Bared to You: A Crossfire Novel

her, too, in my own way…the only way I knew how.

I didn’t want her to be with anyone else. So I said yes when she proposed.”

I jerked back to look at him. “She proposed?”

“Don’t look so shocked,” he said wryly. “You’re bruising my ego.”

Relief flooded me in a rush that made me dizzy. I threw myself at him, hugging him as tight as I could.

“Hey.” His returning embrace was just as fierce.

“You okay?”

“Yes. Yes, I’m getting there.” I pul ed back and cupped his jaw in my hand. “Keep going.”

“I said yes for al the wrong reasons. After two years of hanging out, we’d never spent a ful night together.

Never talked about any of the things I talk to you about.

She didn’t know me, not real y, and yet I convinced myself that being loved at al was something to hang on to. Who else was going to do it right, if not her?” He moved his attention to my other eye, cleaning away the black streaks. “I think she was hoping that being engaged would take us to a different level.

Maybe I’d open up more. Maybe we’d stay the night at the hotel—which she thought was romantic, by the way

—instead of cal ing it an early night because of classes in the morning. I don’t know.”

I thought it sounded terribly lonely. My poor Gideon.

He’d been alone for so long. Maybe his whole life.

“And maybe when she broke it off after a year,” he went on, “she was hoping that would kick-start things, too. That I’d make a bigger effort to keep her. Instead, I was relieved because I’d started to realize it was going to be impossible to share a home with her. What excuse was I going to come up with to sleep in separate rooms and have my own space?”

“You never considered tel ing her?”

“No.” He shrugged. “Until you, I didn’t consider my past an issue. Yes, it affected certain ways I did things, but everything had its place and I wasn’t unhappy. In fact, I thought I had a comfortable and uncomplicated life.”

“Oh, boy.” My nose wrinkled. “Hel o, Mr.

Comfortable. I’m Miss Complicated.”

His grin flashed. “Never a dul moment.”

Gideon tossed the makeup remover wipe in the trash.

Then he grabbed a towel to throw over the puddle he’d left on the floor and toed off his shoes. To my utter delight, he began stripping out of his wet clothes.

Watching him raptly, I said, “You feel guilty because she stil loves you.”

“I do, yes. I knew her husband. He was a good guy and he was crazy about her, until he figured out she didn’t feel the same way and things fel apart.” He looked at me as he peeled his shirt off. “I couldn’t figure out why he let it get to him. He was married to the girl he wanted, they lived in a different country away from me, so what was his problem? Now, I understand. If you loved someone else, Eva, it’d shred me to pieces, every single day. It’d kil me even if you were with me and not him. But unlike Giroux, I wouldn’t let you go. Maybe I wouldn’t have al of you, but you’d stil be mine and I’d take what I could get.” My fingers laced in my lap. “That’s what scares me, Gideon. You don’t know what you’re worth.”

“Actual y, I do. Twelve bil —”

“Shut up.” My head spun and I pressed my fingertips to my eyes. “It shouldn’t be such a mystery that women fal in love with you and stay in love. Did you know that Magdalene kept her hair long hoping it’d remind you of Corinne?”

He dropped his slacks and frowned at me. “Why?” I sighed at his cluelessness. “Because she believes Corinne is who you want.”

“Then she’s not paying attention.”

“Isn’t she? Corinne told me she talks to you almost every day.”

“Not quite. I’m often not available. You know how busy I am.” His gaze took on the heated look I was so familiar with. I knew he was thinking about the times he got busy with me.

“That’s nuts, Gideon. Her cal ing every day. That’s stalking.” Which reminded me of her assertion that he’d been as possessive over her as he was about me. That niggled at me in a terrible way.

“Where are you going with this?” he asked, in a voice laced with warm amusement.

“Don’t you get it? You drive women off the deep end because you’re the ultimate. You’re the grand prize. If a woman can’t have you, they know they’re settling for less than the best. So they can’t think about not having you. They just think of crazy ways to try and get you.”

“Except for the one I want,” he retorted dryly, “who spends a lot of time running in the opposite direction.” I stared unabashedly, drinking him in as he stood naked in front of me. “Answer one question for me, Gideon. Why do you want me, when you can have your pick of perfection instead? And I’m not fishing for compliments or reassurances. I’m asking an honest question.”

He caught me up and moved us into the bedroom.

“Eva, if you don’t stop thinking of us as temporary, I’m going to take you over my knee and make damn sure you like it.”