38: Disappearance
39: Security
40: Recollection
41: The Path of Hope
42: Blood Money
43: Beneath the Antiquities
44: Accountability
45: The Method
46: Guerrilla Tactics
47: Pandora’s Box
48: The Last Farewell
49: The Colour of Blood
50: Ashes To Ashes
? The Victoria Vanishes ?
1
Asleep in the Stars
She had four and a half minutes left to live.
She sat alone at the cramped bar of the Seven Stars and stared forlornly into her third empty glass of the evening, feeling invisible.
The four-hundred-year-old public house was tucked behind the Royal Courts of Justice. It had been simply furnished with a few small tables, wooden booths and framed posters of old British courtroom movies. Mrs Curtis had been coming here for years, ever since she had first become a legal secretary, but every time she came through the door, she imagined her father’s disapproval of her drinking alone in a London pub. It wasn’t something a vicar’s daughter should do.
Hemmed in by barristers and clerks, she could not help wondering if this was all that would be left for her now. She wanted to remain in employment, but companies had grown clever about making women of a certain age redundant. After her last pay-off, she had spent time working for a philosophical society instead of heading back into another large firm. Now she was waiting for – what exactly? Someone to surprise her, someone to appreciate her, someone –
She stared back into the melting ice cubes.
Her name was Naomi, but her colleagues called her Mrs Curtis. What was the point of having an exotic name if nobody used it? She was sturdy-beamed and rather plain, with thick arms and straight bangs of greying hair, so perhaps she looked more like a Curtis to others. If she had married, perhaps she would have gained a more appealing surname. She regretted having nothing to show for the past except the passing marks of time.
She checked the message on her cell phone again. It was brief and unsigned, but casual acquaintances sometimes called and suggested a drink, then failed to turn up; the legal profession was like that. Looking around the bar, she saw no-one she recognised. Friends usually knew where to find her.
“Give me another Gordon’s, darling. Better make it a double.”
When she noticed him, it seemed he had been standing at her side for a while, trying to get served. “Here,” she said, pushing back her stool, “get in while you can.”
“Thanks.” He had a nice profile, but quickly turned his head from her, probably because of shyness. He was a lot younger than she, slightly built, with long brown hair that fell across his face. There was something distantly recognisable about him. “Can I get you one while I’m here?” he asked.
“Go on, then, I’ll have another Gordon’s, plenty of ice.”
He slid the drink over to her, looking around. “I wonder if it’s always this crowded.”
“Pretty much. Don’t even think about finding your way to the toilets, they’re up those stairs.” She pointed to the steep wooden passageway where a pair of tall prosecutors were making a meal out of having to squeeze past each other.
He muttered something, but it was lost in a burst of raucous laughter behind them. “I’m sorry, what did you say?” she asked.
“I said it feels like home in here.” He turned to her. She tried not to stare.
“My home was never like this.”
“You know what I mean. Cosy. Warm. Sort of friendly.”
He showed no inclination to move away. Perhaps he was lonely, a stranger in town. He liked the pubs around here, he told her, Penderel’s Oak, the Old Mitre, the Punch Tavern, the Crown & Sugarloaf.
“Seen the displays in the window outside this place?” he asked.
She turned and glanced at the swinging pub sign above the door, seven gold-painted stars arranged in a circle. The wind was rising. In the windows below, legal paraphernalia had been arranged in dusty tableaux.
“Wigs and gowns, dock briefs. All that stuff for defending criminals, nonces and grasses.” He spoke quickly, almost angrily. She couldn’t help wondering if he’d had trouble with the police. “I used to meet my girlfriend in pubs like this. After she left me I got depressed, thought of topping myself. That’s why I keep this.” He dug in his pocket and showed her a slender alloy capsule, a shiny bullet with his name etched onto the side. “It’s live ammunition. If things get too much I’d use it on myself, no problem. Only I haven’t got a gun.” He’d finished his beer. “Get you another?”
She wanted more gin but demurred, protested, pushing her stool back by an inch. He seemed dangerous, unpredictable, in the wrong pub. He took her right arm by the elbow and guided it back onto the bar with a smile, but gripped so firmly that she had no choice. She looked around; most of the standing men and women had their backs to her, and were lost in their own conversation. Even the barman was facing away. A tiny, crowded pub, the safest place she could imagine, and yet she suddenly felt trapped.
“I really don’t want another drink. In fact I think I have to – ” Was she raising her voice to him? If so, no-one had noticed.
“This is a good place. Nice and busy. I think you should stay. I want you to stay.”
“Then you have to let go – ” But his grip tightened. She reached out with her left hand to attract the attention of the barman but he was moving further away.
“You have to let go – ”
It was ridiculous, she was surrounded by people but the noise of laughter and conversation was drowning her out. The crush of customers made her even more invisible. He was hurting her now. She tried to squirm out of his embrace.
Something stung her face hard. She brought her free hand to her cheek, but there was nothing. It felt like an angry wasp, trapped and maddened in the crowded room. Wasn’t it too early in the year for such insects?
And then he released her arm, and she was dropping, away through the beery friendship of the bar, away from the laughter and yeasty warmth of life, into a place of icy, infinite starlight.