Money Shot

“Daniel,” I said, looking at my feet and flinching away from the large, bobbing erection threatening to poke me in the kidney. Dick Dallas never was the sharpest tool in the shed, but I still couldn’t believe he didn’t recognize me.

“Well, I’ll tell you what, Daniel,” he replied. “If you ever feel like you need someone to talk to, a shoulder to cry on...”

“Dick!” the cameraman called. “We’re ready for you.”

“Right,” Dick called back over his shoulder. He turned to me with a wry, it’s a living sort of shrug and then made his finger and thumb into the shape of a gun and pointed at me. “Catch you later.”

The second his massive back was turned I burst out into silent stifled giggles behind my hand. My first day as a gay man and I’d already been cruised. Of course, Dick Dallas would pretty much fuck anything that didn’t pull a knife on him. Still, I had to admit that it felt good to be desired, to be thought of as attractive again. The last person who’d thought I was sexy was Jesse.

The shoot continued through a few more rotations. I was feeling itchy and uncomfortable under my binder and the disturbingly familiar smell of sex and sweat and fruity body spray and cheap lube all baking under hot lights in an old dusty warehouse was a powerful reminder of why I got out from in front of the camera in the first place.

“Okay kids,” the cameraman said. “Snap crackle pop. Who’s ready?”

Of course it was Dick Dallas who led the pack.

“Come on all of you hot fuckers!” Tabby cried in her unique, un-American syntax that never failed to make me smile. “I must taste all of the cums right now in my face!”

One by one, each guy came forward and earned his check. There were a few stragglers who held things up, taking longer than the rest to get to the point, but eventually the last guy did the job and the cameraman zoomed into Tabby’s wide open mouth.

“...and cut,” the camera guy said. “Great. That’s lunch.”

“But I am already full!” Tabby said, smacking her lips and patting her belly.

“You ain’t never full,” one of the guys I didn’t know said.

“Ah, you know me too well,” she replied.

I watched Malloy approach her, speaking in a low voice as she unselfconsciously scrubbed between her legs with a colorful beach towel. She nodded agreeably and then walked away, motioning for him to follow. Malloy gestured for me to join him. I had noticed Dick Dallas circling me like a hungry shark so I hustled quickly over to Malloy.

“What’s up?” I asked.

“She’ll do it,” Malloy replied. “She said she’ll translate the note.”

We followed Tabby over to the large bathroom and she waved us inside, locking the door behind us.

“Who is your little boy friend,” Tabby asked, looking me up and down as she stripped off the stained rags of her cheerleader outfit.

“My nephew,” Malloy said. “He got beat up by some punks, so he’s staying with me for a while. He’s okay.”

Again that heart pounding stretch of seconds while I waited to be recognized. Tabby’s electric blue eyes lingered on my face for a moment that felt like a century but then turned back to her own reflection in the mirror, pulling her fingers through her sticky red hair extensions.

“That’s terrible,” she said, peeling off her false eyelashes. “Well, let me see this note.”

Malloy handed her the note and to his obvious dismay, she sat down on the toilet and had at it right in front of us, brow furrowed and fat lips moving while she read. Malloy took a step back and shot me a look. I just smirked. You gotta love Tabby. That girl has no shame.

“Okay,” Tabby said, wincing with a pained grimace as she wiped. “You want I should write it down, what this says?”

“That’d be great,” Malloy said, tearing a sheet of paper from a notebook and handing her a pen. “Thanks.”

“I am happy to help Didi,” Tabby said. She stood, taking the pen and flushing the toilet. “Because I don’t believe any of this bullshit. Angel Dare is not a murderer. She couldn’t do it, I know. Now, me. I could do it like that.” She snapped her sparkle-nailed fingers. “Somebody does wrong to me, I do double back to them. That is the way where I come from. But I know Angel Dare, she has good heart. Maybe she is bitch to producers who don’t respect her models or to the pushy jealous boyfriends that want to control the girls, but she is good person inside. And you, baby, you are good man to help her.”

I looked away and my eye snagged on my own reflection. That stranger in the mirror. Was I really a good person? I wanted to kill Jesse and his boss, but maybe Tabby was right. Maybe I didn’t have it in me.

Tabby bent down over the toilet, writing with her piece of notebook paper against the toilet tank. Her huge implants jiggled as she wrote, wrinkling like cheap plastic trash bags under her armpits. Malloy stood back beside me, eyes averted from Tabby’s high-mileage ass. I looked over at the scatter of cheap make-up on the counter by the sink. Without even really knowing why, I put my hand over a glossy red lipstick and then swiftly pocketed it when no one was looking.

“Okay,” Tabby announced, straightening up and handing the paper to Malloy. “I am finished.”

“Thanks,” Malloy said, scanning quickly over her translation.

“My pleasure, baby,” she replied. “But this note. It is very bad what this girl writes. Very bad, but not so surprising, I am sad to say. These terrible things happen too much often to foreign girls, but tell me, what does this note has to do with Angel.”

“That’s what I intend to find out,” Malloy said, folding the translation and the original together and stashing them in the pocket of his jacket. “One other thing. Do you know the girl who wrote this note? Romanian chick, goes by the name of Kimberly or maybe Lia? Did a series called Naughty Teens?”

“I had a aunt named Lia,” Tabby said. “But she was a fat, religious woman with eight kids and more hair on her chin than I have on my pussy.” She turned on the hot water in the shower. “I think maybe I heard of Naughty Teens. Amateur, right? Me, I don’t get hired for the amateur shoots anymore.” She grinned and hefted her implants. “Two big reasons.”

“Well,” Malloy said. “Thanks for your help. And keep this to yourself, okay. At least until I can find Angel and sort this whole mess out.”

“You have my word,” Tabby said. “I hope you find the motherfuckers that do this to Angel.”

About half an hour later, Malloy and I sat together in a booth at Bob’s Big Boy on Riverside Drive in Burbank. I was feeling tired and surly and I had to piss. It never used to be a big deal, pissing. Now it was this source of major angst. I couldn’t go in the ladies room and didn’t want to go in the men’s room, so I just sat there and held it. I was pretty damn sick of the whole business and from where I was sitting I didn’t see any end in sight.

Malloy ate a burger. I tried to concentrate on Tabby’s translation of Lia’s letter while pushing uneaten chunks of fruit around on my plate.

Dear Lenuta,

Remember me, Lia Albu from the Saint Agnes Home for Orphan Girls? I am in terrible trouble with bad men. They bring me here to have job as nanny and then take my passport. They make me be prostitute and do porno to pay back for ticket but they claim so many expenses and I cannot get any money. They never leave me alone. They beat me and put drugs in me, but I am smart. I make this man Vukasin like me like a girlfriend, then I steal money and run away. Now I need your help, please, not for me but for my sister Ana. Remember little Ana? Before I run with money, I find out these bad men bring her too, at the end of this month the 27th. I read her name on a list and I know they lie to her like they lie to me. Please meet me in the food court of the Sherman Oaks Fashion Square Mall at noon on Monday. I can do nothing myself but I will give you money to buy Ana and five other girls, to save them from this hell that I have lived. If I call police the bad men will run and take Ana with them. This is only way. Please, Lenuta. I can trust no one else.

Lia

I set the letter aside and speared an anemic-looking cube of watermelon with my fork. I looked it over then put it back down uneaten. I wondered briefly why I had ordered this crummy fruit salad anyway. Honestly, there wasn’t much point in sticking to my diet, what with everything that had happened and was still happening. Who’s