung was curled up alone with his bottle. When I tailed the brother to the shop, he had to knock. The door was locked. I checked all doors and windows. No marks of entry, and most windows barred. Either the killer had a key, or Eugene Marais let him in. Which makes it an inside job. But then more should have been taken. With Eugene Marais dead, the killer had plenty of time.”
“Except that he panicked when he saw Marais was dead.”
“If he panicked, he wouldn’t have stopped to search.”
“Unless he hit Marais, started his search, decided to tie Marais up halfway, found him dead, and then ran.”
Marx had a good point. I could see some thief hit Eugene Marais, start to ransack the shop, maybe hear a groan or just realize Marais might come awake, go back to tie the owner up, find him dead, and panic. That would explain the half search.
“I still don’t like the entry,” I said.
“All right, so maybe Marais left the door open by mistake later,” Marx said. “It’s too sloppy for an inside job. I figure an open door, a small-time thief. We’ll find the loot, talk to our stoolies, and we’ll have our killer.”
“Maybe you will,” I said, and I stood up. “Can I go to the shop and get my ring out of hock?”
“No, not until we inventory and release the stock.”
4
I went to my one-window office and tried to call Marty again. No luck, so I spent the afternoon alone in the office, sweating and paying some bills, and hoping the telephone would and wouldn’t ring. I wanted Marty to call me, but if the phone rang it might be Li Marais asking for some of her money back.
The phone did ring-twice. It wasn’t Marty, or Li Marais, either time. The first call was a woman who wanted her fifteen-year-old daughter tailed, the second was a man who suspected his wife’s nephew of stealing from his store. I turned down both jobs. I didn’t like them, and I had five hundred dollars.
It was after 7:00 P. M when I finally found Marty at home. She told me to come over.
As I walked downtown in the hot evening, I suddenly felt like a boy really wanting a woman for the first time, nervous and afraid she wouldn’t want him. Uncertain and shy, like a stranger to Marty, an unseen wall up between us.
The wall was there in her eyes as she opened her door and walked ahead of me into her living room. She repairs and refinishes all her own furniture. Antiques and junk, whatever meets her fancy. She works hard on it, a small woman in jeans and a stained man’s shirt. Now she was a different woman-somehow taller, reserved in a slim green pants suit that had cost her three hundred dollars. She usually wore it only for business, for the theater. Not for me.
“I got the money,” I said.
“That’s fine,” she said, sat on the long old couch I’d known for so many years now.
“I hocked the ring, but I got a job, too,” I said. I didn’t sit with her on the couch. I took a chair. “So I can get the ring back, okay? Where’ll we go? Fair Harbor?”
“It’s the best,” Marty said.
“I’d have the ring back now, but the police are holding it. Eugene Marais was murdered in his store last night.”
“No, Dan! Marais?” Her eyes widened, and narrowed with a kind of pain. “Who? Why? He was such a… kind man. My God, half the people we know hung on because Marais paid too much, bought what he couldn’t really sell.”
“A thief, it looks like. You know how pawn shops get hit.”
“That’s horrible.” She was silent. “He asked so little for himself. Chance, Dan? Just stupid, blind chance?”
“I suppose so,” I said. “It’s all chance, Marty, all just accident. The good and the bad.”
Her face went hard. “No, I can’t believe that. A person has to make life happen, act to have what he wants. Good or bad, you have to have the life you decide you want.”
“Meaning?” I said.
She didn’t answer. She found a cigarette, lit it, her small face closed. Not a beautiful face, but pretty enough, and very alive.
I said, “I’m not sure Marais’s murder was an accident. A lot’s wrong. Call it a feeling, a theory. My hound nose.”
“Theory?” she said. “Are you going to investigate?”
“No one’s asked me.”
“When did that stop you, Dan?” Marty said. “The observer, the detached theorizer. Curiosity and the hunt. The interesting puzzle. So neutral, Dan?”
I said, “What’s wrong, Marty?”
She smoked in the hot living room. I waited, and out in the streets of the city twilight was turning to darkness. That sudden surge and fading of noise that comes in the city just at twilight.
“I’m not sure, Dan,” she said.
“When will you be sure?”
She was silent again. “Dan? Don’t plan Fire Island just yet. I’m not sure I want to do it that way. May be I want to be alone for a while.”
“All right. Take my money. I’ll get the ring when-”
“No, give me the pawn money,” she said. “I have to think. I want to think, Dan. I can’t live and die like Eugene Marais. What did he have? What did he do? Nothing.”
“He had peace. Acceptance of what he was, and what the world is. And maybe his death wasn’t blind chance.”
“That’s not enough for me. Not for any woman.”
“Maybe not,” I said.
I gave her the five hundred for the ring. She sat silent. I didn’t want to leave then, but I left. A man is what he is.
I wanted to stay with Marty, show her that she was mine, make her want to be mine. I wanted to do that, but I never would. That doesn’t make me much of a man, I know, but it makes me what I am. She had to shape her own life. All I could do was hope she would, in the end, want me. You owe every human being understanding, respect for their needs and wants. But that doesn’t mean that you will like the results. To accept, understand, another person’s needs, doesn’t change one iota of what you need yourself.
I wanted to stay, but I left. Not much man. Not very strong. But a human being. At least, I like to think that’s what I am. Sometimes I wonder even about that. The observer, even of myself.
So busy observing myself as I cut through the alley behind my five cheap rooms, that I never saw them until they had me trapped cold in the alley.
Four shadows. Two at each end of the dark alley.
Silent, they stood there.
Four quick, alert shapes that appeared to block my way front and rear. Coming up from nowhere, silhouetted
