“I apologize. Now is not a good time.”
She took a deep breath, and stepped further into the room. “It is I who owes you an apology.”
He turned to face her then, causing her to reach for a nearby chair and grip the back of it. The sight of his bare torso stole her wits.
“You overheard,” he said flatly.
“It was not my intent.”
“We are not discussing this now.” His jaw tightened. “I am not fit company at the moment.”
Shaking her head, Isabel pushed away from her support and moved forward. “Tell me how I can help you.”
“You won’t like my answer, so I suggest you leave. Now.”
Heaving out her breath, she fought back the urge to cast up her accounts. “How could we have erred so greatly?” she asked, almost to herself.
Veering off course, she walked toward the other side of the room. “Ignorance, I suppose. And arrogance. To think that we could live as we pleased and expect Society to accept us.”
“Go away, Isabel.”
“I refuse to come between you and your family, Gray.”
“My family be damned!” he retorted. “As you will be, if you stay here any longer.”
“Don’t growl at me.” She shot him a narrowed glance. “You once shared your problems with me. Now that
“I warned you,” he said grimly. Moving so quickly she had no time to evade him, Gray caught her about the waist with his hands and carried her to the bathing chamber. His skin was hot, his grip too tight. He set her down, shoved her inside, and slammed the door shut between them.
“Gray!” she shouted through the portal.
“I am feeling violent, and your scent is making me lustful. Persisting with your inane prattle will see you tossed on your back and your mouth put to much better uses.”
Isabel blinked in shock. His rudeness was meant to drive her away, to scare her, and it very nearly succeeded. She’d never had a man speak to her so crudely and in such anger. It did odd things to her insides, making her quiver and her breath shorten.
Standing with her hand pressed against the door, she listened for sounds of him. She had no notion of what she should do, but walking away when he was so inflamed seemed cowardly. And yet…She was no fool. She knew men far better than women, and the best thing to do with a surly man was stay out of his way. She was well aware of what would happen should she choose to enter his rooms again. “Grayson?”
He did not reply.
There was nothing she could do for him, nothing that could change the facts or make him feel better beyond the temporary release of orgasm. But perhaps that was what he needed after hearing the disparagement of his virility. Perhaps it was what she needed, to forget for a short time that both of her marriages had failed. The first time, she had been young and naive. But this time she had known better. How foolish to have thought Gray would not mature with age, which he appeared to have done by taking responsibility for Lord Spencer. Which left her wondering if perhaps Pelham also would have changed, had he been given the time.
“I can hear you thinking through the door,” Gray said wryly, his voice directly opposite the barrier.
“Are you still angry?”
“Of course, but not with you.”
“I
“For what?” he asked in a low tone. “Marrying me?”
She swallowed hard, the word “no” trapped in her throat because she refused to give it voice.
“Isabel?”
Sighing, she moved away. He was right. Now was not the time to discuss this, not when she couldn’t think clearly. She hated the door between them. It blocked his scent and his touch and the hunger in his eyes-things she should not want. Why could she not be more practical about her wedded state, like the rest of her family? Why did her emotions have to become so tangled up and ruin everything?
“Just so we are clear,” he said gruffly. “I am not sorry, and out of all the things said to me in the last hour, hearing you say we have done something wrong disturbs me the most.”
Her steps faltered. How could he not regret the marriage that caused him such grief? If this was not enough to lessen his determination to have a true conjugal relationship, nothing would be.
Anger filled her at the sudden softening she felt toward him. She should not be melting over him. Her mother would not melt. Neither would Rhys. They would enjoy the great sex until they were sated and be done with it. Her chin lifted. That was what she should do also, if she were practical about such matters.
She left the bathing chamber, and walked slowly into her boudoir. The fact was, she could be practical about her affairs because the rules were set from the beginning and the end was anticipated. There was no ownership, such as she had felt for Pelham and was beginning to feel for Gray.
Drat the man! They had been friends. Then he had returned as a stranger, and took the place of her spouse.
A husband was a possession. A lover was not.
Her stomach flipped.
Lord Spencer’s angry words were, quite simply, the solution.
Yanking on the bellpull, Isabel waited impatiently for her abigail to come up and then, with the servant’s help, she undressed. Completely. And unpinned her hair. Then she squared her shoulders and quickly crossed the distance back to Gray’s room. She threw the door open, saw her husband reaching for a shirt that lay on the bed, and with a running start, jumped onto his back.
“What in-”
Caught off balance, he tumbled face-first into the bed. Isabel hung on. Reaching behind him, Gray flipped her onto the counterpane with a deep growl.
“Finally, you come to your senses,” he muttered, before lowering his head and sucking a nipple into his mouth.
“Oh,” she cried, startled by the feel of drenched heat. Heavens, the man recovered quickly! “Wait.”
He grunted and went on suckling.
“I have rules!”
Heated blue eyes met hers, and he released her nipple with a loud pop. “You. Naked. Whenever I want you. Wherever I want you. Those are the only ‘rules.’”
“Yes.” She nodded, and he stilled, his large body turning hard as stone. “We will draft an agreement, and-”
“We have a written agreement, madam-a marriage certificate.”
“No. I will be your mistress and you will be my lover. The arrangement will be clear and on paper, since I cannot trust you to keep to your end of bargains.”
“Just for curiosity’s sake,” he began, pushing up from the bed to stand over her. His hands went to the placket of his trousers. “Are you deranged?”
She pushed up onto her elbows, her mouth watering as he shoved his garments to the floor and was suddenly, gloriously naked and impressively aroused.
He pounced on her with little finesse. “Your mental malady will not dampen my ardor, so you needn’t worry about that. You can spout all the gibberish you like while I ride you. I will not mind a bit.”
“Gray, really.”
Catching her knee, he shoved her thighs wide and settled his lean hips between them. “A wife is cherished and treated with a gentle hand. A mistress is a convenient cunt to rut in. Are you certain you wish to alter your status in our bedroom?”
It was then she realized he was still angry, his jaw clenched dangerously. The heavy heat of his erection was like lightning striking her skin. Gooseflesh spread over her body, and her breasts swelled painfully. “You don’t frighten me.”
