indicating the alley behind him. 'See? I know poetry, too.'
Poetry? 'The Spider and the Fly'? If the situation hadn't been so dangerous, the Goober might have laughed. Instead, he urged: 'Let's go, Jerry. . '
Jerry shook his head. 'I'm not going anywhere.'
'Hit the road, kid,' Janza said to the Goober. 'I got no gripe with you. Your buddy here. He's the one—'
'I'm not leaving,' the Goober said, hoping the quaver in his voice wasn't discernible.
Janza stepped forward threateningly. 'Yes you are.'
'Go ahead, Goob,' Jerry said. 'Wait around the corner.'
The Goober stood his ground, stubbornly, shaking his head.
Emile Janza's foot shot out, caught Goober in the groin, the pain excruciating as it spread through his lower body, nausea developing in his stomach. He felt himself capsizing, legs buckling.
As Jerry turned to help his friend in distress, Janza struck him from his blind side, a blow to the cheek that touched off an explosion of lights in Jerry's eyes. He raised his hands to his face and knew immediately that he had made a mistake. Two mistakes. The first mistake was not expecting Janza to strike without warning. The second mistake was to leave his stomach unguarded. The blow to the stomach was soft. Janza's fist sank into Jerry's flesh almost tenderly, but an extra thrust made Jerry cave almost in two. He heard the Goober retching beside him where he was kneeling on the ground.
Janza stepped back, smiling, fists up and ready. 'Come on, Renault,' he said, retreating, beckoning Jerry into the alley. 'Your friend's not interested anymore, is he?'
And Jerry saw now what he must do. Cheek still dancing with pain, his intestines twisted sickeningly inside him, he stalked toward Janza, determined now, not unsure or uncertain anymore. Arms at his sides, looking defenseless but knowing where his strength
Two or three lights flashed on in windows facing the alley, spraying the narrow passage with light. A window went up. Jerry had a sense now of spectators, people watching the scene, elbows on sills. Nobody said anything. Nobody cheered or booed.
'Put 'em up, Renault,' Janza said, his own fists ready at chest level.
Jerry shook his head.
'I don't put them up.' Voice steady.
'You afraid to fight?'
'You're the one who fights, Janza.' Taking a breath. 'Not me.'
'Okay,' Janza said. 'It's your funeral, buddy.'
Jerry braced himself, remembering last fall, when Janza had struck him in the boxing ring, but both of them then at the mercy of Archie Costello, puppets playing roles Archie had created. This time, however, Jerry was on his own two feet, by choice.
Janza hit him twice in succession, both blows to the face, first his jaw, then his right cheek. Jerry's head swiveled instinctively with the blows, which took some of the sting out of Janza's fists.
Janza paused, setting his feet again, squinting, taking aim. He faked a blow to Jerry's face, hit him instead in the stomach, but his fist did not land with full force. Grunting in disgust at his lack of efficiency, he lashed out at Jerry's face and body, a series of one-two blows. Jerry stood his ground. Tasted blood in his mouth, knew one eye had closed, absorbed the pain but found it bearable. And surprised by the fact that he was not only on his feet but steady, having taken a pace or two backward but solidly planted there.
Janza's breathing tore at the silence of the alley. He looked up, taking a deep breath, saw the scattered faces at the windows, bellowed: 'What are you looking at?' And lashed out again, but not looking at Jerry as his fists flew. A glancing blow, Jerry's right cheek absorbing it. Jerry was surprised to find how strong, impregnable really, cheeks were. Hard bones, not much flesh. But one of his teeth had been jarred loose, and the taste of blood was stronger in his mouth now.
'What's the matter with you, Renault?' Janza asked, arm cocked, fist ready. But pausing, his breath ragged. 'Why don't you fight?'
Jerry shook his head, beckoned with his hands, the gesture saying,
Janza hit him again. A furious telling blow that sent Jerry back three paces, his knees turning liquid, sending a sheet of flame up the right side of his head, snapping his neck. He fell against the brick building but pulled himself away from it. Another blow followed before Jerry could recover and establish himself solidly on his feet again. This one to the chest. Then another that almost missed his jaw but scraped his ear, tearing his earlobe a bit.
Wobbly, weaving, Jerry remained on his feet, his body arranging itself somehow to meet the blows and absorb them.
'Hit back, will ya?' Janza said, pausing again, breath still ragged. Was the great Emile Janza out of shape? Running out of steam? Had he used up his best blows?
'I am hitting back,' Jerry said.
'You crazy?' Janza yelled, outrage in his voice. Or frustration, maybe. 'This is for the birds—'
'Come on, Janza,' Jerry said, lips swollen, that loose tooth beginning to throb, voice bubbling with either saliva or blood. He swallowed both, not wanting to spit, not wanting Janza to see his blood.
'You're nuts, know that?' Janza cried, arms at his sides. 'You're crazy. . '
Jerry smiled at him. He knew it must be a grotesque and pathetic smile. But a smile all the same.
'Tell you what I'm going to do, Renault,' Janza said, calmer now, having caught his breath, rubbing his fists together, massaging his knuckles. 'I'm letting you go. For now. You've had enough. I've had enough. But every time I see you — I don't care where it is — I'm gonna beat you up. So keep your ass away from me. . '
A solitary person clapped his hands at one of the windows, a hollow pathetic sound in the alley.
Janza walked toward the building to his right, leaning against it, sucking his knuckles, studying Jerry. He felt drained, something missing, not feeling horny, nothing sexual in his combat with Renault. Like he had lost something. But what? And he hated that smile on Renault's face. Hated what that smile said. What did it say? He didn't want to think about it. Christ, his knuckles hurt. He wanted to get out of here.
'Remember what I said, Renault,' Janza threatened, pushing past Jerry, and then over his shoulder: 'Keep out of my way. . '
Renault watched him go. He looked around for the Goober. He had forgotten about Goob. He stumbled to the corner, saw Goober leaning against the mailbox. Still clutching his groin.
'Jesus, Jerry,' he said. 'I'm sorry. I should have—'
'Forget it,' Jerry said.
'You look terrible. I let you down again. The thing I'm best at.'
'No,' Jerry said, placing his hand on the Goober's mouth. 'It's something I had to do. And I had to do it without you.'
They turned and watched Janza's retreating figure, still swaggering as he walked, arms swinging, shoulders moving as if to some unheard bully's music.
'Know what, Goober?'
'What?'
'I'm not going back to Canada next fall.'
'You're not?' Feeling miserable, never felt so lousy in his life, worse than last year during the chocolate sale.
'I'm not going to Monument High, either.'
'Where are you going, then?' Goober asked, automatically responding. Am I doomed to let Jerry Renault down forever?
'I'm going back to Trinity.'
Jerry's words struck Goober like blows.
'That's crazy, Jerry. Why do you want to do something like that?'
'I don't know. It's hard to explain.' He limped painfully as they walked, had somehow wrenched his knee during the fight without realizing it. His knee felt swollen, twice its size, but he refused to look down. He needed to concentrate on what he must tell Goober. 'Just now, Janza was beating me up. But he wasn't winning. I mean, you can get beat up and still not lose. You can look like a loser but don't have to be one.' Saw Goober's puzzled
