Never Trust A Lady

skipped the phones and went straight to the living room. So far, two per room seemed to be the limit; he could only hope he’d found them all.

Back in Jane’s bedroom, a door opened. Another closed. Jeez, thought Hawk, grinding his teeth, take your time, dammit! For a woman, she sure was fast. Probably what came from having two daughters and apparently only one bathroom in the house.

He was standing in the middle of the living room, shaking and jingling a handful of small metal objects-about the size of watch batteries-when he heard her bedroom door open.

Damn! he thought. What in the hell was he going to do with the blasted things? He couldn’t very well carry them around in his pocket.

There was pretty much only one thing he could do. Casting one quick look over his shoulder, he opened the French doors, stepped onto the deck and hurled the handful of expensive, state-of-the-art listening devices as far as he could into the woods that bordered the lawn. He broke into a smile when he saw one hit a branch of the oak tree nearest the deck and fall into the bird feeder. Let them try to figure that one out, he thought, envisioning with a great deal of enjoyment the faces of the FBI techs monitoring the mikes when they heard nothing but twitterings and chirpings and random pecking sounds.

“I told you, you don’t have to do that outside,” Jane said from behind him.

He turned to find her standing in the softly lit living room, one hand on the frame of the open door, and almost groaned aloud. She was wearing cream-colored leggings and a long-sleeved knit tunic in a dusty rose shade of pink. And he’d been right about the way she looked in it.

“I actually have ashtrays for my guests, believe it or not.” The shower seemed to have restored her natural serenity. She was smiling slightly, her head tilted a little to one side, and her hair was brushed back from her face and damp from the shower. He didn’t think she’d washed it; she sure as hell hadn’t had time to blow it dry. Her face had the scrubbed-fresh, no-makeup look that always seemed to make her appear so vulnerable, as if she lacked a certain critical layer of protection. The elusive and indefinable scent he associated with her drifted to him on the cold night air.

Nice, he thought, and felt his heart quiver inside him.

“Come inside,” she said gently. “It’s getting cold out.”

Once more he followed her into the house. “I’m going to warm up some soup,” she said as he was closing the door behind him. “Want some?”

“Sure,” he said after a moment’s hesitation, following her into the kitchen. “What’ve you got?”

She’d opened a cupboard and was scanning its contents. “Uh, looks like clam chowder, minestrone and chicken noodle. Oh, and here’s a can of lentil.” Her nose wrinkled; obviously she wasn’t fond of lentil.

“Minestrone’s fine,” he told her. “Unless you’d rather-”

“No, no, minestrone’s good. I’m not a gourmet cook,” she warned him as she deftly opened cans. “As you can tell.”

“Oh. Well, then, forget it,” he said, straight-faced. And got a quick, startled look before she laughed.

He watched her while she worked, only half listening to the tale of her day’s travels, the promised “long story” about why it had taken her so long to get home from Greenville. He was thinking about how he was going to do what he’d come to do. What he had to do. Wondering just how he was going to manage to get his hands on something he could be absolutely certain had her fingerprints on it and no one else’s.

It was when she opened the dishwasher and began taking cups and bowls out in preparation for setting the table that he knew he had his answer.

“Here, let me do that,” he said, stepping quickly forward as she turned with her hands full of dishes, catching her by surprise.

“Oh-no,” she automatically began. “You don’t…” But she had no stock protest ready, and could only juggle the dishes clumsily as he took them from her.

She uttered a soft gasp when he let one-a soup bowl-slip through his fingers.

He spat out his standard, all-purpose cussword under his breath as it shattered, then mumbled, “Ah, jeez-I’m sorry…” He deposited the rest of the dishes haphazardly on the table and dropped to one knee beside the scattered shards, his handkerchief in his hands.

But she was already there before him, on her knees and pushing his hands away, saying in a breathless, almost panicky voice, “Oh, don’t-please. Here, let me-I don’t want you to cut yourself…”

“Can’t believe I did that. Here-put ‘em in here.” He held his handkerchief like a basket and watched her while she carefully deposited the larger shards in it.

“It’s okay-really. I told you, we’re a casual household.”

“I’ll replace it. Just tell me-”

“Don’t be ridiculous. I don’t think I have a complete set of dishes in the entire house. There, I guess that’s most of it.”

He rose to his feet, cradling the broken china in his hands. “Trash?”

“Under the sink. Here, let me-”

“‘S’okay, I got it.” He kept his back to her as he dumped the shards into the trash, so she couldn’t see him fold two of the largest pieces into his handkerchief and tuck them away in his pocket.

He was smiling lopsidedly as he turned back to her, saying, “Listen, I sure am sorry…” It was only when he saw her swiping blindly at the floor with a paper towel that he realized she was crying.

Like most people in law enforcement, Hawk had long ago become inured to women’s tears. Not only was it a matter of self-preservation; it was also his experience with both sexes that tears usually tended to flow in amounts directly proportional to the degree of guilt of the weeper.

But this woman? Crying?

He couldn’t believe it. This was Jane, the woman who’d confronted an intruder in her hotel room with a Roy Rogers cap pistol and brought an experienced FBI agent to his knees. She’d been knocked out, chased through the streets of the nation’s capital and endured six hours locked in a moving truck without food, water or toilet facilities, had even braved seasickness, all without so much as a sniffle. This he couldn’t understand at all. This he couldn’t tolerate.

“Hey, Carlysle, what is it? What’s wrong?” he growled, awed and fearful, thinking maybe, possibly, even hoping she’d cut herself. Hoping it was something so simple. He squatted in front of her, balancing on the balls of his feet, and gently touched her beneath the chin, trying to get her to look at him. But she turned her face away from him so abruptly he felt the cool splash of her tears on the back of his hand.

She rose, eluding him, and threw the balled-up paper towel into the sink with an angry, jerky motion.

“Why are you here?” she asked suddenly, in a voice like the cry of some small, hurt animal. “What do you want with me?” She’d asked him the very same things once before, he remembered, but with different inflections. It was amazing what a difference those inflections made. This time he felt her words like arrows in his heart.

He hesitated, thinking of the pieces of broken china in his pocket, wondering if there was some way she could have seen him put them there, some way she could know. “What do you mean?” he asked warily as he stood, moving slowly and with great caution, the way he would in the presence of a cornered and unpredictable suspect.

She kept her face averted and didn’t answer. He studied her, the curve of her ear, the side of her neck and the damp hair curling there. He remembered how soft her skin was, and the way she smelled. And he told her the simple truth: “I came because I needed to see you again.”

She laughed. Not a comfortable, gently mocking chuckle, like the last time she’d skewered him so deftly with that particular weapon. This was a high, sharp bark of sheer disbelief, and he thought about the irony of being rejected for telling the God’s-honest truth, when he was accustomed to having his glibbest lies taken as gospel.

“Why is that so hard to believe?” he asked, approaching her cautiously. He put his hands on her shoulders, and his jaw clenched involuntarily when she flinched. He turned her toward him, his hands firm but gentle when she resisted. Still she kept her face lowered, hidden from him, and he understood finally that she was distressed and humiliated by her tears.

Since he couldn’t very well offer her his handkerchief, he reached for the roll of paper towels she’d left on the counter, tore one sheet off and then, instead of handing it to her, began oh so gently to mop her cheeks with it. He