positioned at forty-five-degree angles from the torso. An I.V. line ran into the left arm. Another I.V. line ran into the right side of her neck. Heightening the somber effect, a small spotlight directed its concentrated beam down from the ceiling above the patient, splashing over the head and upper body. The rest of the corner was lost in shadow.
There was no motion, no sign of life save for the rhythmical hiss of the breathing machine. A plastic line curled down from under the patient and was connected to a calibrated urine container.
“We also have to have an accurate daily weight,” continued Bellows.
But for Susan his voice drifted in and out of her awareness. “A twenty-three-year-old woman ...” The thought reverberated in Susan’s mind.
Without the aid of an extensive clinical experience, Susan was instantly lost in the human element. The age and sex similarity struck too close to home for her to avoid the identification. In a naive way she associated such serious medicine with old people who had had their fling at life.
“How long has she been unresponsive,” asked Susan absently, without taking her eyes from the patient in the corner, without even blinking.
Bellows, interrupted by this non sequitur, turned his head up to glance at Susan. He was insensitive to Susan’s state of mind. “Eight days,” said Bellows, slightly vexed at the interruption of his harangue about fluid balance. “But that has little to do with today’s sodium level, Miss Wheeler. Could you kindly keep your mind on the subject at hand.”
Bellows shifted his attention to the others. “I’m going to be expecting you people to start writing routine fluid orders by the end of the week.
Now where the hell was I?” Bellows returned to his input-output calculations, and everyone except Susan leaned over to catch the expanding figures.
Susan continued to stare at the motionless individual in the corner, racing through a mental checklist of her friends who had had D&Cs, wondering what really divided herself or her friends from the plight of Nancy Greenly. Several minutes passed as she bit her lower lip, as was her custom when in deep thought.
“How’d it happen?” asked Susan, again unexpectedly.
Bellows’s head popped up for the second time, but more rapidly, as if he expected some imminent catastrophe. “How’d what happen?” he countered, scanning the room for some telltale activity.
“How’d the patient become comatose?”
Bellows sat up straight, closed his eyes and put his pencil down. As if counting to ten, he passed before speaking.
“Miss Wheeler, you’ve got to try to give me a hand,” said Bellows slowly and condescendingly. “You’ve got to stay with us. As for the patient, it was just one of those inexplicable twists of the fickle finger of fate.
OK? Perfect health ... routine D&C ... anesthesia and induction without a ripple. She just never woke up. Some sort of cerebral hypoxia. The squash didn’t get the oxygen it needed. OK? Now let’s get back to work.
We’ll be here all day getting these orders written and we’ve got Grand Rounds at noon.”
“Does that kind of complication occur often?” persisted Susan.
“No,” said Bellows, “rare as hell, maybe one in a hundred thousand.”
“One hundred percent for her, though,” added Susan with an edge on the tips of her words.
Bellows looked up at Susan without any idea of what she was driving at.
The human element in Nancy Greenly’s case had ceased to be a part of his concern. Bellows was intent on keeping the ions at the right level, keeping the urine output up, and keeping the bacteria at bay. He did not want Nancy Greenly to die while she was on his service because if she did, it would reflect on the kind of care he was capable of providing, and Stark would have some choice comments for him. He remembered all too well what Stark had said to Johnston after a similar case had resulted in death while Johnston was on the service.
It wasn’t that Bellows didn’t care about the human element, it was just that he didn’t have time for it. Besides the sheer number of cases he had been and was involved with provided a, cushion or a numbness associated with anything done repeatedly. Bellows did not make the association between Susan’s and Nancy Greenly’s ages, nor did he remember the emotional susceptibility associated with an individual’s initial clinical experiences in the hospital environment.
“Now for the hundredth time, let’s get back to work,” said Bellows, pulling his chair in closer to the desk and running his hand nervously through his hair. “He looked at his watch before going back to his calculations. “OK, if we use 1/4 normal saline, let’s see how many milliequivalents well get in 2500 cc.”
Susan was totally detached from the conversation, almost in a fugue.
Following some inner curiosity, she moved around the desk and approached Nancy Greenly. She moved slowly, warily, as if she were approaching something dangerous, and absorbing all the details of the scene as they came available. Nancy Greenly’s eyes were only half closed and the lower edges of her blue irises were visible. Her face was a marble white, which contrasted sharply with the sable brown of her hair.
Her lips were dried and cracked, her mourn held open with a plastic mouthpiece so she wouldn’t bite the endo-tracheal tube. Brownish material had crusted and hardened on her front teeth; it was old blood.
Feeling slightly giddy, Susan looked away for a moment and then back.
The harshness of the image of the previously normal young woman made her tremble with undirected emotion. It wasn’t sadness per se. It was another kind of inner pain, a sense of mortality, a sense of the meaningless of life which could be so easily disrupted, a sense of hopelessness, and a sense of helplessness. All these thoughts cascaded into the center of Susan’s mind, bringing unaccustomed moisture to the palms of her hands.
As if reaching for a delicate piece of porcelain, Susan lifted one of Nancy Greenly’s hands. It was surprisingly cold and totally limp. Was she alive or dead? The thought crossed Susan’s mind. But there directly above was the cardiac monitor with its reassuring electronic blip tracing excitedly its pattern.
“I shall assume you are a whiz at fluid balance, Miss Wheeler,” said Bellows at Susan’s side. His voice broke the semitrance Susan had assumed and she replaced carefully Nancy Greenly’s hand. To Susan’s surprise the whole group had moved over to the bedside.
“This, everybody, is the CVP line, the central venous pressure,” said Bellows holding up the plastic tube whose tip snaked into Nancy Greenly’s neck. “We just keep that open for now. The I.V. goes in the other side, and that’s where we’ll hang our 1/4 normal saline with the 25
milliequivalents of potassium to run at 125 cc per hour.”
“Now then,” continued Bellows after a slight pause, obviously thinking while looking vacantly at Nancy Greenly, “Cartwright, be sure to order electrolytes on her urine today but leave the standing order for daily serum electrolytes. Oh yeah, include magnesium levels too, OK.”
Cartwright was madly writing these orders down on the index card he had for Nancy Greenly. Bellows took his reflex hammer and absently tried for deep tendon reflexes on Nancy Greenly’s legs. There were none.
“Why didn’t you do a tracheostomy?” asked Fairweather.
Bellows looked up at Fairweather and paused. “That’s a very good question, Mr. Fairweather.” Bellows turned to Cartwright, “Why didn’t we do a tracheostomy, Daniel?”
Cartwright looked from the patient to Bellows, then back to the patient He became visibly flustered and consulted his index card despite the fact that he knew the information was not there.
Bellows looked back at Fairweather. “That’s a very good question, Mr.
Fairweather. And if I remember correctly I did tell Dr. Cartwright to get the ENT boys over here to do a trach. Isn’t that right, Dr.
Cartwright?”
“Yeah, that’s right,” enjoined Cartwright “I put in the call but they never called back.”
“And you never followed up on it,” added Bellows with uncamouflaged irritation.
“No, I got involved ...,” began Cartwright.
“Cut the bullshit, Dr. Cartwright,” interrupted Bellows. “Just get the ENT boys up here stat. It doesn’t look like this one is going to come to, and for long-term respiratory care we need a trach. You see, Mr.
Fairweather, the cuffed endo-tracheal tube will eventually cause necrosis of the walls of the trachea. It is a
