'Tell me something: where are you going with these questions?'
'I have no idea.'
The doctor sat there, lost in thought; he was thinking back again, to the morning when little Eskil lay naked on the porcelain table, sliced open from his throat down. To the moment when he caught sight of the lump in his windpipe and realised that it was two waffles. Two whole hearts. One big sticky lump of egg and flour and butter and milk.
'I remember the autopsy,' he said. 'I remember it in great detail. Maybe by that I mean that I was actually surprised. No, I can't really say that. But,' he added suddenly, 'how did you come up with the idea that there might be something irregular about his death?'
Irregular. A vague word that could cover so many different possibilities.
'Well,' said Sejer, looking closely at the doctor, 'he had a baby-sitter. Let me put it this way: some of the signals she sent out in connection with the death have made me wonder.'
'Signals? You can just ask her, can't you?'
'No, I can't ask her.' Sejer shook his head. 'It's too late.'
Dessert waffles for breakfast, he thought. They must have been left over from the day before. It was unlikely that Johnas had got up and bustled around so early in the morning. Dessert waffles from the day before, tough and cold. He buttoned his jacket and got into his car. No one would wonder about it. Children were always putting things down their throats. As the pathologist had said: they stuff things in. He started the car, crossed Rosenkrantzgaten, and drove down to the river, where he turned left. He wasn't hungry, but he drove to the courthouse, parked, and took the lift up to the cafeteria, where they sold waffles. He bought a plate of them, with some jam and coffee and sat down by the window. Carefully he tore loose two of the hearts. They were freshly made and crisp. He folded them in half and then again in half and sat there staring at them. With a little effort he could put two of them in his mouth and still have room to chew. He did so, feeling the way they slid down his oesophagus without any trouble. Newly made dessert waffles were slippery and greasy. He drank some coffee and shook his head. Against his will he allowed the flickering pictures to force their way into his mind, pictures of the little boy with his throat full. The way he must have flailed and waved his hands, breaking the plate and fighting for his life without anyone hearing him. His father had heard the plate smash. Why hadn't he come running? Because the boy was always breaking things, said the doctor. But still – a little boy and a smashed plate. Even I would have come running at once, he thought. I would have imagined the chair toppling over, that he might have been hurt. But his father had finished shaving. What if the mother had been awake after all? Would she have heard the plate fall? He drank more coffee and spread jam on the rest of the waffles. Then he began reading through the report. After a while he stood up and went out to his car. He thought about Astrid Johnas, who had been lying in bed alone upstairs, with no idea what was going on.
Halvor picked up a sandwich from the plate and turned on his computer. He liked the fanfare sounds and the stream of blue light in the room when the programme started up. Each fanfare was a solemn moment. He thought of it as welcoming him like a VIP, as if he were expected. Today he decided on a special strategy. He was in a reckless mood, the way Annie often was. That's why he started off with 'Leave me alone', 'Private', and 'Hands off'. It was the sort of thing she would say whenever he put his arm around her shoulder, very tentatively and in a purely affectionate way. But she always said it kindly. And when he dared to ask her for a kiss she would threaten to bite off his sullen grin. Her voice said something different from her words. Of course that didn't mean he could ignore what she said, but at least it made it a little easier to bear. Basically he was never allowed to touch her. But she still wanted him around. They used to lie close together, stealing warmth from each other. That alone wasn't half bad, lying like that in the dark, close to Annie, listening to the silence outside, free from the terror and nightmares of his father. The bad dreams could no longer come rushing in to tear off the covers; they could no longer reach him. Safety. He was used to having someone lying next to him, the way his brother had for so many years. Used to hearing someone else breathing and feel their warmth against his face.
Why had she written anything down in the first place? What was it about? And would he even understand it if he did find it? He chewed on the bread and liverwurst, listening to the roar of the TV in the living room. He felt a little guilty because his grandmother was sitting in there all alone in the evenings, and she would continue to do so until he came up with the password and found his way into Annie's secret. It must be something dark, he thought, since it's so inaccessible. Something dark and dangerous that couldn't be said out loud, could only be written down and then locked away. As if it were a matter of life and death. He typed that in. 'Life and death'. Nothing happened.
Mrs Johnas was having her lunch break. She peered at him from the back room, a piece of crispbread in one hand, wearing the same red suit as the time before. She looked uneasy. She put the food down on the paper it had been wrapped in, as if it would be inappropriate to sit there and chew while they were talking about Annie. She concentrated on her coffee instead.
'Has something happened?' she asked, taking a sip from her thermos cup.
'Today I don't want to talk about Annie.'
She lifted her cup and looked at him, her eyes wide.
'Today I want to talk about Eskil.'
'Excuse me?' Her full lips became smaller and narrower. 'I'm done with all that; I've put it behind me. And if you don't mind my saying so, the effort has cost me a great deal.'
'I'm sorry I can't be more considerate. There are a few details about the boy's death that interest me.'
'Why is that?'
'That's not something I have to tell you, Mrs Johnas,' Sejer said gently. 'Just answer my questions.'
'And if I refuse? What if I just can't bear to talk about it?'
'Then I'll leave,' he said. 'And give you time to think. And I'll come back another day with the same questions.'
She pushed her cup aside, put her hands in her lap, and straightened her back. As if this was exactly what she had expected and needed to steel herself.
'I don't like it,' she said. 'When you came here before, wanting to talk about Annie, it never occurred to me to refuse to co-operate. But if this has to do with Eskil, tell me what you want to know and then you'd better leave.'
She fumbled with her hands and then clasped them tight. As if there were something frightening her.
'Just before he died,' Sejer said, looking at her, 'he knocked his plate to the floor and it smashed. Did you hear it?'
The question surprised her. She stared at him with astonishment, as if she had expected something else, perhaps something worse. 'Yes,' she said.
'You heard it? So you were awake?' He studied her face, noted the little shadow that flitted over it, and then went on. 'You weren't asleep after all? Did you hear the electric shaver?'
She bowed her head. 'I heard him go into the bathroom and the door slam.'
'How did you know he was going into the bathroom?'
'I just knew. We lived in that house for a long time. Each door had its own sound.'
'And before that? Before he went there?'
She hesitated a little, searching her memory.
'Their voices, in the kitchen. They were having breakfast.'
'Eskil was eating dessert waffles,' he said cautiously. 'Was that usual in your house? Dessert waffles for breakfast?' He added a warm smile to his question.
'He must have begged for them,' she said wearily. 'And he always got what he wanted. It wasn't easy to say no to Eskil because it would set off an avalanche inside him. He couldn't stand any kind of resistance. It was like blowing on hot embers. And Henning wasn't especially patient; he hated to hear him screaming.
'So you heard him screaming?'
She tore her hands apart and reached for her cup.
'He was always making a great deal of noise,' she said, staring at the steam rising from her coffee.
'Were they having a fight, Mrs Johnas?'
She smiled faintly. 'They fought all the time. Eskil was begging for waffles. Henning had buttered some toast and he wanted him to eat it. You know how it is – we do all we can to get our kids to eat, so he must have got out the waffles, or maybe Eskil had caught sight of them. They were on the counter covered with plastic from the night
