Thicker Than Blood - The Complete Andrew Z. Thomas Trilogy

you were twelve years old. But he didn’t rape you. He was just a homeless drunk. You and Orson, you never even saw him. You only glimpsed the policemen running through your backyard on the Fourth of July, the day they found his body. I have the newspaper article somewhere in the library if you’d like to read it.'

I reached into my shorts, whipped out my dick.

The old man’s eyes widened.

I pointed at the head.

'That scar is from a cigarette. I branded myself after that fucker burned Orson.'

'No, that’s a birthmark. Orson had one, too. It was his idea that the man burned his penis with a cigarette afterward. How imaginative, him including you in all this. You really bought it, didn’t you?'

I pulled my shorts back up, head swimming.

'What interests me most of all,' Rufus continued, 'is that you’re upset your brother wasn’t raped. That you need the comfort of knowing something awful made Orson what he was, you what you are. It’d be the end of the fucking world if someone were evil, purely from their own stock, own volition, and no external influence was to blame. I think that would truly frighten you.'

'If Willard didn’t, then you happened to Orson. I know you made him do terrible things.'

'But I didn’t make him love it.'

Rufus took another bite of the s’more and wiped his mouth. I heard Maxine washing dishes in the kitchen. Vi gazed down at her son.

'About Orson’s journal,' I said. 'You told me Luther never attended Woodside College. That Orson never kidnapped him. Why would Orson make that up?'

'I’m afraid your brother was fantasizing again. He did take Luther to the desert ten years ago, but only because I asked him to. Toward the end, I think he wanted to feel that he was his own man. It injured his pride that he was such a pussycat before I found him. That it took me to show him who he was. But all in all, Andy, considering the journal and Willard Bass, I’d say Orson’s imagination is a helluva lot more vibrant than yours. And you’re supposed to be the writer.'

Rufus stood up and plucked a pipe from the breast pocket of his Hawaiian shirt.

'I have to tell you though, Andy,' he said, glancing over his shoulder at his son at the end of the dock, 'Luther and Orson are ultimately failures. Evil is something to be overcome and redefined. It overcame them. Orson was torn between his love of blood and his self-hate. My boy,' Rufus sighed, 'has only a love of blood. It’s the great sadness of my life. I love the Great Regression for what comes after it. Luther loves it for the warfare, and he would have it go on without end. Do you see what I’m saying?'

I nodded, because surprisingly I did. In that moment, the philosophy of Rufus Kite made perfect, terrifying sense. Not that I sympathized. I just…understood.

Vi said, 'What fucked you up, Rufus?'

He took the pipe out of his mouth and howled with laughter.

'Little lady, I was raised by loving, God-fearing parents. Worst thing ever to happen to me was my cocker spaniel, Rusty, getting mange when I was fourteen. Broke my heart.'

'But what made you into this—'

'Violet, I’m not the product of abuse, molestation, neglect, abandonment, mental disease, pick your excuse. The things I believe and do are the result of a man who has looked unflinchingly at the human heart and rid himself of the lies he’s been told about it.'

'There’s no goodness left in you?'

'God, I hope not. Goodness? I should wish for goodness? Morality is not man’s Godlike quality. The search and acquisition of truth is. You think God’s moral? He’s beyond moral. He created the concept. Made the rules you play by. I reject those rules because I have free will, because I have that kind of vision. I’m starting a new game.'

Baby Max had dozed off. Now he stirred, eyes rolling around in his sockets like shiny ball bearings. Rufus knelt down and grinned at the infant, stroking his ancient crooked finger against the silky cheek.

'Max,' he said, 'a self-centered, mercurial little monster. I love it. He hasn’t been brainwashed with your morality yet. He’s an original thinker, more Godlike than we’ll ever be, until mommy and daddy poison him with notions of right and wrong.'

Rufus rose, started for the backdoor.

'If there was no right or wrong,' Vi called after him, 'this world would implode. We’d all kill each other. There’d be no one left.'

He glanced back.

'A few would survive. And they’d be the creators. I’m sorry you don’t understand.'

Rufus disappeared into the house.

Luther still sat motionless at the end of the dock.

Vi reached over, took hold of my hand.

We were quiet for awhile. I tried to see my brother in the new light of him never having been raped. Tried to flush the taste of Willard Bass from my mouth.

'Did that woman on the boat, Beth, have children?' Vi asked.

'Two,' I said.

Vi shook her head. 'I can’t believe she didn’t…'

'I know. But don’t pity her, Vi. Envy is the appropriate emotion. You have no idea what tomorrow will be like. If you and Max live through it, you won’t be the same person who’s sitting beside me tonight.'

Maxine emerged from the house and walked down through the grass toward our colony of lawn chairs.

She stopped beside Vi’s chair, knelt down, and swiped the baby out of her arms.

'No!' Vi screamed, jerking against the chain. 'What are you doing?'

Max wailed.

The old woman rocked and hushed him.

'You can have him back tomorrow evening,' she said, 'long as you, and Andy, do what’s asked of you. If not, I’m going to hold Max by his little feet, and swing him into the stone walls of the basement till there’s nothing left.'

# # #

Kim and Steve woke early Thursday morning in their suite at the Harbor Inn. They dressed in clothes purchased specifically for this trip—Kim in a cream rayon skirt and matching sleeveless V-neck that tied at the waste, Steve in royal blue shorts and a canary polo shirt. He’d never sported such vibrancy in his life, but this was appropriate dress for honeymooning. He didn’t feel foolish. He felt grown-up. He was twenty-three now, a college graduate, married, and tingling with what he thought was maturity.

They crossed Silver Lake Drive and walked into the small office of the Harbor Inn, where they scavenged the meager continental breakfast. With their greasy pastries and Styrofoam cups of orange juice, the newlyweds stepped outside onto the pier and dined in the presence of the harbor, glittering in early sun.

They bogged down discussing plans for the day. Kim wanted to go shopping again at the craft and antique stores. She was insistent on buying more gifts for their parents and friends and mailing them back to Wisconsin.

'They’ll have to be in the mail by tomorrow at the latest,' she told Steve for the second time in the last half hour. 'Tomorrow at the latest.'

He wondered fleetingly if he’d married an obsessive-compulsive.

'Well, I’d like to go to Portsmouth,' he said. 'See the ghost village. On the weather, they said there’s only a twenty percent chance of rain this afternoon.'

Steve was certain she’d oblige him. He’d been a model husband thus far. It was Thursday. They’d been in Ocracoke since Sunday, and they’d shopped mercilessly every day of their honeymoon. Perhaps he’d have to put his foot down on this one.

'Kimmy,' he said. 'I really want to see Portsmouth.'

'Steve, it’s soooo hot. I don’t want to be outside all day.'

'Case closed,' he said sternly, a line his father had used to much success with Steve’s mother. 'We can shop all you want when we get back, and we’ll shop all day tomorrow. I don’t think I’m being unreasonable. Do