The Shore (Leisure Fiction)

can. Dense shadows loomed. As she dodged past, her foot slipped on a patch of garbage and she felt a pulling burn in her leg. Shit! She limped on. Probably not so bad.

The pain balled hotly in her calf. Just hurts like a...

With a mewling choke, she whirled, both hands raised to protect her face. Something squirmed, and a small gray form blurred away from her on the ground. Wind spun an unearthly whine into the night.

What...? Shivering with more than the cold, she hobbled closer.

V

As a frigid wave of air swept in, the barmaid looked up with a reflexive smile. Yes, she thought, checking out the newcomer, that was the same pinched, bitter look she'd seen on the face of each patron to stumble in tonight. But this one had something else to offer.

Maybe everything else.

Tall. Good shoulders under the leather jacket. Thick hair. Blond? She couldn't tell in this light, but it hung wild in his face, and she liked that too. The door swung shut behind him as he stalked through a winking band of light. Even watery from the cold, those sharp blue eyes cut at her from across the room. She watched him saunter up to the bar and try to look nonchalant with everybody staring at him. He moved smoothly for such a big guy, and she caught herself actually licking her lips.

With an elaborately casual glance around, he planted himself on a bar stool and pulled off his gloves to blow on his hands.

He looked mean, she decided, or maybe not 'mean' exactly, maybe just a little dangerous. Definitely her type. 'What'll it be, hon?'

He looked up. The barmaid wasn't as pretty as she'd seemed from the doorway. The straw-colored hairdo had been sprayed to brittle stiffness, and the makeup had been applied too heavily. He opened his mouth to speak but no words came.

'You really look frostbitten.' She gave a throaty giggle. 'Can I do something to warm you up?'

A sting of burned tobacco tinctured the air, making his eyes water until the room seemed to melt, and the heavy scent of food made him reel. The woman leaned on the bar and smiled full in his face while she talked, her gaze overbright. Even in this dimness, he could see the tight lines that crosshatched her lips. He had difficulty concentrating on her words, but he said something back to her--he wasn't sure what--and as he peered around the room, a couple at the nearest table looked away. The man's collar had twisted, and his companion, an elderly woman with hair the color of iodine, reached to adjust it. Their table wobbled when she moved.

One long multicolored fingernail tapped commandingly against the bar's surface. 'Something to eat? Before I turn this off?' Indicating a Crock-Pot with a wave of her hand, the barmaid blew smoke to the side, dropping the unfiltered cigarette into a clamshell. 'You all right?' She waved politely at the cloud, then used her nails to daintily peel a fleck of tobacco off the tip of her tongue. 'I roll my own.'

'Sorry.' He nodded. 'Give me a minute to catch my breath.' But when he asked for a draft beer, she just looked annoyed.

'Bottles only. One brand. Did you say you wanted a sandwich, hon?' She plucked a match from a box on the counter. 'So what brings you to Edgeharbor?'

Good--let her do all the talking. But he thought she seemed to be watching him too closely, smiling over at him while she fixed a hot roast beef sandwich. The fatty odor made his head swim. Can't seem to manage anymore. She chatted on, raising her voice above the television set that no one appeared to be watching, most of the patrons preferring to keep their attention on him. He tried to look around without seeming to, attempting to draw individual features from the pervasive gloom. Across the bar, a lighter flickered, and a man's face became a goblin mask, then receded.

Various attempts had apparently been made to decorate the bar. A fake ship's wheel hung against the paneled wall, but he could detect no other evidence of a nautical motif. Covered with cowgirl decals, an unlit jukebox stood silent, a Styrofoam snowman perched atop it. Plastic garland twisted around sections of the bar, and on a shelf, pink lights blinked from a tiny white tree effigy, the branches of which resembled bottlebrushes.

'I always get so depressed when I have to take it down.' She shrugged, noticing his stare. 'Maybe this year, I'll just leave it up permanent. What do you think?' Her husky laugh might have been sexy if she hadn't started coughing. 'So what did you say brings you here? Business? You don't look like you're from anywheres around here.'

He started to thank her but caught himself and just smiled instead. Okay, she likes that. There'd been a time when people had often complimented his smile. Keep working it. With a faint, detached amazement, he watched the flush rise in her cheeks. At least I can still do something right. Sort of. She smoothed her sweater, pulling it tight over her breasts. Shy little thing. He grinned appreciatively, feeling nothing but disgust with himself. This could be a break though, and he needed one: somebody had to answer his questions. 'Pretty quiet tonight,' he began.

'Off-season.' She shrugged vaguely. 'You need a glass?'

Off-season--he'd heard that up and down the coast, in every little shore town he'd been through, as though these people lived only for the few months of pounding sun, the rest of the year declining into a kind of stupor. The barmaid clicked away on incredibly high heels, and he noticed that, behind the row of bottles, a greasy fog had settled on what might once have been a tinted mirror. Between a fifth of Jack Daniel's and a bottle of something with a bat on the label, he recognized the smear of his own reflection.

My Lord. Of all the transformations, of all the damaged and aching spots within, nothing showed. It seemed shockingly wrong. He looked the same, exactly the same.

Without quite intending to, he lifted the beer in a silent toast, and his teeth clenched. Doesn't he look natural? Between yellowing blotches on the mirror, a handsome man raised his glass, and he studied the image. A lie. It sickened him. Even my appearance. As he wondered if anything about him had ever been honest, his grip tightened on the beer.

Here I am, alone. As usual. Gradually, he began to peer about more openly. Funny, how nothing ever changes. He found he envied even this muttering crowd their dreary camaraderie. At the far end of the bar, the barmaid looked almost glamorous, and the customers in the dimness might be lively, congenial. Who could tell? Sipping his beer, he returned his attention to the mirror, and the handsome image began to melt. The ears stood out red as blood, and the unshaven cheeks bristled. He downed the beer in uneven gulps. Years ago, in another lifetime it seemed, hadn't women liked his eyes?

They looked frozen now. Like filthy ice at the bottom of a well.

Flanks trembling, the cat tried to slink back under the fence but crumpled before it reached the hole. A cardboard box with a burst bottom lay on its side nearby, amid the jars and cans.

'It's all right.' Kit approached cautiously. 'Don't be afraid.' She reached out her hand. 'No, no, don't move.' The cat dragged dark smears behind it on the concrete. 'Ssh. Have you been in a fight or something, huh? Poor little guy.' Actually, the cat struck her as unusually large.

I don't even like cats much. In the past few minutes, the animal had twice followed her out onto the sidewalk, circling her while making that terrible noise, then had dragged itself back into the alley.

'You tangle with a dog, kitty?' At the sound of her voice, the wounded feline crept closer, only to twist unsteadily away. 'You're a size all right. I'd hate to see the other fellow. There now, cat. It's all right.' Its legs tremored.

What the heck color is it anyway? Scant illumination floated into the alley, and she leaned closer. Great. Orange tail, one white ear, gray face: it looked as though it had been stitched together from parts of other animals. Frankenstein's cat.

The next time the animal fell on its side, it failed to get up. Gingerly, she stroked the fur, but the beast didn't twitch. Four streaks of blood glistened on its flank.

Suddenly, the broad head tilted, straining in her direction. Then the green glimmer of the eyes sealed shut again, and the head dropped.